My Alleged Husband

Chapter 689: Chapter 659 Loyalty_1

”Child, do you know? The most important thing between a husband and wife is loyalty. If there’s no loyalty, their marriage is on the brink of rupture. I once forgot what loyalty meant—I didn’t understand what it truly was, and I hurt the one who loved me most. It’s my biggest regret in life. Every decision I made, why did it always end up hurting those who loved me the most? Why couldn’t I keep those who loved me by my side, yet I constantly pushed them away, causing them pain, driving them away from me? My heart really hurts, so much that sometimes I’ve become numb. I don’t know what kind of life I really want, I don’t know what kind of person I truly want to love. All I know is that I miss him so much, I’ve missed him all these years I’ve been with your father.”

Perhaps you’ll think that I, as a mother, am fickle and unfaithful to my own husband, but do you know? He loved me so deeply; he gave me his entire world. I am not heartless, I do feel it. How could I have wanted things to turn out this way?

Everything in this world is fair. The things you’ve done will come back to you in a cycle of cause and effect; it’s inevitable. The mistakes I’ve made will ultimately wreak havoc upon me, no matter how big or small. They will come back to haunt me, ensuring I can never turn my life around. I have no other regrets in life, only that I can’t understand why I made those decisions, why I hurt someone who loved me so dearly. I’ve lost the entire world; my world had already crumbled. Being with your father, although there was a bit of love, it was never the love for the one I loved the most.”

Child, remember, no matter what difficulties you face, no matter what temptations, do not betray the one who loves you most.

Neither love nor marriage can withstand any betrayal. Once betrayal occurs, the marriage faces destruction!

During that time, I waited day and night for his messages, setting all his messages as my top priority. Day by day, I waited, constantly looking at my phone, hoping he would send me a message—even a scolding would do. But in the end, I received nothing, and only then did I realize I had truly lost him, lost my entire world!

I begged her time and again not to delete me, just to leave me that last bit of contact, but he ruthlessly abandoned everything about me. I was utterly desperate. Facing the world, I couldn’t see anything. I only knew my brain had lost all motivation, my heart was completely hollowed out, and my soul had seen the darkest place: the realm of death!”

Yichen could hardly believe the heart-wrenching words his mother confided in him, shattering the illusion of a loving relationship between his parents. He never imagined his mother had had a first love long ago, and this first love had meant everything to her. He realized her life wasn’t as blissful as he had thought.

Perhaps, as everyone says, only you can truly understand your life and the consequences each part of it may bring. You don’t know what outcome you’ll face; you only know this life might leave you incapable of change, suffused with nothing but hardship and weariness.

”Mom, did you feel back then that he was moving too fast and you couldn’t keep up, that you were always trying to follow in his footsteps, thinking that as long as you followed his lead, you could be together forever? But you never considered that when you abandoned all your principles and everything you cared about, repeatedly lying to your loved ones just to be with him, you’d still lose him. Only after losing him did you realize he was the most important person to you. You always yearned to be by his side for a lifetime, but fate had other plans, bringing you pain you couldn’t foresee. You just wanted to be by his side securely, yet in the end, fate stripped away even that possibility, leaving you with no way out for the rest of your life.”

”So, in your heart, you know well that even if you had kept up with him, he might not have been yours. It’s all unknown unless you were truly engaged, able to walk down the aisle of marriage. Otherwise, no matter how good your relationship, a breakup could still be possible. Yet, you never imagined how deeply you’d fall, to the point where now you’ve invested your all. You just hope to see him one more time, his smile making you happy, his anguish causing you more pain than anyone else could understand.”

”But in the end, you still lost him. The fact you lost him was just the destiny marked out for you from the start, but you’ll never forget him because he’s forever etched in your mind. The happiness he brought you, the love he gave, the sacrifices he made for you—all burned into your heart. Unless you can change your heart, or until you lie in your coffin, then you can forget it all. But I guess you wouldn’t want to forget, would you?”

”You’re right, I’ll never forget. His love will be forever imprinted in my heart, and I won’t replace my heart. When I’m laid to rest, I’ll still remember him because he was the one I loved in my lifetime. Perhaps it was my overflowing love that led to this catastrophe, but who knows? The paths I’ve walked are forever imprinted in my mind, and I can’t forget. I’ve walked every road I walked with him alone, his silhouette filling my mind with no way to erase it. His every gesture came from the heart. Who can understand the pain—that sort of pain that never fades, a lifetime of suffering I’d rather endure than ever forget him!”