My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1747: Chapter 1541: Falling Asleep

You are the irreplaceable sincerity of mine, and the simplest glance from me has already declared everything.

Zhang Zhentian knew that his wife’s many words were only to make him retreat in face of difficulties. However, how could he be someone who easily backs down? Since he made such a decision at the beginning, no matter what, he won’t regret it. As long as he could stay by his wife’s side, even if he suffers grievances, what does it matter?

On the contrary, seeing his wife pondering so heavily for his sake made him truly touched. He never thought there would be a day where he could have the same attitude as his wife. In the past, whenever he did anything on his own, it always brought great pain to his wife because, in her eyes, everything he did was wrong.

But today, he realized that all his years of effort weren’t in vain; that his wife wasn’t oblivious to his efforts. She only pretended to see nothing. She silently endured everything alone, and now, he finally couldn’t help but show his emotions.

”Wife, no matter how you feel, I just want to tell you, my decision will never change. Since I made this decision before, to stay by your side, then no matter what, I will remain by your side. Even if you try to drive me away, I won’t leave!

Throughout these years, we’ve depended on each other, accompanied each other for so many years. Is there truly no bit of love for me in your heart? If you don’t love me, why care about me? If you don’t love me, why worry about me being hurt so much?

You just can’t believe in yourself, you’re afraid to face your own heart.

Because of those people in your life, I’m afraid you think you’d wrong him. But don’t you know that so many years have passed? Even if you could reunite, can you return to the way it was? The past has ultimately become the past, shouldn’t you cherish the present and live well with me? Isn’t this more important for you?

If you keep clinging to the past, neither of us can ever be happy. The happiness everyone desires is truly simple. As long as family is by one’s side, as long as one can have enough, and live the life one wants, that’s the greatest happiness. And you are the greatest happiness in my life.

Don’t think these words are mere sweet talk. Every word I say is sincere. I’ve always truly wanted to be with you, longing time and again, hoping to be with you. If that day ever came, how happy would I be? Yet the day has finally come, but why must you speak such cruel truths to me after all these years?

Seeing me live so heartbroken and despondent, does it truly make you happy? You clearly know how tangled and painful I am, yet you resolutely tell me this result.

I know you telling me this is for honesty’s sake, but do you realize doing so subjects both of us to different decisions from every impulsive choice made?”

”Yes, I hope whatever you say, you should never say it again. There’s really nothing between us, and no possibility to be together. If you truly wish for me to accept you someday, then abandon this thought. I’ve said I’ll try; I must admit, my heart truly feels torn because of you.

You’re right, whenever I think about being with you, I feel guilty towards him. But don’t you know how tormented I am? The agony just keeps growing. I don’t know which choice is right. I want to be with you, peacefully, but I can’t betray him!”

”From the day you married me, you were already betraying him. Why bother saying this now? Do you think saying this has any meaning? Do you think these words can bring him back to you? They absolutely won’t!

Time and again, using self-deceit to numb yourself—are you truly happy? You clearly see what kind of life you want, but you don’t know what to do!

Perhaps you think my request is too harsh, but you truly don’t understand these are the most honest words from the depths of my soul. That’s why I, without hesitation, tell you!

I just want to tell you my most genuine thoughts, wishing you would stay by my side, living the happiness we desire. Stop having disputes at any time like before, or argue over disagreements—it’s truly exhausting to live like that. Why complicate a family that could be happy?”

Xia Jing really didn’t know what to say. Whatever she says to her husband, he sees as just her arguing irrationally. Every word she says is met with a rebuttal. In his eyes, whatever she does or says is never right.

Suddenly, she felt exhausted from interacting with her husband. Whatever she says seems wrong, making her wonder what is the point of being together like this, wouldn’t it be better to separate sooner?

Zhang Zhentian feared his wife’s rejection, so he gazed at her longingly, hoping she’d give them a chance and not be so absolute. He only wishes to stay by her side. Why must she always reject him like this, and would he truly be happy in his heart after being rejected?

Does staying by his side make his wife so uneasy and distressed? The repeated hurt ultimately made him feel tortured inside.

”You don’t have to say anything to me. Just stay here in peace. I just want to tell you that no matter what decision you make, I will support you. But at the very least, respect my personal wishes. I feel heartache too!”

Some things, known not to be true, were just mutual lies, yet foolishly treating it as the most genuine thing.