My Alleged Husband

Chapter 709: Chapter 679 Sorry!_1

How could Xia Jin possibly be unaware that if not for her emergence, her husband might not have turned out this way? She was supposed to lead a life of happiness and well-being, yet her accidental intrusion made his life so complicated. Everyone pays a certain price for their past choices, regardless of whether the price is steep, and those choices inevitably affect one’s life. No one expected it all to come so quickly. She sacrificed so much, only to end up with such a result. Yet, in the end, she could only admit defeat right there. Time and again, she thought of herself as a god, but why did she repeatedly endure such pain and torment? Why is life so painful for everyone, and why can’t people ever get what they want?

”Actually, even without you telling me, I understand that it was because of my arrival that your life turned into a mess. Originally, you could have married into a wealthy family, settled down happily, and lived joyfully with your own father and son. But because of my involvement, your life turned into its current state. You lost the opportunity to accomplish great things. You were so talented, yet in the end, you sacrificed everything for me. You abandoned your family, estranged your kin, and became indifferent to everyone. But ultimately, it’s all because of me. How could my conscience be clear? There are many things left unsaid not because I choose to stay quiet, but because I don’t know how to express them. I’ve chosen silence over expression, keeping it all in my heart. Perhaps you don’t realize how much I care about it all!”

In this lifetime, I’ve already given my heart to him. I can’t give you half of it again. It’s impossible for me to have room in my heart for two men—do you understand? No matter how many mistakes I make, I’ve always loved her deep inside. No matter how heartless she is towards me, there’s no way I can forget him. Even though he has abandoned the entire world and me, I still feel him in my heart. For his sake, I would still recklessly risk everything. Maybe telling too many lies can make anyone heedless. Ultimately, my mistakes have caused her to suffer the same pain. I truly feel so selfish. My interference has turned your life into this. I’m truly sorry for that. I can only sincerely apologize to you here and hope you can forgive me. But perhaps for your whole life, there’s no way you could forgive me. For you, this is an utter humiliation. How could you easily forgive me?”

I just hope that no matter where we both end up or what outcomes we face, whatever choices lie ahead, I hope you don’t involve our child in the conflicts between us. He’s innocent. Over the years, we’ve failed him as parents, never fulfilling even a bit of our responsibility. As children, we’ve never shown filial piety to our parents. We’re the most incompetent parents and children in the world. How could we even think about asking them to share this burden? Everyone is inherently selfish, which is essential for survival. ”Every man for himself or heaven and earth will conspire against you,” so why should we make our children suffer for these things?

”Well, you’re overthinking it. No matter what, he is my lifeblood. I won’t cast him out of the house. If you’ve done something wrong, you should face the consequences. How could I possibly implicate my own child? Why should I make our child bear the brunt of our unhappiness? One should learn to grow up. We owe her so much from before. Let’s consider this as repaying a favor we owe today. For my son, the experiences he’s had in his lifetime are experiences that no one else would ever face. He’s been through devilish training over and over, all he wanted was for his own parents to return to his side. Yet, he never imagined that when his parents did come back, his mother would reveal a shocking secret to him—that the man she has always loved is not his biological father, but another man!

I don’t know what kind of blow this ending will deal him, but I believe he will still understand you. He too has experienced the pain of unrequited love. There are seven sufferings in life, and the sorrow of parting from loved ones is the most painful!

No matter what you say, I still choose to forgive you. I can empathize with how much you love her, to the point that you can forsake even your life for her. In this lifetime, I could never earn the love you have for her. I’m truly envious of her and at the same time, so jealous of him. Why does he get to hold the heart of my wife, while in her heart, she could never love me? I don’t ask for much—just the sincere kindness and care of my temperament from my wife, yet even in her heart, I am not present. Perhaps this is the greatest failure of my life, clearly holding my wife in my embrace, yet the person in her heart is not me. Only I understand this kind of pain. Regardless of family interests or anything else, I will not choose divorce. It would only worsen our relationship and subject our neighborhood to ridicule!

My decision is inevitable, for I must make an effort for the sake of my father’s reputation. He is such a man who values his face, but for the sake of our family, he has discarded it. He never considered what face he could speak of in his lifetime, yet he would never have imagined that as his son, I would make such a sacrifice for the sake of his face. Perhaps my father will think that his son still values him a little, still holds his biological father in his heart. But who knows, over these years, my yearning for her has only grown, and I’ve never forgotten my own biological father waiting for me at home. Yet, for the sake of my wife, I’ve abandoned my father time and again, choosing not to return. But does anyone know what I ultimately got in return for these decisions?”