My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1406: Chapter 1211: Never Gave Up

”Dad, after all these years, did you ever consider giving up on finding my mom?

You know what? I don’t know what kind of pain my mom has gone through, I just know I shouldn’t let my mom down.”

”Dad, can you not forgive me? I’m very conflicted right now; I don’t know if I should forgive you, but it is indeed because of you that my mom left this home.”

”Grandpa, I’m not entirely sure what you mean. I just want to know, according to what you say, we shouldn’t complain about anyone, because heaven is fair. Don’t complain that heaven is unfair to you, and don’t complain that humans are unfair to you. But Grandpa, do you know? Many things can’t be solved just by not complaining!”

”Then tell me what issues you’re talking about.”

”Grandpa, to be honest, even though my parents chose to abandon me, I never thought about blaming them, because I feel that whatever harm they did to me is understandable, especially after hearing the girl in my dreams persuading me again and again, I became even more certain of my thoughts. But I don’t understand why the final outcome turned out like this. Grandpa, he hurt me so many times. Even if they are my parents, I can’t continue to repay grievances with kindness, because it’s really difficult for me. I have continuously sacrificed my principles for them, and I’ve cleaned up the messes for them time and time again, but they don’t acknowledge gratitude and keep hurting my lifelong happiness again and again. Grandpa, do you think this is fair to me as your grandson?” Zhang Yichen asked.

Old Master Zhang didn’t know how to answer his grandson. No matter how he responds, one side will inevitably get hurt. This is not the result he wants to see. But what choice should he make so that the two people he loves the most aren’t harmed because of his actions?

”Child, you know everything you’ve understood over these years, but you chose not to speak. Grandpa understands your struggles, but many things are not as simple as you imagine. This world is cruel; if you don’t harm others, others will harm you. But will harming back and forth really yield a good result?”

”Grandpa, then tell me, what should I do to ensure that neither person gets hurt?”

”Child, these things aren’t solved by me saying them out loud; they need your own actions. Like you said, over these years, you’ve always repaid grievances with kindness; you’ve forgotten so many instances of repaying with kindness, so are you short of just one or two more? You’ve managed to overcome challenges by yourself time and again, so why not this time? Why can’t you get through this one?”

”Grandpa, it’s not that I don’t want to overcome this hurdle within my heart, but I genuinely can’t do it anymore. My parents have done so many things, don’t you know? Everyone has eyes; won’t they gossip? Grandpa, I’m begging you to consider this from my perspective. I am truly exhausted mentally. This doesn’t bring good results for you or for me! You all think I’ve lost my memory, so I should forget everything from before, but have you thought that I haven’t completely lost my memory? I do have the chance to recover my previous memories. I’m slowly regaining my memories now, but why is my mind filled with scenes of my birth parents harming the woman I love? Grandpa, don’t you know, these images only amplify the pain in my heart. I thought that by losing my memory, I wouldn’t have to seek out my past memories, wouldn’t have to remember what my parents did to hurt me, but fate isn’t fair like that. It’s making me gradually recover my memory, and precisely because of this, I’m receiving such a huge blow. Grandpa, I know, every time you teach me, it’s with the hope that I become a kind and upright gentleman. I’ve always fought toward the goals you set for me. Grandpa, I’m begging you, sometimes, consider things from my point of view! If they can hurt their son’s lifelong happiness for their selfish interests, what else could they not do? With hurt upon hurt, do I have to choose to endure and hide, tolerating the pain they’ve caused me? Can’t I stand up and fight back? Grandpa, I’m human, not a wooden block. They’ve hurt me, I can feel pain, I can feel sadness, but I still choose not to speak because family harmony brings prosperity; but in their eyes, it’s not like that. They only feel what they need is the interests, and they’d pay any price for their interests, even their life!”