My Alleged Husband

Chapter 693: Chapter 663: If Time Rewinds (Part 1)_1

How could Zhang Yichen have possibly not known what was truly in his mother’s heart? For a woman, there is no greater sorrow than being left by the man she loves most. Her desires were hardly excessive. Who’s to blame for all this in the end? No one had ever considered just how tough her mother’s life had been. In the past, Yichen always resented his mother for abandoning him, but only today, after hearing everything his mother had said to him, did he realize how tough her life had been and how much she suffered. What she wanted now was truly simple—just to stay by her mother’s side steadily. Maybe that would be enough. He shouldn’t be too harsh with his expectations for this lifetime. As long as his family could always be by his side, why should he mind suffering a little inconvenience?

Because of what he called dignity, self-respect, and face, he gave up the chance to bring his parents back home. Again and again, he turned them away, refusing entry. Who could understand the feeling of being shut out, of that pain that came from deep within?

The world is vast, and no one sails through life without trouble. Everyone faces obstacles step by step; no one’s life is entirely smooth. Every person endures a different journey.

”Mom, everyone’s life is full of ups and downs; no one has it all smooth-sailing. No matter the difficulties I encounter, you should always keep smiling. Don’t forget you still have me, your son. No matter how tough things get, or how much trouble you face, just believe that I am by your side. That will be enough. I might not be able to offer the greatest help, but I can always be there for you, providing the most encouragement. I have been through so much, but now I want my family to live in peace and happiness. Mom, maybe I can’t give you anything else in this lifetime, but please believe I will give you all the love I can!”

Let the past go. Perhaps only by forgetting him can you move forward happily and live the life you want!”

”You really are a fool. I’m much older than you. I’m your mother; how could I not know what’s best for me? If I could truly forget him, I would have done so long ago, but I simply cannot. Day after day, I languish, through countless springs and autumns, years upon years. All this time, I’ve been confused, not knowing what choice I should make to win her back. I have always hoped she would return to my side. If she would come back, I’d give up everything. But can I really wait for him to return?”

Over these years, I have no idea how I’ve survived, always waiting for her to return. But to no avail—I didn’t even receive a greeting. What should I do to console myself? My heart is numb. I’m no saint; I, too, long for my dearest to stay by my side. Yet, fate has been so unfair, making me suffer such agonizing decisions time after time. It’s been such wretched, unbearable pain. Every day, I reflect on my mistakes, knowing I’ve committed unforgivable errors. But I never imagined that one day I would lose him, the deepest wound in my heart!

I’ve been living in agony, each day more unbearable than the last. I have no idea how much longer I must endure this.

I don’t even know how much longer I’ll live. It could be a day, or a year, but no matter how long, I must keep him in my heart forever, never forgetting. I truly have no way to forget, my heart is full of love for him. These words have been buried in my heart for many years, with no chance to speak them out until now. Saying them has brought some relief, but it doesn’t mean I can forget him.”

”I really wish I could turn back time. If I could, I would never forget him for my whole life. I would keep him with me forever, holding on for a lifetime. I would do everything in my power, even if it meant completely losing my own life, to keep her with me. Nothing is more important than that. Only after losing him did I realize how much I loved him!

If I had just put in a little more effort, cared for her a bit more, loved her a little more, would the ending have been different? Is what I lacked most the most important—loyalty?

I so wish I could turn back time. If I could, I would give up everything to prevent things from turning out like this. Fate played its cruelest joke on me by making me lose him. Who could understand my pain, my despair? As a woman, don’t I too love my husband? All I wanted was for him to stay by my side. Why must it be so difficult? Why will no one allow him to stay? Even a bit more love from him would’ve been good, yet everyone made mistakes, resulting in such heartbreaking sorrow for us all!”

Zhang Yichen also felt that if time could be turned back, things wouldn’t be so terrible. Everyone would question why things in the past couldn’t remain, if time could be reversed, he’d surely keep the most precious things before him.

Everyone lives in pain; each heart is full of agony. No one knows what they’ll encounter in their lifetime, or what ending they’ll face. All we can do is to do our duty, to give our all, our wholehearted love to someone. Perhaps only then can we earn a life of long-lasting peace and happiness. Yet I ultimately lost it all; all due to my own faults. Who else can I blame? I can only hide in the corner, licking my wounds in secrecy.