My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1444: Chapter 1239: What You Don’t Get, You Won’t Lose

There are some things that I may never have, but at least I won’t feel lost for having them and then losing them again.

Whatever you possess is always yours, but once you push those things away, they no longer belong to you, and you no longer have the right to own them.

I don’t dare get too close to you, I always remember, I’m afraid you’ll find me annoying, so I am lonely all by myself.

Chen Gang saw his beloved girl smiling so happily in front of him, and he knew that this time he finally made the right decision. Seeing his beloved person so happy and joyful, what reason does he have to ruin her happiness? Nothing is more important than the happiness of the girl he loves. Looking back, his past actions were truly heartbreaking, truly disappointing.

But now, he finally understands it all. Perhaps fate was waiting for him to come to this realization. Now he thoroughly understands everything. Perhaps things will really be different, hopefully, they can meet again in the future, and hopefully, when they meet again, they’ll smile as brightly as now, never to be saddened by any unfortunate events again.

”Zihan, you know? Seeing your radiant smile now makes me realize that what I always wanted wasn’t your love for me. What I wanted was simply to watch you from afar, living happily. I never understood what kind of life I truly wanted until I saw your radiant smile. I realized that it was me who hurt you, who made you into that saddened version of yourself, who troubled you and your husband’s relationship.

I know that people in this world are not perfect, and I understand many things cannot be obtained just by wanting them, but I hope we can one day be as happy together as we are now. No matter what you think of me in the future, no matter how you see me, please remember that there was a boy who deeply cared for you, who was willing to pay any price for you. Ultimately, we passed by each other. This sentiment, I hope you can understand this fate, and I hope you can remember it completely...”

”Chen Gang, I am truly grateful to you from the bottom of my heart. If you hadn’t decided to let go, I wouldn’t be as happy as I am now. It’s you who made me into what I am, it’s you who helped me understand what true love is. Do you know how happy I am to be with you, to become best friends with you? I am very happy for the years we spent together. During that time, you were always a bright, sunny boy. I hope you don’t change your initial intentions because of anything. You are a kindhearted person; don’t let any unfortunate things darken your heart, don’t let your years of effort go to waste!

Believe me, while life’s path is full of hurdles, there’s always sunshine waiting behind. Don’t let my presence ruin your lifetime happiness. I hope one day you can be with your true love, and I would be so happy for you. Though I don’t say much, do you know? My heart isn’t bad; I just hope that everyone I care about can live happily, and that’s enough for me. Maybe you don’t fully understand why I think this way now, but one day you will realize that being together isn’t about possession!”

Chen Gang nodded and said: ”You’re right, now I completely understand all perspectives. You know? When I discovered that the girl I love most may never be mine, how desperate and regretful I felt. I hated myself for being so incompetent, for being unable to stay by the side of the girl I love most. At that moment, I felt like such a failure, a deep sense of defeat overwhelming me from deep within.

Perhaps you cannot understand such a desperate life, but you know? Being with you brought color to my life, no longer so desperate as before. This is what you gave me, you helped me understand that life is not perfect, nobody can be perfect in everything. Even if they are good in everything, they will always have weaknesses, always have flaws!

Our lives are given by our parents, and our paths are selected by ourselves. Ultimately, no one else can control which path we should take; only our hearts can guide us towards the right path. If our hearts truly become twisted, then no matter how wealthy you become in this life, it’s all in vain, as you’ll still end up facing legal consequences.

Everyone knows the law is strict and fair, where no one can predict what they’ll become. The only choice we have is deciding what kind of person we want to become. My life’s ideals aren’t many, but my big ideal is to not harm those I love most.

We have lived together for so many years, but there’s never been a good way to continue living together. However, we will always be friends. No matter when or where, please remember you always have me as a friend, silently supporting you, silently applauding you. Seeing your life shine, I will smile for you; seeing your life happy and joyful, I will be glad for you; but if I see you sad and tearful, I will still feel pain within for you, you must understand that your happiness is my joy, and your sadness is my sorrow, let you understand all this and maybe it will show you how much I am reluctant!”

”Chen Gang, I am sorry. I inevitably let down your kindness, inevitably let down your deep affection for me. All of this, I don’t know how to express in words to you; I can only deeply say sorry. Maybe we truly had no chance in this life, it’s really a fate without destiny, but I genuinely hope if there is a next life, you can actively confess to me earlier, maybe then I will make a different choice, isn’t that so? Every path is chosen by ourselves, and every path leads to a destined outcome. Therefore, you should know, these years we’ve reached where we are today; it’s not related to anyone else. You also don’t blame anyone. Ultimately, it’s simply the result of the road we chose, who can we blame for it?”

Chen Gang thought it indeed made sense; he had waited so hard for so many years, and ultimately still lost!

Not asking for you to be great, just a little more smile for me, you are merely a passerby in my life.

Life is always like this, so fair that no one wants to lose what they want, what they have.