My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2242: Chapter 2075: Living Life to the Fullest

We are all living with effort, believing that after the flowers bloom, they will bear fruit. In love and hate, wins and losses, we’ve had glory and setbacks, but with no regrets over our choices, believing that enduring hardships is life.

”Yichen, in my heart, I also understand that I am at fault in this matter. The impact on you was indeed significant, but do you know? After this happened, I was so full of guilt and regret for trusting him and for drinking with him. I thought he was a gentleman, who wouldn’t do anything out of character to me. However, I failed to set proper boundaries, giving him an opportunity. This was my mistake, and if you blame me, I have no words to argue. But could you please empathize with my perspective for a moment? If you were in my shoes, would you feel nothing if you saw your husband being sarcastic towards you, not even bothering to lift a brow to look at you? Wouldn’t that hurt you?

You’ve said you’ve been living in pain during this time, but what about me? Am I not also enduring pain? In fact, the pain in my heart is no less than yours. On the contrary, it’s even more. I have to confront my guilt, my remorse, and you, the man I love the most. Yet I can say nothing because any explanation would just make things worse. I don’t want that to happen. What I want is just to be with you. Why can’t you understand my sincere intentions?

Whether you believe what I say today or not, at least please believe that it’s because I genuinely love you. I don’t know how to express these things to you, but do you know how much it matters to me to live a lifetime with you? I’m a woman, not a saint. I can’t sever all emotions and desires. I can only gradually get closer to my heart because I believe the choice made by my heart is correct. I believe I won’t love the wrong person. I believe you are the most worthwhile person in my life.”

Zhang Yichen didn’t know how to respond. Was it truly that he was being overly suspicious of her innocence? Did he truly have no fault at all from beginning to end? But why did his heart feel so heavy, and what was all of this for? Was it really because of this small incident that all the love had to be diminished to ashes? He couldn’t do it, but could he easily forgive her? His heart couldn’t forgive.

His heart was in turmoil, torn between his beloved wife and moral principles. Which side should he choose, dignity or face? In the end, he undoubtedly chose family honor. He knew his grandfather was a man of pride. He couldn’t let such an affair ruin his family’s reputation, considering how difficult it is to establish a family name flourishing for a hundred years. How could he be selfish, let his poor family relationship destroy the reputation his grandfather built with hard work?

”Wake up, and don’t say anything. The more you talk, the worse it gets. But now, I want you to know that I truly don’t know what to say or even if I should forgive you. However, I want you to understand that for the dignity of my family and myself, I can only choose family. The hardships of maintaining family honor are severe. I can’t let my grandfather’s reputation be tarnished, nor can I let the family prestige he painstakingly built collapse. A Hundred-year-old family’s reputation is crucial. I trust that you understand this in your heart. My decision is merely to give us both a way out, as I can’t help but hold some grudges.

You said you acted unintentionally and shouldn’t have trusted his words, but on reflection, if you truly had no intention of being with him, why believe his sweet words and drink with him? Deep down, you had a small desire to explore what it would feel like, not expecting my influence to be so pervasive, uncovering everything you did easily. I’m sorry. Perhaps it’s the vastness of my power that made you feel so insecure.”

Ran Zhihan knew that Zhang Yichen had decided to forgive her, yet the barrier in his heart wasn’t overcome. She couldn’t rush things.

Everything required patience and awareness. Being overly eager might lead to unintended consequences, risks he couldn’t afford. Perhaps she still didn’t know what to do, but facing her lover, she kept lowering her posture, pleading repeatedly, though she might never get her desired outcome. Still, she wholeheartedly gave her best, without regrets.

”Let this matter end here. Let it fade with time, unspoke of again. Although my heart can’t forgive you so easily, it’s up to you on how to proceed. As always, don’t let Grandpa know. I don’t want him burdened. He’s worried enough for us, having devoted all his time. I can’t have him worry about my matters and toil for a lifetime. Please understand my sincere intentions!”

”I understand; don’t worry. I definitely won’t tell Grandpa. Instead, I’ll serve you well, care for Grandpa, and our family. I won’t run around carelessly again. Lessons learned; I now understand human nature. I’ll no longer naively believe everyone has genuine intentions and wants to be friends. I’ll stop foolishly thinking no one will betray me in this world because that’s not true. Man cannot surpass fate, and some people will stoop to any means for money. I’ve realized it’s best to stay at home, manage the family, and raise children. I lack skills and knowledge, but at least I know what’s right and wrong. Such incidents won’t occur again. You can completely trust or choose not to trust me, but I’ll prove everything with my actions. Thank you for letting this matter end without further words!”

In my heart, there is another me, accompanying me through pain and life.