My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1721: Chapter 1515: Greatness

In the past, I didn’t know what greatness was, nor did I understand what it truly felt like. I also didn’t realize the happiness that greatness could bring to a person.

Gradually, I discovered that there’s nothing greater in the world than oneself, and the love a mother has for her child is the greatest and most selfless. She is willing to give everything for you.

”A child must be in your eyes. You think everything we do is wrong because we never considered things from your perspective, but do you know? Our love for you as parents never changes. Everything you do is right in our hearts. Even if you hate us, in our hearts, you will always be my child. Nothing will change that, and we won’t change anything for any reason. I just hope you can live happily, and I can be joyful.

For a period, I deeply regretted my actions. I never thought I would bring such consequences to everyone in the family. But do you know? After those things happened, as a parent, am I really indifferent inside? I watched my child get hurt time after time, and all I could do was stand by helplessly, watching with no way to help. Do you know that kind of sorrow?

All these years, even though your heart has blamed me and your father, do you know we’ve always been silently watching over you? I really hope someone could tell you that we miss you dearly. We want to stay by your side and accompany you, but we have no way to make everything become what we imagined. I cannot restore everything to the way I desire deep in my heart. Do you know how scared I am? I’m afraid that one day I’ll leave this world. I’m truly scared. I don’t want to wait until the moment of life and death to miss my loved ones, to reflect on what I did wrong, or what I’ve done that let everyone down.

I know I have no reason or face to beg my own son for forgiveness, but do you know? You are my child, and in our hearts as parents, you will always be the first.

We won’t change anything for anything. We’ll let everything develop as we imagined. Even if it takes a long time, even if we may never achieve that goal in this lifetime, I’ve tried. I have no regrets, and I have a clear conscience. When I die, perhaps I will feel at peace?

The thing I worry about most in my life is that after I leave this world, my child will still resent me as a mother for not being there. She may still resent everything I did as wrong. I don’t want to endure such a blow or suffer such harm. This is not the life I want. Maybe everyone thinks I’ve lived very selfishly all these years, but who hasn’t lived selfishly for themselves at least once? My past selfishness led to such a tragic end, and I truly regret it. I’ll never act as ignorantly as before again, causing heartbreak.

If you truly see me as your mother and hope that I can stay by your side, then I implore you, I beg you to give me a chance to live well for once. Let me strive for my own life, without being repeatedly bound by thoughts that hold me back from living. That kind of life is truly torturous, and I’ve experienced it for too many years. I don’t want to keep experiencing it.”

Zhang Yichen had never seen his mother plead like she did today. Should he just let his mom keep begging him while he remains indifferent? Perhaps he’s not truly stone-hearted, but he can’t forget the pain his mother once caused him. Maybe he should learn to let go, to forget all the pain and sorrow, allowing everyone to live in their happiest moments, allowing everyone to have their lifetime of happiness.

But over the years, perhaps in his lifetime, he can never pretend these things never happened. He’s done too many things, and each event has dealt him a heavy blow. He may never have the conclusion he desires, but perhaps in the next life, everything can turn out the way he wishes most.

”Mom, if you knew it would come to this, why did you do it back then? Did you really think we could easily forget and pretend nothing happened? Honestly, I feel powerless. I can’t be as strong as you imagine, and I can’t pretend none of this ever happened. How can I casually forget the hurt I once suffered?

Maybe deep down, you think I’m your child and should naturally endure your harm, but that’s not the reality. We should learn to let go of the things we least want to accept. We should change the desires deep within us. Why should we repeatedly hurt each other? Do you think this life is what we want?

You are my mother. Did you really consider my feelings when you said this?

Actually, you never did. I don’t understand what made you become like Lady Numb. I don’t understand what pain you truly suffered that makes you think I’m expected to forgive you?

No matter what, my dad would never say such things to me. He would never force me to make any decision. He would follow my wishes, but you, what did you do? Is it just to make me conform to your attitude? Is your attitude really more important than everyone else’s? Just because of your attitude, should I give up everyone’s viewpoint to satisfy yours?

People are born, grow old, get sick, and die. I know, and I know you’re afraid to face this day, and I’m the same. But just because we are afraid, should we escape all of this?

I used to think, as long as I could live happily, as long as you are happy, I don’t mind. Even if you’re not by my side for your entire life, I won’t blame you.”

When will my mother return to my side?