My Alleged Husband

Chapter 405: Chapter 384 Extravagant Hopes_1

”So eager to sever ties with me, but I’m not someone who gives up easily. I don’t want to ask anything else—I just want to understand one thing. When you first did everything you could to be with me, was it because you truly loved me in your heart, or was it for some other reason? I hope that at this point, you can frankly tell me and not come to me with any more lies to cover up your so-called vanity!”

Xia Jing never expected that her husband of more than a decade would say such words to her. They had been divorced for years now, but why did he still use such language to insult her character? Did he always see her this way? Was she really a woman who only cared about her own interests? But she had never coveted anything from him, so why did he see her that way? Was it really because this time she returned home without telling him, without choosing to go back with him hand in hand?

”Don’t deny it, I had no romantic involvement with you at the start. I simply liked you and wanted to be with you. If I were after your family’s money, I wouldn’t have helped your father’s company when it was on the brink of bankruptcy. When your father’s business was at its lowest, facing closure, I didn’t hesitate to offer him a helping hand. Because I believed if I was to be with you, I had to have your dad’s approval. In fact, even if I hadn’t saved your dad’s company, I’d still be with you. And I always tried to prove to you that I wasn’t with you for the money. If I’d been after money when your dad was facing major fund difficulties, I could have easily said things like breaking up with you. The world is full of countless wealthy people; why would I give up an entire forest for one person like you? Because you were the best in my heart, but now I’ve come to realize that all my efforts seem like nothing but an illusion in your eyes. Do you know the feeling of liking someone, making one’s heart suffer terribly, deeply conflicted, and uncertain about what to do to receive a response from the person you like? I never thought about other people’s lives; I’ve always only considered issues from my own perspective and that of the ones I care about. But one day I slowly realized, doing all that was wrong, meaningless, because what I care about doesn’t mean the person I love cares about it, and what the person I love cares about isn’t what I care about. Gradually these two people will have divergences, and eventually, they will drift apart, never to be together again. When I finally came to terms with these things, I was a little incredulous. But slowly I felt there was nothing unacceptable about it because loving someone may really be too humble. Loving too humbly, too pitifully, in the end, will only cause one to be covered in bruises, fully aware that these two people are not suitable for each other, yet still desperately trying to be together, just to prove that one can have a happy life, only to realize in the end that such an attempt indeed harms both parties!”

When Zhang Zhentian heard what Xia Jing said, he didn’t say a word. He just quietly looked at Xia Jing, who felt increasingly uncomfortable. The more she once loved a person, the more pain she now felt. The turmoil and pain were something she would never forget for the rest of her life. She knew that the distance between the two of them was as vast as that between the stars in the skies and the dust on the earth. They clearly could not be together, yet she couldn’t help but harbor extravagant hopes. People are like this, never content, always thinking about venturing onto that path of love that doesn’t belong to them. But in the end, who will understand that this path of love will eventually cast one into an abyss, unable to extricate oneself?

Loving someone unconditionally is not wrong; it only proves that your love for that person is truly from the heart, and not for any material possessions. But, are you really compatible? If the two of you are not compatible, being together will only bring mutual heartache. Perhaps you feel deeply in love with him, but he does not love you. If he doesn’t love you, what then is the meaning of being together? Forcing someone who doesn’t love you to stay by your side may make you happy, but the one you love will suffer, because he doesn’t love you. He will feel being with you is a torment. Surely nobody wants their loved one to endure a lifetime of torment and pain because of them. Yet people are like this, no matter what, they can’t let go of that little hope in their hearts, always believing that by being together, they can bring happiness and joy. But who ultimately understands how arduous and difficult that is, no one ever considered these issues.

”I think I’ve made myself clear. Therefore, let’s not meet or contact each other again. Today will be the day we completely sever all ties between us. Sister, I hope you remember that all of this was not caused by me, but is the result of your treatment of me! Since you chose to abandon me ruthlessly, don’t think about regretting it later because there is no such thing as a remedy for regret in this world. The consequences of the actions one takes must be borne, regardless of whether they are happiness or pain; one can only grit their teeth and endure them.”

”Is there really no possibility between us anymore?”

”There never was any possibility between us because in your eyes, I am just a woman blinded by greed, a woman whose vision is clouded by money, how could I possibly match your proud demeanor? I can’t match you. I don’t want to make a series of changes to be suitable for you anymore; doing so would only tire me out. For you, I’ve sacrificed too much already, now I want to live well for my own life for once!”

After Xia Jing hung up the phone, her heart was in pain. There was still a part of her that wouldn’t forget, still hoping for that love that wasn’t hers. But what could be done in the end? What doesn’t belong to you, you can’t have. Perhaps it’s just fate—sometimes there’s fate, but when there’s none, it’s truly absent.