My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1715: Chapter 1509: Forever Friends

I am genuinely moved by your sincerity, yet you know how difficult my life is now, and I don’t know what kind of life I should face.

I have gone through a series of wounds, but ultimately I have achieved nothing myself.

Who would willingly accept harm from others step by step.

Zhang Yichen had never seen his grandfather lose his composure like today; perhaps the grievances buried deep inside for so many years could finally vent out today. He clearly remembers how his grandfather often held a photo, shedding silent tears. He would often hold that photo alone, whispering to himself. He confined himself to an isolated space, always so cheerful and lovely on the outside, never bringing his negativity to others, always wanting others to feel happy and blessed. But privately, how much pain he endured alone, Yichen had never considered.

Sometimes, thinking about it, if I had shown a little more concern for my grandfather, would the outcome be different? How much suffering my grandfather went through over the years—a struggle witnessed firsthand, time after time. He sacrificed so much for me, yet what have I given back? Not even the slightest happiness.

I am willing to give up everything for the decisions I have made, and I am also willing to spare no cost for the people I care about!

If time could turn back, would I seriously reflect on what kind of life I should provide for my grandfather, what attitude I should adopt towards him, how painful and sorrowful he’s been over the years? No one knows my anguish poured out completely, while my grandfather swallowed all his tears of hardship alone, silently bearing so much, yet what have I been doing?

”Dad, no matter what, I don’t want you to say more heartless words to grandpa. He’s really old now, and he cannot bear the heartbreak from betrayal by his family again and again. Can you be a little considerate of him, show just a bit of filial piety. I would be grateful to you, you know? Do you understand how many people you’ve hurt with your decisions? Have you considered how much hatred you’ve brought behind you? You always feel what you’re doing is right, but is it really correct? Have you asked yourself over these years: have you ever been treated poorly? Since the day you were born, has grandpa treated you poorly? Has he not given you a life of luxury, so you have no worries compared to others? Even though you have no mother, have you not felt that grandpa has given all his love to you?

Actually, deep down, grandpa has guilt towards you, which is why he poured all his love for his wife onto you, but in the end, all expectations for you fell flat. You chose to fly away and leave alone, preferring to wander in foreign lands rather than come home and be by his side. Isn’t his heart hurt, isn’t his heart desolate?

In everything you do, you never consider his feelings, so how can he stand in your shoes and think for you? People are empathetic; if you can’t do it, then don’t expect others to forgive all your mistakes repeatedly. He doesn’t owe you.

If you return to this home only to repeatedly hurt your father, hurt me, and hurt everyone in the family, then congratulations, you’ve achieved your goal, you’ve gotten what you wanted, but I beg of you, show mercy to grandpa. No matter how you hurt me, I can let it go. I can pretend nothing happened, pretend all this was inflicted by myself, but grandpa doesn’t owe you anything.”

”Why do you all still put all the mistakes on me? So everything I’ve done is truly wrong? Isn’t what I want the same as what you want? Why do you selfishly believe your ideas are entirely different from others, and thus correct?

I never thought my return home would be for revenge for being shut out. I sincerely wanted to return to this home to be by your side. Yet the ending was unpredictable, with no way to control the harm to me. Persistently, I begged repeatedly to stay home, but what did I gain in the end? I gained nothing and burdened myself with all the hurt.

You may think I’m truly selfish, never considering problems from your standpoint, but do you understand? If I didn’t consider things from your perspective, how would there be rent in this shop, how would I say these words to you, how could I place you deep in my heart repeatedly?

You are my family, and nothing can change that conclusion in this lifetime. Everything I do is hoping the family is happy, joyful, wishing every family member is blessed and safe; yet in the end all my hopes collapsed. Isn’t there disappointment, isn’t there pain and despair deep within me?

You always think I imposed all the agony on you, but what about you? Haven’t you imposed your sorrow on me? Haven’t I endured enough harm and agony through the years? Isn’t there a shred of selfishness in anything you do? Don’t judge others with your thoughts; perhaps all you do isn’t necessarily right. Doing so only wrongs others time and time again, driving away those who love you most.

In your heart, you didn’t want me to leave, right? But why treat me this way? Time after time, what have you gained through all the pain and sorrow, nothing at all? You burdened yourself with everything, always thinking what you do is right, only to realize every action was wrong because your deeds have wounded every loved one around you.

Anyway, today I hope to make things clear with you all. I truly never meant to hurt you; it’s just that in whatever I do, I don’t know how to avoid hurting you. I’m not intentional nor deliberate; it’s just the endless blunders led to these outcomes time and again, resulting in endless consequences. Isn’t there genuinely no remorse in the depths of my heart?”

Everyone has regrets; no one can live as they please continuously. Having one’s own life path is the most correct!

(伤的人) How can one reclaim the youth that slipped away, ensuring not to be alone years later!