My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2334: Chapter 2167: Never Expected

Who would know how much I wish she could appear in front of me right now.

Xia Jing hears the tone in which her husband is speaking to her and realizes her actions have completely angered him. Why does her husband continue to press on? Step by step, she drives away everyone who loves her, forcing everyone who cared for her from her side. What benefits can be gained from this? Ultimately, isn’t it herself who suffers in agony? Yet why can she never learn to bow her head? She sacrifices all her dignity and principles for one man, why can’t she do the same for her husband standing before her?

To Zhang Zhengping, as soon as he hears his wife’s words about how wonderful the man she loves is, he feels a nameless fire burning inside. He wants to unleash this fire upon his wife but finds himself helpless. He knows that such an action would be utterly beastly. Each time he hears these things, he’s consumed by rage and resentment. Why, after investing so many years of companionship, can he gain nothing? How is it that everything he gives only results in being used by her?

Sometimes he really doesn’t know what he means to his wife, why can’t there be even a small amount of obedience towards him? Must he be driven to the brink, utterly cornered, for her to be satisfied, content, and happy?

Why does a human heart always remain unchanged? Exactly how much more must he sacrifice for things to return to their original state? He regrets not meeting her before anyone else did, capturing her heart, not just a mere gap within it. If all he gets in this life is one of her gaps, turning him into a soul-less creature, why doesn’t he just let go, allowing her to pursue the love of her heart? But if he does, what of the family interests, the hundred-year reputation his father has built? Why must he face such choices? Is he truly asking for too much? Just keeping his beloved by his side would suffice. Yet why does Heaven keep playing such cruel jokes?

Perhaps to others these jokes appear insignificant, nothing more than trivial matters, but to him, they are engraved with pain. The woman he desires stands before him, yet remains unattainable; he can only watch as the man she thinks of and speaks about is never him. To him, this is profoundly unfair. Can Heaven truly not show him a touch of fairness, even just a little, just enough to grant him a place in her heart?

Hatred always accumulates bit by bit, Zhang Zhentian, now hates the heavens, loathes all who mistreat her. He’s uncertain about what he ought to do. For a woman, he once forfeited his entire family, yet the man she loves is not him. How mocking this situation is when spoken, why despite all these years can’t he gain an ounce of genuine affection from anyone?

”Xia Jing, oh Xia Jing, I have nothing to ask but one question. All these years, did your heart truly never love me even a tiny bit? Have I never stirred you even slightly? I’ve invested so much for you, yet have you not been moved even a little? Do you know how your words hurt me inside? I am not asking for much, just a little, just enough to keep you by my side. To endure humiliation would be worthwhile. For you, I abandoned everything, but why must you deal such a heavy blow? In your heart, what am I? Am I not even a servant?”

”Even a stranger would feel a bit moved by all I have done, and would be grateful, yet in your eyes, I can’t see any emotion for me. Only your disgust is apparent. In your heart, am I truly incomparable to her? You would sacrifice everything for her, even your life, but not for me. Time and again you push me to a dead end, leaving me no retreat, but you never force him, only hoping he lives joyously, happily. And what about me? Am I meant to bear all the wounds and pain in the middle? I am not a Saint; I wish for my wife’s affection too, yet you never showed me these things, even as you lay beside me, with someone else in your heart. When I grasped the truth, do you know what a devastating impact it has on me?”

”Honestly, I wish to tell you to let go, why endure so much for me? I see your efforts for me, not pretending not to, just unsure how to respond. Everyone’s heart hides torment, do you understand my suffering, my pain? I only wished for a simple life, is it too much? But what have you given me over the years? Have you offered me an ordinary, peaceful life? Wandering the earth with you was fulfilling yet joyless. Only with him did I find real happiness, joy, and bliss. With him, I would inadvertently show my truest smile of contentment, but with you, never!”

”So, in your heart, am I merely an oblivious fool? Do you see me as worthless? Don’t you know how many changes I’ve made for you, continuously reshaping myself to meet your needs, surrendering everything I cherish for your doubts? No matter how hard I try, I’ll never surpass him in your eyes, correct? Why then did you attract me? If you never loved me, why choose to be with me and later deliver such a severe blow that I never find happiness again? Is this truly what your heart desires or perceives?”

I truly dare not believe!

But I know it’s impossible, she’ll never return!