My Alleged Husband

Chapter 705: Chapter 675 Complaints of Injustice_1

”I know, I know that when you hear me say these words, you’ll be furious inside, but I also know that some things can never be changed, no matter how devoted I’ve been to you all my life, my heart belongs only to her, and no one’s words can change how I feel about her. I truly love her, love her so much that I could even give up my own life for her. I had considered how devastated I would be by her leaving, but I never imagined that her departure would make it impossible for me to live peacefully for the rest of my life. All I wanted was for her to stay by my side, but in the end, it all turned to smoke. I don’t know why, and I don’t understand why fate has been so unfair to me!”

When Zhang Zhentian heard Xia Jing’s words, he laughed bitterly. He couldn’t comprehend why, even now, this woman in front of him still complained about the unfairness of the world. Was the world fair to him?

”I don’t understand why you still feel entitled to complain about the world’s unfairness to you. Could it be that you think the world has been fair to me? The woman I cherished in the palm of my hand, whom I placed in the most important spot in my heart, has always pined for another man. How do you expect me to cope with this? Is this fair to me? I too have wished for a fair chance from fate, even if you could give me the slightest bit of your love, I wouldn’t be so overwhelmed with anger. I’ve always hoped that my sincerity could soften your heart of stone, but why, no matter the cost I bear, no matter how much pain I endure, all in the hope that you’d be happy, why wouldn’t you give me even a bit of hope and then snuff it out so decisively? What am I in your eyes? A mere pawn, or a crop to be replanted at your convenience?

Now you wish that fate would be fair to you, so may I ask, could you be a little fair to me? Can you share even the smallest bit of love with me? Why must I live in such agony? Why did you give me all this hope and stay with me for years, yet I never held a place in your heart? What do you consider me? What status have you granted me? In your eyes, what am I to you? Am I just a spare wheel?

Xia Jing, Xia Jing, I’ve loved you wholeheartedly, sparing no expense for you. I’m willing to endure all pain, stand under scrutiny, criticized for abandoning my own son, my father, and forsaking my family’s legacy of a century, all just to be with you and see your smile. Because when I see you smile, I feel that all my sacrifices are worth it. But why did you have to reveal such a secret to me today? Don’t you know? If you had stopped loving me, you could have been honest with me instead of waiting so many years to tell me these words. You’ve truly put me in an awkward and embarrassed position!

The woman I’ve adored for most of my life has never loved me back. All your compliance, all your apparent care, were just a facade. I feel like a complete failure as a man; I never received a sincere heart from the woman I love, who has been deceiving me all along, treating me like an option. For any man, this is an unbearable truth. I really don’t understand what wrong I must have done in a past life to have met you. Sometimes, I truly am grateful, thinking perhaps I saved the galaxy in a former life to have met you, yet I never anticipated you would choose to hurt me in this way. Your betrayal is unbearable; I shall never forget it, and be assured, I won’t let our marriage get to its end because I intend to keep you by my side, to endure lifelong misery for your actions. I want you to understand that there’s a price to pay for everything you’ve done!”

”Actually, it doesn’t matter if you make me live in pain. I don’t care anymore. The luckiest thing in my life is that I met him, because I must have saved the galaxy in my last life to be loved by him so selflessly. And for him, I too can forsake my life. While you’ve been good to me, and have given up everything for me, I simply don’t have those feelings for you. Without that heart-fluttering moment, how could it be possible that I would truly love you? Everything I’ve done is just a transfer of emotions. My heart has always loved her; for her, I could abandon everything, including my pride, my dignity, all that I cherish, just to receive a smile from him. You can’t understand that feeling, and I have no way to describe it to you. Maybe one day when you truly understand, you’ll really comprehend the feelings I had at the time!”

”Stop talking, do you think it’s fun to keep on saying these things to me? To keep hurting me with your words, to verbally attack me, do you really find joy in it? I don’t want to say anything now. I don’t want these family scandals spread outside. My father cares about his dignity, and my actions have already stripped him of all his pride. I cannot let him be ridiculed at such an old age. I just want my father to live out his final years peacefully, without suffering from anyone’s issues. That’s all I ask for. Rest assured, we will not have a chance to return to the happy times we had before, because you don’t deserve my love!

Perhaps I truly cannot compare to your former boyfriend; I simply cannot measure up to him. But let me tell you, never complain about the injustice of the world. In reality, the world is unfair to everyone. It took away the person you love the most, but let me treasure the woman I love most for so many years, only to find in the end she never loved me...”