My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1732: Chapter 1526: Loneliness

On that day, you told me you decided to head south, while I told you I could only head north. As you crossed that long river and that high mountain, I knew that everything from those many years had already gone with the wind. When my memories began to recall the past, I didn’t know if I should accept the pain in my heart.

This year, Zhang Yichen has been watching his family living their daily lives like that. He feels that his father endures his wife’s torment repeatedly day after day, and this torment can only be silently endured, without any way to express the pain within his heart to anyone.

In reality, even if no one else feels anything this year, Old Master Zhang still has a considerable feeling in his heart.

He watched with eyes wide open as his daughter-in-law quietly added a quilt for his son at night. He knew his daughter-in-law finally warmed up for his son’s sake. There are things he’s aware of but, as an elder, he finds it difficult to speak out, so he can only observe silently until one day when they both truly realize what each of them wants, perhaps then they will know what they should do with their lives.

Ran Zhihan watched her father and envied how much he could give for her mother. Although her husband used to do everything for her, ever since one argument, he has never sacrificed everything for her again.

Now, seeing her parents like this, she truly feels envious, jealous, yet resentful. But ultimately, this is the result of her own choices. She herself turned everything into what it is now, so what right does she have to blame others? Every step of her path was her own doing. Since she mistakenly ended up here, what right does she have to blame or resent others? It’s better to contemplate what caused all this passivity.

Zhang Yichen saw his wife’s absent-minded expression; he understood what was on her mind. As a couple, they no longer shared a common language and it’s hard to talk about some things out loud. Even though he doesn’t express it, the thoughts linger, unable to be forgotten.

Even if they live together despite past grievances, some scars have already rooted deeply and are etched into their very bones, so how can they forget? But isn’t this the result of the choices his partner made?

Old Master Zang was unaware of the discord between his grandson and granddaughter-in-law. He always thought they were a loving couple.

In others’ eyes, a loving young couple can also end up in discord due to certain matters, almost leading to divorce. But who knows what kind of agreement they have reached between themselves.

No matter what path one chooses, isn’t it okay to walk it quietly without needing everyone to feel saddened or troubled again by the road one chooses? Every decision made eventually changes everything; one can only choose to live like this, can’t they?

Even though every one of them stands here, their inner thoughts differ drastically. No one truly knows what’s on the other’s mind.

Just like a couple who share the same bed but dream different dreams.

Living that way causes each person’s heart torment, each of them longing for a simple, peaceful life without ever considering why things turned out differently. But why interfere with other people’s lives again and again? It’s enough to manage one’s own life and let the family live joyfully together. Isn’t that the most important thing?

At this moment, Zhang Yichen seems to suddenly understand the tacit understanding between his parents, a connection no one could truly appreciate, something only achieved through deep mutual understanding.

It’s similar to the tacit understanding between him and his wife, where words aren’t necessary and they inherently know each other’s deep thoughts. Such understanding is true love, isn’t it?

Zhang Zhentian said to Xia Jing, ”Thank you so much. Thank you for being willing to change so much for me. I never imagined we’d cultivate such understanding one day. This kind of understanding isn’t something just anyone can experience; it’s honed between us, and I am truly happy that we have this relationship!

Thank you for changing so much for me, for giving up your previous self-absorbed thoughts. You’re slowly learning to accept me, which proves that I have a place in your heart and that you sincerely want to test whether we can continue together. You want to build a complete family with me, and don’t wish for our family to suffer due to our relationship!

In fact, I know you’ve always had a place for me in your heart over the years, you just aren’t aware of it. You’ve been in self-denial, deceiving yourself, thinking you can sacrifice everything for her, even our marriage. But gradually, over these years, my presence in your life has become a habit, a dependency you cannot discard. Deep down, my presence persists, yet why are you unwilling to admit it?

Regardless, your willingness to make these changes today is my greatest happiness; I won’t ask for more. I’m not that greedy, though everyone might be, I only hope you can stay by my side, that I can give you a happy life, rather than a painful memory. That’s not the outcome I desire!”

”I know, even if I admit you exist deep in my heart, so what? I am already changing for you, but I truly cannot just forget him completely; some things require your understanding. Even though this may bring unnecessary harm to you, I can only say I’m sorry. Some pains are inevitable. Since I’ve chosen to change for you today, please believe in me; I too am thinking about whether we can continue together. I’m not heartless; I just want to hold onto my happiness in marriage!”

In the end, I only discovered how lonely this all made me.