My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2380: Chapter 2213: Certain People

Even if I can’t let go, I don’t want to deepen the wound.

After Ran Zhihan was pulled out of Old Master Zhang’s hospital room by Zhang Yichen, he felt his heart becoming increasingly uncomfortable and aggrieved. Why has his husband never sought him out during these days? In his heart, am I still really his wife? Is this neglect of me normal in the heart of a man like him? Why treat me this way when I’m just a vulnerable woman who needs his love and care?

”What exactly do you want to do by pulling me like this? Haven’t we already made things clear between us? Since from beginning to end, you suspect that I’m with you because of your family’s wealth, then why do you treat me like this today? It only makes my heart more conflicted and painful. I understand that your thoughts are different from mine; perhaps every decision I make makes you resist me in your heart. But do you know that everything I do is for you, for the chance to be with you for a lifetime and never leave, but in the end, it only leaves me wounded all over.

Yichen, I beg you, give me some time to calm down properly, stop entangling with me like this. Let us quietly think about whether we should continue living together, and let us reflect on ourselves if we’ve done anything wrong. I know sometimes I’m really bad at talking and doing things, but please don’t despise me, don’t always think that it’s my fault alone, can you?

I also understand that over the years, because of me, my parents have enjoyed much happiness abroad, which perhaps I cannot give them in this lifetime. But I am very grateful to you because you’ve allowed my parents to experience the joy of family, repaying them for raising me. My heart is truly thankful to you, but I can’t indulge being wronged by you again and again. I can swallow my pride, but I’m not a soft persimmon to be squeezed as others please. I’m a living person, with feelings as well, and when doubted by my own husband, my heart is still in unbearable pain. But who has ever understood this feeling?”

Zhang Yichen froze in place; at that moment, he suddenly felt he had no argument against his wife’s words. Every word he could say was so reasonable, yet as a husband, what has he done to hurt his wife?

Reflecting on his doubts about his wife, is that really the suspicion a husband should have? He clearly knows how much his wife cares about him, yet chooses to act indifferent. Everyone is saddened by his actions; does he really want to see such an outcome, or is he simply unable to understand what his heart truly seeks?

”Ran Zhihan, I ask you not to always lower yourself and compromise whenever something happens. If you have something to say to me, just say it outright. Why do you keep aggrieving yourself? Do you know this makes me look down on you? Your actions truly pain my heart. I never expected you’d find yourself in such a situation, nor did I ever expect our marriage to become what it has. Do you know? From the moment I married you, I was so excited and fortunate, grateful that I had enough time to marry the woman I love most in this world. I was really thankful to the heavens for giving me this chance. Don’t make me regret it, can you?”

Ran Zhihan listened to her husband’s words, feeling even more heartache. What is this life meant to be for? For a man who doubted her from the start? Why has she made such sacrifices?

Everything in the world is equal, and this equality is something she’s knowingly aware of, yet she foolishly jumped into the fire pit. There’s no way for her to turn over in this lifetime; all she wants is a stable life as a couple. Why is it so difficult for her? Why does no one wish to offer such a life to her? In their eyes, is she honestly so unworthy of a happy life?

”There’s no need for you to say such words to me; my heart is grateful to you and loves you. I can’t bear to believe this is the decision I would make. Once, with you, I didn’t truly understand what love is; at that moment, all I knew was that my heart would beat because of yours and pain more due to your sadness. I only knew that as long as you were by my side, I would be very happy. Gradually, I realized that was my love for you, and this love wouldn’t change just because of any conflicts between us. On the contrary, I’m grateful that time and again, you stayed by my side despite the difficulties. That’s the happiest part of my life; I have no way to just watch you suffer!

No one can clearly explain the relationship between us; many decisions were made by ourselves, who can be blamed? Knowing some decisions would bring lifelong sadness, yet still diving in without hesitation; until the end, I’ve already been injured all over, beyond repair, but I’m still foolishly waiting alone, waiting for someone someday to come stay by my side.”

”Let’s both take a step back. After all, we have a young son at home. I’ve thought many times about letting my son have a joyful childhood and not be trapped in constant training like I was. Though I gained the world, my heart is ultimately empty. I want my child to experience a lively childhood, as you said, instead of proving himself again and again to those who don’t care about him. That would be exhausting and passive, and no one can feel that heartache. But I don’t want my son to face every step I once walked; that would be too cruel for him.”

Repeatedly, coming and going, lingering.