My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1739: Chapter 1533: Departure

Watching helplessly as the romance of love reflects in the water before my eyes.

”From the beginning until now, I can understand everything you’ve done. I feel it’s only human. You have such feelings, and I think you’re a person who values loyalty and emotions. But I’m not a Saint. Knowing some things doesn’t mean I’m unaware of everything, or that I’ve chosen to remain silent. I’ve been observing your actions towards me. Some of your actions have moved me greatly, but why do these actions repeatedly push me into a situation of injustice and betrayal?

How much I’ve hoped that we could live happily together. How I yearn for the two of us to walk hand in hand into the most beautiful years of this world, into the final Chapters of our lives. But why did you choose to deal me such a blow, again and again, dragging me back into the abyss of pain, where no matter how hard I struggle, I cannot escape.

Is this truly what you want?

Whatever the case, I can’t believe that you could become so frightening before my eyes. You’re the one constantly on my mind. Why would you do such things to harm me?

Does seeing me writhing in unbearable pain bring you joy and happiness? We are family. No matter what harm I suffer, it’s as if you are equally harmed. Do you truly have the heart to let your own family suffer injury over and over again?”

Xia Jing found herself speechless in the face of Zhang Zhentian’s questions. There’s a saying that no matter what the harm, one never wishes for their family to be hurt, because family is the most important thing to a person.

Even though deep down, over the years, I never thought of becoming a part of her family, everything had already taken root in my impression as my own family.

If now, without reason, I choose to let it all turn to dust, there’s no one who can bear it, and no one willing to let such a thing happen here.

”Zhentian, you should understand well that no one wants their family to suffer any harm. No matter how much pain you endure yourself, as long as your family is safe, those are still happy and joyful days. Your question today puts me in a really passive position. You know very well what the answer is within my heart, but still, you chose to ask. In your heart, you wagered against the heavens, and against my kindness, you bet that I wouldn’t be so ruthless to you!

Perhaps you think all of this is unforgivable, but do you know what kind of outcomes I’ve faced over these years?

In the eyes of everyone, I, a Mercenary Group leader, live a carefree and leisurely life. But who knows the pain and difficulty in the depths of my heart over the years!

Have any of you felt the hardships and pain I endured over the years? Who could comprehend the anguish of watching my compatriots and my brothers standing before me, giving their all time and again to complete tasks, using any means necessary to be loyal to you? Do you know what kind of pain that is?

I clearly know that once some paths are chosen, there’s no way to change them. But I still wholeheartedly choose this path because I believe that a path is made by walking it. No matter how difficult the path may be, as long as you bravely move forward, it’s bound to be the right one for you, no matter if it’s full of brambles or smooth sailing ahead. Since you’ve chosen it, even if on your knees, you must finish walking it!”

Zhang Zhentian felt troubled. Didn’t Xia Jing transfer the Mercenary Group leader position to Xiao Wei? What?

”Just now, when I heard you speak, there was something I didn’t understand. Didn’t you already give up the Mercenary Group leader position a long time ago? Didn’t you already give it to your younger brother? Why does what you’re saying now make me feel there’s a problem?

I hope you can honestly tell me the truth. I hope you haven’t lied to me this time. If even in this matter you deceive me, then I don’t even know why I would continue to choose to be with you?

You clearly understand the ups and downs we’ve been through over these years. We’ve walked hand in hand to where we are today, facing difficulties all the way, yet never giving up because we believe that as long as we bravely move forward, the heavens would not let us down. But now I’m unsure. I’ve been following you, moving forward bravely for so long, giving so much, and although heaven has granted you every reward, it has taken from me one thing after another, leaving me with losses that become your gains. Why treat me this way? Does heaven indeed dislike me? What exactly am I missing compared to you? How have I wronged heaven for it to torture me repeatedly, watching my unbearable pain while still shining its bright, mocking sun, smiling mercilessly? Why?”

”Why do you think this way? Haven’t we been happy and joyful over these years together? You’ve gained so much happiness and joy, while I’ve used my own unhappiness and discomfort to create your happiness. Isn’t that what getting is? Why must you dwell so much on the things I gained? The things I gained you see as your losses, and what you’ve gained is something I’ve lost, isn’t it?

In reality, it’s not that you don’t know many things. If you position yourself differently, you’ll realize some things are not as they seem. By changing your perspective, you’ll understand what it is you truly want at heart, and what benefit these things really hold for you. Should you keep entangling yourself with such things?”

Some pains are deeply underestimated in the heart, unchangeable by any means, and no one can bring about that change. The only thing one might be able to do is allow everything to return to its original position!