My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1632: Chapter 1426: Despair

How could Zhang Yichen possibly not know what his mother’s heart truly wished for? As a woman, losing the man she loved the most was the greatest sorrow. She didn’t want much, but who should bear responsibility for all these outcomes in the end? No one ever considered how difficult her life truly was. He used to resent his mother for abandoning him, but it wasn’t until today when he heard all the words his mother said to him, that he realized how hard and painful her life had been. What she wanted now was very little—just to quietly accompany her mother. Perhaps that would be enough. For this lifetime, he shouldn’t demand too much. As long as his family can always stay by his side, enduring some grievances should be worthwhile.

He once gave up the opportunity to bring his parents back home over so-called dignity, pride, and face, refusing them time and again. Who can understand the feeling of being turned away? Who can fathom the pain that stems from deep within?

The world is so vast, yet not a single person leads a perfectly smooth life. Each person faces their own set of trials and tribulations. No one’s life is without challenges; everyone experiences a different journey.

”Mom, everyone’s life will encounter some ups and downs. No one will have a perfectly smooth journey. Whatever difficulties you face, you should always smile. Don’t forget you have me, your son. No matter how great the challenges you meet in the future, as long as you believe I’m by your side, that’s enough. I may not be able to provide you the greatest help, but I can always accompany you and offer you the greatest encouragement. I’ve been through so much before, but now I want my family to live peacefully and happily. Mom, maybe I can’t give you everything in this life, but please believe that I will give you all the love I have!”

Let the past be the past; maybe only by forgetting him can you joyfully move forward and lead the life you truly want with happiness and joy!”

”You’re really a fool. I’m so much older than you; I’m your mother. How could I not know what’s best for me? But if I could truly forget him, I would have long forgotten. Yet, there’s no way for me to forget him, which is why every day feels like a year. I’ve lived through countless springs, summers, autumns, and winters, year after year, day by day, month after month, year after year, until now I’m still confused. I don’t know what choice I should make to win her back. I’ve always been here, hoping she could come back to me. If she could return, I would be willing to give up everything around me. But can I ultimately wait for his return?”

These years, I don’t even know how I’ve gotten through. I’ve been waiting for her to come back to me, yet I have waited and waited with no result, not even a greeting. How then can I console myself? My heart has long been numb. I’m not a Saint; I too hope that the person I love most can stay by my side. But heaven has been so unfair to me, making me choose this painful path time and again. I don’t know how I’ve managed to survive these years. I’ve lived in great pain, reflecting every day on my mistakes. I know I’ve committed unforgivable errors, but I never expected one day I would lose him. This is the greatest pain in my heart!”

I’ve always lived in pain. Every day is an agony beyond belief; I truly don’t know how much longer I can endure such days.

I don’t know how much longer I can live, maybe a day, maybe a year. No matter how long I live, I will always keep him in my heart, never to forget. I truly have no way to forget him; I really love him so deeply. These words have been buried in my heart for many years, and I’ve never had the chance to express them. Now, having finally spoken, I feel much better inside, but that doesn’t mean I can forget him.”

”I really wish time could reverse. If it could, I’d never forget him for a lifetime; I’d keep him by my side forever, even if it meant losing my life completely to do so. There’s nothing more important to me than having him stay by my side. Only after losing him do I realize how deeply I love him!”

Had I been a little more attentive back then, cared for her a little more, loved her a bit more, would things not have come to this? Was most important loyalty lacking?”

I really hope time could reverse; if it could, I’d give up everything. If time rewinds, things wouldn’t be as dire as now. Heaven played the biggest joke on me by letting me lose him entirely. Who could understand my heart’s suffering? Who knows my great despair? As a woman, how could I not love my husband? I only wanted him to stay by my side; why is it so hard? Why won’t anyone let him stay by my side? Even if he loved me just a little more, every one of us made a mistake, leaving us all grieving and in pain!”

Zhang Yichen also felt that if time could reverse, things wouldn’t be so terrible. Everyone wonders why the past must remain the past. If time reversed, they’d surely hold onto the most beautiful things before them.

Everyone lives in great pain; everyone’s heart aches immensely. No one knows what kind of things they’ll encounter in this life, and no one knows what kind of ending they’ll face. Only by doing one’s duty, pouring all their affection into loving someone completely, might they trade it for a lifetime of peace and happiness. But ultimately, he lost all of it due to his mistakes, resulting in such consequences. Who can he blame? He can only hide in a corner and quietly lick his wounds.