My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1717: Chapter 1511: Helplessness

”Yeah, you’ve indeed become very mature now. It’s precisely because of your maturity that I feel afraid. Why, why did you have to become so mature? If you hadn’t grown up, I wouldn’t have lost all my chances. But your heart has never had a place for me, and I can’t understand it. Am I really that bad in your heart? Why can’t I ever reach the depths of your heart? I really want to open up your heart and see if there’s a place for me, but I can’t. I want you to live happily, not for my presence to ruin your lifetime happiness and peace!”

Zihan, promise me that no matter what, you have to live happily. No matter what kind of trouble you encounter, at least let me know. If you consider me a friend, don’t be formal with me. If there’s anything you need help with, I will do my utmost to help you. Even if one day you truly end up with him, don’t forget there will always be someone standing behind you, silently waiting for you. Although this relationship failed, I can’t immediately find another girl to live with. I’m not that kind of fickle man. I’ve always been consistent in my feelings. Since I’ve chosen you, I want to be with you. Please don’t despise me.

I don’t know if the relationship between you and your husband has always been good. Maybe it’s because of my involvement that things have turned out this way. I sincerely apologize to you for this. I didn’t mean to destroy your relationship. I truly couldn’t control my inner thoughts. I just wanted to hug the woman I love most, but this was the result, causing you and your husband to argue for so long. That’s my fault. I sincerely apologize to you both, and I hope you can forgive me.”

”Chen Gang, don’t say that. Ultimately, this isn’t your fault alone. Actually, I have my own faults. I shouldn’t have chosen to doubt you; I shouldn’t have chosen to hurt you in this way. For you, that’s probably the most painful hurt, right? The feeling of having the girl you love right in front of you but being unable to embrace her, your heart must feel very defeated. But I have no choice; I can’t break my own principles of fidelity. Since I’ve chosen to live with my husband forever, I can only have him as my man my whole life. I must not get entangled with other men.

You shouldn’t apologize to me. The one who should truly apologize is me. I’m the one who made you wait in vain for so many years, and I was kept in the dark, unaware that you were waiting for me. I’m sorry. I can’t give you a complete relationship or a complete family. It’s my fault, causing you to waste so many years of your youth. People often say a woman’s youth is precious, but isn’t a man’s youth just as valuable? Because of me, you’ve given up all your youth. Don’t abandon all your time waiting for me. Live well, plan for your future days, strive hard for your achievements, and find your true love, someone who will stand by you for life, and hopefully, she’ll help you in your career. Thank you...”

Zhang Yichen was suddenly surprised to hear Chen Gang say he wanted to give up. Why did she suddenly feel reluctant to let him go? She always thought having someone here contending with her for the role of his wife was not bad, for at least she would always have something to do, someone to debate with daily, just to prove who loves their wife more.

”Have you really decided to give up now? Are you truly willing to never interfere in my and my wife’s life again? Do you really feel reconciled with that decision? She’s such a perfect girl; you’ve invested so much over the years. Do you really think you can sincerely let go?”

”And what if I can’t let go? I remember your wife once said to me, ’What is meant to be will eventually be; what isn’t meant to be will never come.’ How many beauties are there in the world? Don’t be absurdly demanding.

You should understand what this means, right? Since she has already said this, what can I do? I am powerless.

I’ve never felt so defeated in my life. What I wanted was never out of reach, but this time, I finally understand that there are things I cannot have in this world, like your wife, the girl I love most. Even after giving everything, she still doesn’t want to live with me. From this point, I’ve already lost to you, because the girl I love doesn’t want to be with me. But do you know? I wish so badly for time to rewind, back to a few years ago, to see if things would have been different if I had honestly expressed my feelings to her at that time.

Sometimes, I don’t know whether to hate you or thank you. I always feel because of your appearance, I lost the girl I love most, but on the other hand, you take such good care of her, your attentiveness deeply touched me. My own heart is conflicted. I don’t know what attitude I should have towards you. I can’t find words to describe that attitude. But you know what? I only wish you would treat her well and never hurt her kind heart. She can’t bear such hurt.”

”She’s my wife, and of course, I know how to love her. I don’t need an outsider like you telling me. Remember, you have already admitted that you’ve lost everything, lost your qualifications. Even if you have desires in the future, you could tell me, but you can’t find my wife, because I will completely sever the ties between you two. I won’t allow you to meet again.

But still, thank you. Because of your presence, even though my wife and I fought a lot, I have to admit that because of your presence, I realized how much my wife cares about me and values this family. Rest assured, as long as you can leave here peacefully and return to where you should be, I will take good care of her and never let you down. No matter what, she’s my wife. How can I allow her to be heartbroken? Don’t you agree?”

Chen Gang smiled a bit. Since he has already lost, and so completely, why continue to force himself? It’s time to leave happily without any attachments.

Thinking back to the time when you made me angry, I really miss those days! It’s a pity you’re not here...