My Alleged Husband

Chapter 605: Chapter 584 Leaving My World_1

Chen Gang now felt such unbearable pain in his heart that he couldn’t breathe. No matter why he had originally come here, no matter what he had sacrificed, in the eyes of the woman before him, everything he had done was just a mistake. She would never consider life from his perspective, and yet he had foolishly devoted himself to her, waiting for a mere thank you in return, without even a hug. Although he had forcefully taken her that day, in the end, it was without her knowing, not with her consent.

”Zhihan, no matter what, I’m really grateful to you. At least once, you trusted me completely. If it weren’t for your trust, how could I have possibly gotten you drunk at the bar? How could I have taken advantage of you without you knowing? That night I spent with you, I was truly happy. Seeing you by my side, I felt such joy. I thought my dream had finally come true, that I could finally have the woman I had been longing for. But when you woke up, your first reaction wasn’t surprise but despair!”

Do you know how much pain I felt in my heart when I saw that look in your eyes? I never thought that on waking up, you would show no spite toward me, no insults; you were just filled with despair. Maybe at that moment, you felt you had no face to go back to your husband and you could never return to the happiest starting point of your marriage. All of this, every single bit of it, was because of the appearance of an outsider like me. But do you know? Although you were desperate at the time, my heart was overjoyed, because I thought my chance had come. I could take advantage when you and your husband were fighting and thinking of divorce. I could be there for you, I could take you into my arms!”

Ran Zhihan couldn’t continue to listen to the man in front of her revealing the true facts of this matter. This incident would always be his shame. He had never imagined that he would actually cheat and betray his husband. Infidelity was the most aggregious thing in a marriage; once it happened, the union, no matter how happy, would be shattered. Yet all of this was just a ploy by this man to get her.

”Do you even realize what you’re saying? Do you understand what you’re doing? How can you be so cruel to me? I trusted you so much, but how did you treat me?

I trusted you completely, never doubting a single word you said. But why? Why did you do this to me, destroying my happiness? Are you really that happy inside? Even though you ruined my happiness, that doesn’t mean you get to have me be with you. We’re not suited for each other, with no common ideas or thoughts. How could we possibly live together for a lifetime?

I thought I made it crystal clear to you long ago. You shouldn’t make such a low-level mistake again, but now I realize that no matter how clear I am, you never understand why I do what I do. You always wishfully think that I’m just playing hard to get, that I’m just being a shy little girl. But don’t you get it? This is not what I want in my heart.

Please, stop saying these things to hurt me, and stop hurting me with what you do. That day was the most shameful day of my life, the most torturous for my soul. Since then, my heart has been tormented every night. I can’t face my husband, I can’t face the people who love me most, I can’t even face my own son, because I, as his mother, have betrayed his father. You’re being extremely cruel, and I beg you, please leave my world and stop reappearing in my life. Give me back a peaceful life. Don’t push me into a corner again and again, making me wish I were dead!”

”It seems you still don’t understand. The one who truly pushed you into a corner isn’t me; it’s yourself. You’re the one who’s pushed me into a corner step by step. If I’ve reached a dead end with no way back, why should I let you live a peaceful life? I’m on a path of no return, so why should you live in peace? If I’m doomed, you should fall into the abyss of pain with me. Whether it’s the condemnation of morals or the pressure of public opinion, you must bear it alone. This is all because you made me wait for so many years only to end up without a single embrace.

Maybe you really hate me now, hate me for doing this to hurt you, but I hope you can realize that my heart has also been severely damaged. You let your husband lock me in the basement and torture me for days, and although I was moved and comforted to see your tears for me, at least I knew I still had a place in your heart. Whether it was out of friendship or something else, at least I saw your sincere tears for me.

Zhihan, maybe you could have forgotten that night, acted as if nothing had happened, but not me. That day was the happiest day of my life. I waited so long, and although I didn’t get to bring you home as my official wife, you have been my wife in my heart.”

”Please stop, I beg you to stop. Just leave my world. Can’t we simply live well on our own? Why do you insist on dragging me into your agony? If you truly love me, please leave my world and stop appearing in my life. I just want to live in peace. You shattered the peace I could have had, so now don’t interrupt and prolong my suffering. Whether or not you can forget that event, I hope you never mention it in front of anyone. It may be just a memory to you, but to me, it’s shame. That shame has taken root in my heart and I can’t forget it. It’s not just a memory for me; it’s deep shame and pain!”