My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1650: Chapter 1444: Talking About Everything

Perhaps in the future, no matter how we talk about the world, it will no longer have anything to do with you. At that moment, I think you will feel heartache, you will realize that the person you love the most is no longer with you.

During this period, Zhang Yichen seemed to feel quite relaxed. His parents no longer meddled in his affairs, at least they didn’t argue incessantly as they used to. Additionally, his wife’s condition has been relatively stable without any negative incidents or accidents. For him, this is a blessing amidst misfortune. He hadn’t led such a peaceful life for a long time, and he didn’t even know that reaching this point had been tough for him. But he never gave up.

If due to family conflict, he suddenly faced a bad outcome, he truly wouldn’t know what kind of conclusion he would face. Now, he has no inclination or thought to deal with these grudges and grievances. He feels that each day is productive yet exhausting.

Over the years, she had worked hard to reach today, and it truly wasn’t easy. He pondered whether he had really lived without regret after all the decisions he had made over the years. He never considered how he reached this point, living each day in hopes of his family’s safety. Now that his family had reached the desired outcome he most wanted, even though his wife hasn’t regained consciousness, he still felt a sense of happiness...

”Dad, to be honest, I am filled with despair about this family now. I can no longer feel the warmth I used to long for from everyone in this family, you understand? When I’ve been tormented time and again, when I’m at a dead-end needing the care and protection of my loved one, all I receive is pain. I’ve longed my whole life to live happily, to live joyfully, but what did I receive in the end? I’ve received nothing, while I’ve lost so much.

These years, no matter how you perceive me, I’ve genuinely been happy. Even if I was hurt again and again, crying alone under the covers, deep inside, those were still the happiest times of my life. I reached today through my efforts, without relying on anyone. I was only raised by my grandfather. At that moment, deep inside my heart, it was truly bittersweet. I never received love or companionship from you. In my heart, my parents have always been like invisible people, never appearing by my side.

The age when I most needed you is over, those past times are gone forever, there’s no opportunity to return to the present. How could you understand the intense pain you once caused me? I never spoke about my past pains to anyone, as it made no difference even if I said it. But today, I can’t bear it anymore, having done so much, but what’s the conclusion? Receiving harm from my own family, I gained nothing.

The time when I needed you the most, you were wandering elsewhere, abandoning me to face all the pressure alone. At that moment, deep inside my heart was always a sense of bitterness. I never imagined my parents would treat me so cruelly. Did I really do something wrong by wanting what I wanted? Am I destined to be hurt by my own family over and over again, while I endure all the pain without reacting? I’m unwilling to accept that. Through my efforts, I’ve proven it’s right to refuse to be resigned to fate.

I once thought of living at all costs, as long as I could live happily. But what did I get in the end? Even if I could continue this way, I would get nothing in the end. I lost my lover, lost myself, lost a potentially happy family, lost everything I cared about and treasured the most. What was the meaning of everything I did then?”

”Child, you should understand that I never intended to treat you this way from the beginning. The misunderstandings between us are too deep, not something that can be resolved with a few words. Have you thought about it? If I really wanted you gone and never to return, I certainly wouldn’t be here to care for you and accompany you. When have you ever stood in my shoes to consider things? Did everything you do be correct and everything I did be wrong? For freedom and sustenance, do I still have a fault? I left just for my partner’s happiness. Don’t you also wish your wife could be happy, healthy, and safe by your side for a lifetime? Don’t you think I want the same thing?

Many things are perfectly natural, yet in your eyes, they seem unforgivable. You never thought about a father’s inner struggles and pain when torn between conflicting duties. At that moment, how should I choose? You think this is all for myself. Have you considered how difficult it was for me to do everything I did? If you could think from my perspective just a little, the ending wouldn’t be like the current state. I don’t wish for any more surprises between us, and I don’t want either of us to make a big deal out of this matter, incessantly arguing. That kind of life exhausts me; it’s not the life we want.”

”Now you suddenly tell me that you don’t want that kind of life. Do you think I would believe you? Once upon a time, I might have truly believed every word you said, but not anymore. Because believing you only leads to repeated hurt. Why should I let myself be bruised all over, bearing all the pain silently, while you laugh by yourself? Why, among all people I owe in this lifetime, are only my grandfather, wife, and child? I owe nothing to my parents, because they never gave me love, never accompanied me. Even if you gave me life, we settled all those scores the moment you abandoned me over the years. We owe each other nothing, I no longer feel connected because of your appearance or existence. I won’t feel hatred for your actions. I’m no longer who I used to be. I will live honorably through my own efforts, and never be saddened by anyone again...”

When one loves another person deeply enough to the bones, they will find that once that person leaves their sight, they will miss them within a second, yearning for them.