My Alleged Husband

Chapter 404: Chapter 383 Stranger_1

”Even if we truly can’t go back to the way things were, can’t return to the life we had, you should have at least told me, shouldn’t you? That’s the bare minimum respect you owe me, isn’t it? I have no objections to you returning to my family’s home because our son is also your son; you left a descendant for the Zhang Family. But there was no need for you to do it this way. Why didn’t you tell me? Do you find it amusing? You keep such matters secret from me, you choose not to join hands and return home with me, to never contact me again, or even to never see me again in this lifetime, but you shouldn’t have treated me this way. After all, we were husband and wife, sharing a bed for over a decade!”

When Xia Jing heard Zhang Zhentian’s words, she couldn’t help but let out a cold laugh.

”You, now you have the nerve to talk about us being in a marital relationship, don’t you feel that what you did wrong is far more cruel than anything I’ve done to you? Far more than tenfold, a hundredfold, a thousandfold, myriad-fold. Haven’t you ever thought that the moment you abandoned me, it would lead to today’s outcome? Have you not considered the consequences of each action you took? You’ve never thought about me. Again and again, you’ve pushed the blame onto me. I’ve never said anything, alluding to Brother Fei, thinking of you as my husband, and though I am your wife, I was willing to carry the burden for you, but what about you? Have you ever thought this way? Perhaps you’ve never done so. After all, people judge by their own feelings. I treat you the way you treat me, but my heartlessness in treating you cannot compare to even one ten-thousandth of the heartlessness you’ve shown me. I must admit that I was very happy during the years we spent together, but from the very beginning, you treated me as your scapegoat. Yet I am still grateful to you for enriching these years of my life, for helping me understand what true love is because love is selfless. My love for you has fulfilled the essence of love, and now, I have no love left for you. Everything you’ve done has already broken my heart. I never told you this directly because I didn’t want to destroy the harmony between us as a couple. I didn’t want my parents or our son to grieve again! I never thought about how I would leave or separate from you, but when you forcibly took me to the doorstep of the civil affairs bureau to divorce me, that was when I knew I had loved the wrong person all my life. I should have never fallen in love with you. Loving you has caused me immense suffering. My love for you never changed, but your love for me lost all its meaning long ago. You should understand something; if even a trace of ulterior motive infuses a relationship, no matter how rich it initially is, it won’t have a happy ending. I don’t know what your intentions or state of mind were at the outset of our relationship, but I gradually realized that being with me didn’t make you happy; on the contrary, you found me to be nagging, always managing your life. But what you never understood is that if a woman doesn’t manage her man’s daily life, then she surely doesn’t love him. I’ve proved how much I love you, but in the end, you still hurt me because you’ve never considered why I love you so much?”

”Why should I love you so much? You just coveted the wealth of my family, didn’t you? Don’t think that everyone holds your soul in high regard, as if your pride comes from a noble place. Having lived with you for over a decade, I know exactly what kind of woman you are—in your eyes, there’s only interest. Without it, you believe there’s no meaning to anything. You’re accustomed to self-delusion, always thinking that everything is for the best. But you don’t understand what I need in a wife. I don’t want a wife who constantly meddles in my personal space; I want a wife who will stand up for me when I need it the most...”

”Do a conscience check: when I was with you, didn’t I stand up for you whenever you were in trouble? I’ve braved dangers for you time and again without hesitation. But what about you? Time and again, you’ve made me your scapegoat. Whatever mistakes you made, you had me take the fall. Did I ever complain? I never refused because I believed that one day, I could move you and show you that my love for you is pure and without any hidden agenda. But in the end, I found out I was wrong. No matter how I tried to please you, how earnestly I treated you, or how wholeheartedly I gave to you, you always failed to regard me as your companion. You used me again and again, and I’ve nothing to say. I’m your wife; I should be used by you. But could you at least consider the feelings of a wife? I don’t know if the wife you want is merely a tool for carrying on the family line or something else. But at the very least, shouldn’t you show respect for women? Every decision you make hurts the person who loves you the most. Don’t you realize it? You’ve never considered my feelings with any decision you make. Do you know how painful that is for me? So often, I just wanted a quiet life with you, a simple and ordinary life. I didn’t desire great wealth or luxury, but you always believed I was with you for your family’s money. I never once said that because I didn’t want to voice it. I felt that saying it would mean there was no chance for us any longer. But today, I’ve made up my mind to leave you. Therefore, I have nothing else to hold back. Since I’ve been able to say all this, doesn’t it mean there’s no chance for us ever again? I hope you never disturb my life again. Let’s live our lives in peace and be strangers to each other if we ever meet...”