My Alleged Husband

Chapter 615: Chapter 594 Mature_1

”Yes, you’ve indeed become very mature now, and it’s precisely because you have become so mature that I feel scared. Why, why did you have to become so mature? If you hadn’t, how could I possibly have lost all my chances? But there was never a place for me in your heart. I really don’t understand, am I truly that inadequate in your heart? Why can I never enter the depths of your heart? I really want to open up your heart and see whether there’s a place for me, but I can’t. I want you to live a happy life, not to have it ruined by my presence, to destroy your lifelong happiness and peace!”

”Zhihan, promise me that you will live happily, no matter what troubles you encounter, and at the very least, tell me about it. If you consider me a friend, don’t be polite with me. If there’s any way I can help you, I will do my utmost. If one day you really do settle down with him, don’t forget that there’s someone who will always stand behind you, silently waiting for you. Even though this relationship has failed, I cannot immediately go find another girl to share my life with. I’m not that fickle, my feelings are always sincere. Since I have chosen you, I will be with you for good. Please, don’t look down on me.”

”I know the relationship between you and your husband has always been good. Perhaps it was my interference that turned it into what it is now. For this, I sincerely apologize to you. I did not intend to damage your relationship. I simply couldn’t control my own feelings. I just wanted to embrace the woman I love most, but in the end, it led to this result, causing so much conflict between you and your husband. This is my fault, and I sincerely apologize to both of you. I hope you can forgive me.”

”Chen Gang, don’t say that. This matter, after all, isn’t solely your fault. In fact, I am the one at fault. I shouldn’t have chosen to doubt you, I shouldn’t have hurt you in such a way. This must be the worst pain for you, with your beloved right in front of you, yet unable to embrace her. Your heart must feel so defeated. But I can’t, I cannot go against my own principles, the concepts of ’san cong si de’. Since I have chosen to live with my husband forever, I can only have him as the only man in my life, and absolutely must not have any ambiguous ties with another man.

You shouldn’t apologize to me. The person who should really apologize is me. It’s my fault that you waited so long, and yet I was unaware of your waiting. I’m sorry, it’s my fault I cannot give you a complete love, a complete family. It’s my fault you’ve wasted so many years of your youth. They say a woman’s youth is precious, but isn’t a man’s youth equally valuable? You’ve spent all your youth because of me. Don’t give up all your time waiting for me anymore. Live your life well, plan for your future. You’ve achieved so much, work hard and fight for it. Find your true love, let her accompany you for a lifetime, and I hope she can also help you in your career. Thank you...”

Zhang Yichen suddenly heard Chen Gang say he was giving up on his heart. Why did she feel a little reluctant to let him give up? She always felt having someone here to be her spouse was rather nice, then she could always have things to do, to argue incessantly each day, just to prove who loved their spouse more.

”Do you really intend to give up now? Are you really willing to step out, to never disturb my life with my wife ever again? Do you think you can bear it? She’s such a perfect girl, and after knowing so many women over the years, do you think you can truly let go?”

”What difference does it make if I can let go or not? I remember what your wife told me, ’What’s meant to be will always find a way; what’s not meant to be will never happen, no matter how much you try. How much does one understand of all the beauties in the world, it is foolishness to force what is not meant to be.’

You must understand what this means, right? Since she has already said that, what can I do? I am helpless.

I have never failed like this in my life, what I wanted I never failed to attain, but this time I finally understand there are things in this world beyond my reach, such as your wife, the girl I love most. Even though I’ve given everything, she’s unwilling to live with me. I realize I have already lost to you, because the girl I love is not willing to be with me. But do you know? I wish I could turn back time to a few years ago. If I had truly expressed my feelings to her then, could we have avoided today’s tragedy?

Sometimes I don’t know whether to hate you or to thank you. I feel like I’ve lost my most cherished girl because of your appearance. But on the other hand, when I see how well you’ve taken care of her, how attentive and caring you are, it deeply moves me. I’m torn inside. I don’t know how I should feel about you, what attitude I should adopt. But do you know? All I want is for you to treat her well and not to harm her kind heart, she can’t bear such pain.”

”Of course I know how to cherish my wife; I don’t need an outsider to teach me. Remember, you’ve already admitted you’ve lost everything, lost the right to claim anything. If you want something in the future, you can tell me, but you can’t come looking for my wife. I will sever all ties between you and her completely. I will not let you two meet again.

But thank you. Because of your appearance, even though my wife and I have argued quite a bit, I have to admit, because of you I know how much my wife cares for me, cares for our family. Rest assured, as long as you can leave here peacefully, return to where you truly belong, I will treat her well, I won’t let you down. After all, she’s my wife, how could I bear to see her in such sorrow, right?”

Chen Gang smiled faintly. Since he had already lost, so utterly, why continue to insist? It was time to leave, cheerfully and without any more qualms.