My Alleged Husband

Chapter 697: Chapter 667 Sorrow_1

Zhang Yichen felt that regardless of the situation, she should try to persuade her mother. She should never let her mother treat her father the way she did before.

”Mom, no matter what, it’s true that you were in the wrong first. You shouldn’t have treated my father like that. Even though he abandoned me, abandoned my grandfather, and our whole family, even though he made my grandfather so angry he ended up in the hospital, I can forgive him. He’s my father. No matter the mistakes he’s made, he’s still my father. He gave me life. Without him, how could I have possibly reached today? Step by step, you both created the person I am now, but you’ve never considered how difficult my past was. During my growth, you were never there for me. Do you know how scared I was, growing up day by day, undergoing training after training like some kind of demon’s regimen? I was so afraid, crying in that lonely place, and yet there was no one to lend me a helping hand!”

”Training in the pitch black, where I couldn’t even see my hands before me, could any of you understand the fear of a child just a few years old, the shadow it cast over my heart? Because time after time, you acted only upon your own thoughts, you forgot your own relatives. What they needed most was your presence. You don’t understand how to care for your own family. Your actions have only been to satisfy your own desires, but is the freedom you chase really that important? Over the years, you’ve gained your freedom, but are you truly happy? You gained freedom at the cost of losing your loved ones, your home. Wandering the world aimlessly, with no place to call home, living day to day on edge—is that really the life you wanted?”

”Mom, no matter what, I still call you mother, because all these years, you must have been silently watching over me. I know that you don’t ignore my existence; you just don’t know how to interact with your own son. I can forgive you all, no matter the harm you caused me before, no matter how many times you shattered my happiness, I can let go. But, for the sake of my father, there are things I have to make clear to you. By doing this, where do you really put my father? Don’t you know how much he loves you? He’s ready to give all his love to you. Do you really want to peel it away layer by layer like an onion? If it really comes to that day, will you still be able to make me happy?”

”Hearts are made of flesh and can hurt, feelings are not one-way, aren’t they? Who would willingly give their all, only to be treated with cold-hearted indignity in return?”

”If you were in my place, wouldn’t your heart be troubled by these things? We don’t tell you these things because we don’t want to upset my father or cause friction between the two of you, but enough is enough. Don’t hurt her like you used to, over and over again. She’s changed so much just to keep pace with you. She never used to be like this, but for you, she really has given too much. You should consider her feelings. If you keep hurting her, she’ll only drift further away from you; everyone has their own way of life. Maybe our way of life is different from yours, but you should try to live with all of us now that you’re back in this family. You’re part of a proper household now—you should get used to the way of life in this family, not continue living on your own. That won’t last!”

”My dear son, thank you for saying such touching words to me today. I really do understand, some things once done cannot be undone. Do you think I don’t want to return to the life I had before? If I could turn back time, another chance would be enough for me to live without such sadness. I’ve lost the person who loved me the most, and in return, I’ve only found heartache and suffering, all of which I brought upon myself. I can’t blame anyone else, because I know some things in life can never be changed. I’ve missed out on what I’ve lost forever, and it fills me with sorrow. Why did I act without considering others? Why have I never thought about the consequences of my own actions? I really do regret it. I don’t ask for time to rewind; I just pray for one more chance—to return to the past, to say I’m sorry to the person I’ve loved the most, to be with him wholeheartedly—that would be enough!”

”Sometimes I really hate fate, why was I only given one chance? My desires go far beyond this. I would give up everything for her, if only I had known how deeply I loved him, the weight of that love; I would have done anything, at any cost, even if it meant bearing the heaviest of consequences. Then why did I ever cause her such harm? The guilt, the relentless pain that makes one wish for death, has numbed my heart. I don’t even know who I am anymore. All I know is that my heart has always loved that man, I love him, and that will never change. I just wanted to stay by his side, but why did fate have to play such a cruel joke on me, making us quarrel over and over? Was it because of someone else’s interference, a mistress’s intrusion, that made everything so extraordinary!”

”My child, your own happiness is the most important thing. Don’t end up with regrets like me. When you realize what’s lost, it’ll be too late. I just hate that I did it to myself. If I had known, why would I have done it? This question is for me. I know the pain my actions have caused, the shadow they’ve cast on the ones who love me. I can’t describe it, can’t measure it. I only know I’ve taken a path of no return. By choosing to hurt the person I loved most, I’m doomed to live in sorrow. Sometimes, I really pity myself...”