My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1615: Chapter 1409: Serious

”Child, of course, your grandparents believe you are an honest child. I believe that everything you do has its own reasoning and cause. I would never doubt you.

All these years, everything you’ve been through, how could we not know? Yet we still had no way to stand by your side to protect you. When you were bullied, we could only watch from afar, watching you solve every problem with your own effort and wisdom. When you repeatedly resolved these problems, deep down, we were crazily proud. Having such a genius child in our family, in our lineage, how could we not be happy? You are very much like your father, living to prove yourself to others. But do you both really live happily like this? When you make such decisions time and again, is there truly not a single ounce of regret or reluctance?

I don’t know what you truly want to do, nor do I know what your dream is. Do you know? My happiest moment is seeing you reach this point. But I don’t want you to give up your dream just to prove yourself to others. Dreams are really important; only with a dream can you put in all your effort. If you really don’t want to do this, only wanting to do what you wish to do but can’t, then living like this is really tiring. Why change yourself for others? You should adapt to your own pace, not someone else’s, making sure everyone follows your rhythm. If one day you choose to step in someone else’s footsteps, then it proves you’ve already lost to them at the starting line of life.

What I fear more is that I don’t want you to abandon your dream because of us. We really don’t want to experience such things again. We only desire a peaceful life, that everyone lives happily and cheerfully. If you gave up your dream because of me, how could I bear it deep inside? I just want to see my family happy and joyful, but time and again, I’ve changed everything. I changed your father’s fate, your fate, and now I changed the fate of the entire family. Is my whole life just about changing others’ destinies? Making them suffer is the easiest thing for me to do in my lifetime? I don’t believe it, and I refuse to let myself become such a person.”

”I think you are overthinking. How could I abandon my dream because of you? May I ask what exactly about you is worth changing my direction for? I think everything is my own preference. Whether proving myself to others or for some other reason, as long as I’m happy, walking down the path I always wanted, I have a clear conscience. I’ve never thought to change my direction for anyone. I only let others adapt to my pace, follow my rhythm. I will never choose to adjust to others, but only to adapt within this environment. Only by adapting to the environment can I make others follow my steps.

I once thought about changing my pace, following others’ rhythm, but eventually realized that it was a huge mistake. Changing myself to walk in others’ steps meant I would never have another chance to rise. I want others to follow my rhythm, for everyone to adapt to my pace. If I chose this path from the start, I would have been thoroughly prepared. Moreover, this path has nothing to do with anyone, nor any association with anyone else. I simply wanted to take this path. I just want to be someone unique, to have one more skill, one more technique to survive. I never imagined that one day you would think this way. Had I known, I wouldn’t have chosen it. Do you think you have the ability to change my direction? You don’t.

If, from the start, you chose to stay by my side, maybe I would indeed have chosen my path based on your opinions. But my grandfather never intervened in any of my decisions. I just walked the path I most wanted to. Sometimes you shouldn’t be overly sentimental; the path we choose is related to ourselves and has nothing to do with anyone else. I would never gamble with my life, nor let myself change because of others. That kind of life is really tiring.

Don’t think my son changed his path because of your mother. Since childhood, he indeed chose his path because of you, but I don’t allow my son to be influenced in any way. He just lives a happy life, and I can bear all suffering myself.

Why should my child suffer the pain I once bore? There’s no need for that possibility. How could I let my child bear all the pain? He should only live a happy life, joyfully. As long as he can be happy and cheerful, then that’s enough for me.”

Zhang Zhentian was deeply moved hearing his son’s words. At least his child, his grandson, did not change his life path due to them. If he had, they really wouldn’t know how to face it. They had no way to bear all this pain, and indeed no reason to make their child change his life’s direction. Mistakes they made should be borne themselves, so why burden their child?

The child is so innocent. Abandoning him once was already the biggest mistake in life. If his ideals and life were affected again due to their reasons, then as a father, what reason would I have to stay by my child’s side? What right would I have to live in this family, or to act as his father in the first place?

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