My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1633: Chapter 1427: Return

Zhang Yichen felt that no matter what, she should persuade her mother, for she shouldn’t treat her father the way she used to.

”Mom, no matter how this matter is spoken of, you were at fault first. You should never treat my father this way, even if he abandoned me, my grandfather, our entire family, and even agitated my grandfather to the point of being hospitalized. I can forgive him because he is my father. No matter what mistakes he made, he is my father. He gave me life; without him, I wouldn’t have what I have today. Step by step, you both shaped who I am now, yet you never considered how hard my past was. You never accompanied me in my growth. Do you know how frightening it was to grow day by day, to undergo rigorous training repeatedly? I cried out of fear, but no one reached out to help me!

Training in places too dark to see your own hand, can anyone understand the fear deep inside a child at my age? Can anyone understand the shadows that haunted me because time after time, you were only focused on your own desires? You forgot that your loved ones need your companionship the most. You don’t know how to take care of your family; your actions were just to satisfy your private desires, but is that freedom really so important? Over the years, you’ve gained freedom, but can I ask: are you truly happy, truly joyful? You’ve gained freedom but lost your loved ones and your home. You’ve spent your days wandering without a fixed abode, living in constant worry—is that the life you wanted?

Mom, regardless, I still call you mother, because all these years you have been watching over my deeds in silence. I know you don’t ignore my existence; you just don’t know how to interact with your only son. I can forgive you for everything: the damages you’ve caused me, the happiness you’ve disrupted. I hold no grudges, but for my father’s sake, there are things I must clarify with you. What you’ve done, really, where does it put my father? Do you not know how much he loves you? He’s willing to give all his love for you, yet you treat him like an onion, peeling away layers of his love. If it truly comes to that day, can you continue to live happily?

Human hearts are made of flesh and feel pain. Emotions aren’t one-sided; who would willingly give everything only to receive a cold and unforgiving treatment in return?

If your heart was equally worried, we wouldn’t discuss these matters with my father. We don’t want him hurt or upset, nor do we want him to argue with you. But some things must stop here; don’t hurt him repeatedly as you did in the past. She’s changed a lot to keep pace with you. She was never like this before, yet she sacrificed greatly for you, and it’s important to understand his thoughts. If you keep hurting her, she’ll only drift further away. Everyone has different lifestyles; perhaps our lifestyle differs from yours, but we hope you can adapt to our way of life. You’ve returned to this family, to your rightful place in it, so you should embrace the lifestyle of our family, not live your solo life like before—it’s not sustainable!”

”My dear son, thank you for telling me such heartfelt words. I know deep down, once some things happen, they can’t be changed at all. Do you think I don’t want to return to my past life? I just wish time could rewind, giving me one more chance to live a better life—my life is truly pitiful. I’ve lost the one I loved most and who loved me most, only to repeatedly gain heartache and misery. I brought all this upon myself. I can’t blame anyone else because I know some things can’t be altered in this lifetime. What I missed, I will always miss. I just feel pitiful for myself. Why did my actions, why did complying only with my wishes, and never considering others’ feelings lead to such dire outcomes? I deeply regret this. I don’t wish for time to ever rewind, I just ask the heavens for one more chance—even just once—to apologize to the one I loved most and to be wholeheartedly by his side, would be enough!

Sometimes, I truly resent the heavens for giving me only one chance. I wanted much more. I would have given up everything for him. Had I known how deeply I loved him, how intensely he loved me, too, I wouldn’t have hesitated to face the heaviest consequences for him. Then why did I hurt him over and over? Guilt upon guilt, agony upon agony, making my heart grow numb—I don’t even remember my identity anymore. I only know my heart has always loved that man, and that won’t change in this lifetime. I just want to be by his side, but why did fate play such a grave joke on me? Why do we argue again and again for nothing? Was it caused by someone else’s interference? The third party forced everything to be extraordinary!

Child, seizing your happiness is paramount. Don’t end up like me, regretting after loss—then it’s too late. I only hate myself for acting this way. Had I known, why bother initially? This phrase applies to me. I know my actions brought immense sorrow and psychological shadows to those who loved me. There’s no way to convey or measure this impact. I only know I’ve embarked on an unreturnable path because my choices hurt the ones who loved me most. I can only live in lament throughout my life, and sometimes I truly pity myself...”