My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1607: Chapter 1401: Heart-Wrenching Agony

Do you still remember my kindness?

Ran Zhihan said it and turned away, he needed to return home quickly, he didn’t want to continue here and let this scandal keep dragging on, he knew this was a war between the two men, but why did it have to involve him, an innocent person?

Zhang Yichen saw his wife turn and leave, how could he not be anxious? He quickened his pace to catch up, and when the two of them returned home, Zhang Yichen saw Ran Zhihan had already packed all her belongings, the wardrobe was empty, no longer holding any of his wife’s clothes. He realized his wife’s wings were getting stronger, she was more and more unwilling to share her true feelings with him, and he started to feel a bit upset inside.

”Ran Zhihan, what do you mean? Are you planning to move out now? Do you think moving out makes any sense? Can’t you stay here peacefully in my place? In your eyes, do I exist as your husband at all?”

”What does it mean to exist as your husband in my eyes? In your eyes, do I still exist as your wife? You clearly know this matter has nothing to do with me at all, yet you wrongly accuse me, placing all the blame on my head. What exactly do you want from me? Don’t you regard me as your wife in your world? I really don’t ask for much, I just want to live peacefully with you, why is that so hard?

I don’t want you to tell me it’s because you care for me, that you acted impulsively because you care too much. In reality, I’m nothing inside you; just a pet that can be summoned or dismissed at will. Like Chen Gang, you both only see me as a tool for use. I don’t understand, I just want to live peacefully, why is that so difficult? In your eyes, what am I, an object or something you can trade at will? Why do you both have to hurt me simultaneously? My inner world isn’t strong, I can’t withstand your repeated harms. You and Chen Gang are no different, both blinded by self-interest, willing to hurt the ones closest to you, and yet I’m hurt over and over, doubted repeatedly by the man I love most. Do you still have trust in me?”

”Isn’t it that I didn’t give you trust? When I trusted you, you always thought it was easy to fool me, always assumed that no matter what mistake you made I wouldn’t care. But now you understand that this wasn’t the case; missed is missed. You are no longer the person you used to be, I have changed long ago. We no longer have many common languages, so please understand my grievance. I want the same as you, but together we’ve hurt each other’s hearts.

No matter what, you exist in my inner world, I always regarded you as the person I loved most. I never thought one day we would fight, have such an irreconcilable conflict. Do you know this home has turned upside down, can’t endure even the slightest conflict between us? I beg you to calm down, think carefully, what consequences your action will bring. Do you really think after leaving me, you can still live the carefree life you have now?”

Ran Zhihan heard Zhang Yichen’s words and laughed.

”So this is how you think in your heart. You also think I chose to be with you for money, you never thought I chose to be with you because I loved you. Do you really look down on me like that in your heart? In everyone’s eyes, am I really such a vain woman? I can be without money, can be without anyone beside me, but I can’t be without my dignity. You trample on my dignity like this, one day you’ll regret it, you obviously know everything today is just Chen Gang’s delay tactic, yet you believed his words, doubting me time and again. Your heart already lacks my presence, why act so genuinely in front of me?

I really want to ask, what am I in your heart? Why don’t you give me a bit of trust? I know trust between spouses is built little by little, no one can hand over all the trust to the other right from the start, I can understand you doubting me time after time, I just want a bit of trust from you, but in the end, no matter what I do, you don’t believe me, you always think every word I say is deceiving you. So in your view, anyone who made mistakes can never be good, does anyone in your eyes never make mistakes, only you can make mistakes, your mistakes, you can keep making them endlessly, taking advantage of others’ love for you, while others must endure the greatest pain for an unintentional mistake?

Zhang Yichen, I once loved you with all my heart, for your trust I tried hard to please everyone at home, treated you sincerely, at that moment I felt all my efforts were worth it, at least I could feel your attitude changed, you slowly trusted me. But in the end, I realized everything was just you deceiving me, you never really trusted me, yet pretended to trust me repeatedly. If it was for better hurting me, after hurting me, does your heart truly feel joy? After hurting me, does your heart really not ache at all? Why? Why when we loved each other so deeply, when I loved you so much, you treat me like this, giving me a little trust is so hard?”

”That’s right, because you made mistakes, so I choose not to trust you, because you made mistakes before, I choose not to trust you for life.

Maybe you feel I’m too harsh treating you like this, but do you understand how painful it was for me when you hurt me? You don’t know the agony and torment inside me, how can you have the right to criticize me here? What does it matter if you are my wife or not my wife? To you, you can ignore me, and why must I care so much about you? I just feel he kept forcefully keeping you by my side, letting you enjoy riches and honors?”