My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2258: Chapter 2091: Don’t Understand

Do you understand that all my heartache comes from your squandering?

”A dead end? You’re actually telling me now that I pushed you to a dead end. Have you forgotten how you treated me back then? When you cruelly abandoned me, did you ever think that this would be the outcome one day? I really can’t understand what kind of reasoning gives you the courage to say these things to me today?

Do you know that the moment you abandoned me, the pain was so intense that even breathing was difficult? Do you realize how painful it was? But what about you? You thought it was inconsequential because in your eyes, I didn’t exist. You thought abandoning me would allow you to find a better haven. But in reality, you’ve searched for so many years and still ended up coming back to me. Why should I shamelessly continue living with you after being abandoned by you? Wouldn’t that be a disgrace?

Do you think everyone is like you, unable to live without you at first sight? But I tell you, it’s not the case. I can live happily after leaving you. For you, I can still be happy. I don’t have to be with you in this lifetime to get everything I desire. I stayed with you because of your family’s money, which I received, only to eventually give up my own son because of you, causing my own son to hate me deeply. Do you know how much pain that brings to a mother?

But I can’t express that pain because it can only be hidden deep within me. That pain, I’ve suffered once in my lifetime, and I don’t want to endure it a second time. I’ve given so much for you, but in your eyes, I’m nothing. Perhaps for you, abandoning me is the best haven for your life. But do you know? By abandoning me, your life is destined to never have any sparkle again!”

”Isn’t it you who pushed me to a dead end? The woman I long for, whom I wish to marry and care for, now says no to me. How am I supposed to accept this internally? How can I face others? All I want is these few small things, but you can’t fulfill my demands because in your eyes, it’s all fake and deceitful!

You’re always convinced that I’m lying to deceive you. Yet, haven’t you ever lied to me? Can you swear, hand on your heart, that you’ve never deceived me? Actually, you wouldn’t dare because deep down, you know you’ve lied to me more than once. But I chose to forgive you time and again like a naive fool, thinking that since we’re a couple, occasional mistakes are understandable. No one can go their entire life without making mistakes. Even Saints make mistakes! So, all your past mistakes can be completely disregarded. I can pretend like nothing ever happened. But your repeated deceit and the final heartless act of abandoning me—I will never forget that. Do you still remember that day? I was resolutely unwilling to go through divorce procedures with you. But you conned and coerced me into doing so. Perhaps, at that moment, you no longer saw me as your wife. What you wanted was merely the interests in your eyes. You thought with interests, you gained everything. But you never considered that by having interests, you lost me!

Everyone makes mistakes in a lifetime, but not everyone deserves forgiveness. If you make a mistake once and people forgive you, it gives you a reason to make mistakes again. No one owes you, so why should they let you hurt them repeatedly? Everyone should have self-respect and self-awareness, knowing what should and shouldn’t be done. You should know what can be understood and what shouldn’t be, because once some things happen, they happen forever. No matter what excuse you find to cover up your past mistakes, it’s an undeniable fact that can never be erased!”

Zhang Zhentian finally understood what his wife’s words implied. He knew his wife would absolutely never live with him again. All of this was originally his wrongdoing. Is there any reason to blame others? Shouldn’t he take responsibility for the mistakes he committed?

Perhaps he had gone too far in the past, causing his beloved wife to become disheartened, leading her to prefer wandering alone instead of returning to him. How derelict a husband must you be to make your wife choose solitude over companionship?

At that moment, he felt truly regretful. Clearly, the situation wasn’t this complicated, yet why did it turn so complicated due to his actions, and he had no choice but to confront it? It seems all of this was destined to happen, but he couldn’t figure out why he pushed all the blame onto his wife, making her drift further away and increasingly unwilling to return. All of this was the result of his selfishness and egotism. What qualification does he have to resent others?

”No matter what you say today, I won’t call out to you like before. I hope you sincerely rethink your decisions. Even though they can’t be altered, we can start anew. If your heart genuinely still cares and you wish to rebuild a family with me, allowing our son to live in a happy, harmonious family, then please reconsider carefully and avoid making decisions everyone finds difficult to accept. I know all my past actions were indeed excessive, but I’ve already mended my ways. I now only wish to be wholeheartedly with you. Is that so wrong?”

Xia Jing never expected her unyielding husband to bow down and plead to her. She felt her eyes opened, but her heart was torn about whether to walk this dead-end path.

All my confusion stems from your silence. Love or not, I begin to not understand!