My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1648: Chapter 1442: A Life of Pain

Zhang Zhentian didn’t expect that this time, without saying anything, everything was seen clearly by his father. It was as if his father could see through his heart, which was terrifying. Did he not dare to have even a single stray thought? But he must think this matter through. If he really gave up his entire family this time because of a wrong turn in life, then it would truly be as his father said—he would never have another chance to return to this home.

But if he really made the wrong decision this time, choosing to abandon his wife in favor of his family, then his wife would leave him and never forgive him. Why did he have to face such a dilemma? All he wanted was a way for everyone to be willing to accept him, to have everyone treat him as family.

Why was it so difficult to act in this way? Why was it that what he wanted was always out of reach? Was it truly this difficult? If it were someone else, how would they choose between a beloved woman and the family they owed for years?

”Dad, I have to admit I’ve had such thoughts, but now hearing you say it, I’m really conflicted deep down. I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid that you and my wife won’t get along, that you’ll make things difficult for her again and again. I don’t want her to suffer any grievances. I only want to see her happy, radiant smile. For years, she also wanted to come back to this family, to be by your side.

Her longing for everyone in this family is no less than mine. On the contrary, I’ve done too much to make you all sad, but she’s innocent. No matter how stubborn she was, no matter how unreasonable her actions seemed, she’s still my wife and a part of this family. Shouldn’t we choose to embrace her, forgive her, understand her, no matter what?

From the beginning, I’ve known that the prosperity of a family depends on us. Yet we ended up hurting you time and time again, creating prejudices that remain unresolved to this day. We know it’s all our self-inflicted misfortune. We can’t blame anyone, but we also want to come back to this family and live peacefully. We don’t want to continue wandering outside. Once someone comes home, they don’t want to keep wandering outside anymore. That’s not the ending anyone wants!”

”We never intended to make things difficult for her. We just want to know if you sincerely want to return to this family. Isn’t she capable of doing the same? If you return to this family insincerely and hurt us again, how should we cope when the time comes? Are we truly deserving of being hurt by you repeatedly without even protecting ourselves?

You are my son. Can you think more carefully when you speak and act? How could I have such a thoughtless son? How should I respond to what you said? She’s my daughter-in-law. No matter what, I will prioritize her interests and take her into consideration, but you? By saying these things today, you’re completely disregarding me as your father. If she knew, what do you think she would feel?

If you came up with these words yourself, I understand, but if she asked you to say this to me, then no matter what, I will once again drive you out mercilessly. I’m not a philanthropist. I can’t just comply with everything you do. You’ll eventually have to bear the consequences of your actions, no matter how unsatisfactory your past years have been. Was it I who forced you into such a miserable life?”

Stop blaming your mistakes on others; look for reasons within yourself. Was it truly your fault? If it wasn’t your fault, then perhaps it really was someone else’s problem. No matter the issue, you should start by looking for reasons within yourself. Don’t blame others. Blaming others is not what a man should do.”

”Dad, I’m sorry. This incident today is my fault. I was too anxious. I don’t want to be driven out again, nor do I want my wife to leave me, which is why I said those things to you. In truth, these are my own thoughts and have nothing to do with my wife. She wasn’t aware, nor did I intend to tell her. She never asked me to say these things to you.

I’ve seen too much of life’s ups and downs. I just want everyone to live happily together. For years, we’ve both pursued the same life, just wanting our family to be by our side, to reunite during festive times, to sit together as a family for a reunion dinner, instead of being in different realms.

I’m not heartless or cruel in my actions—I have a conscience and feelings. I’m a living human being. I understand the importance of emotions and my own feelings. I just hope my family doesn’t put me in difficult positions repeatedly. I truly don’t have a way to choose between my wife and my family.

You are the family I’ve owed for years, but she’s the wife who’s been by my side for years. How can I abandon my wife of many years to make it up to you? But how can I be so cruel as to abandon you again for my wife? It would only trap me in the middle, facing attacks from both sides, making me unable to please anyone. Whatever I do would be wrong, because no matter which side I choose, I will hurt the other. The only way I can think of to please both sides is for you to get along harmoniously, but don’t put me in the middle. I only wish for everyone to live joyously and not to make unnecessary sacrifices. Continuing to sacrifice for the happiness of one side is not a long-term solution. Will it really allow a family to last? Never!

No one’s life is without pain.