My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2364: Chapter 2197: In Front

Watching you and her walk up to me, you smiled and said, long time no see.

”Since you’ve already said it yourself, that man told you himself that he no longer has any feelings for you. So why do you persistently want to be with him?

Is it that I treat you badly, or am I somehow less than her? Do I not look good, or have I done something to wrong you? Why do you do these cruel and heartless things to me?

Do you not consider me as your husband in your heart? Does the safety of our family mean nothing to you? Where do you place your family? Since you chose to build a family with me initially, then you must take responsibility for this family. By doing this, what have you made each person in this family? A pawn you can pick up if you want and discard when you don’t?”

Zhang Zhentian was becoming more and more infuriated, he never imagined that his wife would ever become like this.

He didn’t understand how a once lively and cheerful woman in front of him had become like this? Why everything he said or did was wrong in her eyes?

Maybe, he didn’t know all along. When a person no longer loves another, no amount of infatuation matters. It seems like she’s always had him on her mind, but in reality, it amounts to nothing.

”Don’t say that. During the time I’ve been with you, I’ve been very, very happy. You once gave me everything I wanted, and you asked me if I could go to any lengths. But have you ever thought about what kind of life I want, what kind of ending we would have together? Time and again, the results of my solitude and decisions have blocked my life path!

Have you thought about the kind of life I want? Every day I live in unbearable pain. Who has ever given me the happiness I wanted? Again and again, I’ve been tormented by illness and suffering. I also want the life I desire, but in the end, what have you all given me?

I once asked him if he could continue to cry and smile for me, but in the end, none of it could be returned. Every time I hugged him from behind, you know my heart cursed in pain. It really hurt, really hurt at that time. I truly wanted to hold him forever and never let go. I longed for time to stay still at that moment, but would the heavens ever pay attention to me like this? Of course not!

Every time I embraced her, I prayed again and again in my heart, begging the heavens to let the moment last a bit longer, or even stop forever, never to pass. But he never will. When I looked up, I realized time had moved on, and he had turned away, leaving me alone, quietly waiting at that moment. How lonely and despairing I was, who could comprehend?

You may think people shouldn’t be so selfish, but do you know that what I desire is just so simple? As long as I can stay by his side, I don’t care about anything else.

These years I’ve always considered others, but in the end, I’ve received nothing. In my heart, this is a failed outcome. No matter how much I consider others, in their eyes, what am I?

Despite the torment of illness, I chose to be with him. All I want is to see him smile just once, even though my heart is bleeding inside. But as long as he smiles, I can still be happy.

You might think I’m being very foolish and naive, but do you know this is true love? I don’t need him to give me any feelings now, I don’t need his heart on me. As long as I give him my love, give him my heart, that’s enough. Whether in the end, I become all scraped up or find lifetime happiness, as long as I have no regrets, it’s enough. I’ve already lost him over and over again, and this time I really don’t want to lose him again. If I lose him once more, I don’t even know how long I can continue living...”

Zhang Zhentian never expected his wife could love that man so deeply, that she could give up even her life for him. In her eyes, what was he as her husband—a mere emotional outlet? Could it really just be a case of transferred feelings?

”I never thought you could love her this deeply. For him, you could disregard everything, even your life. Why can’t you do the same for me just once? I remember when we were together, you pretended to love me very dearly. At that moment, I truly felt I had entered a paradise of happiness, but in the end, I realized it was just the beginning of a hell of suffering!

Even if in this lifetime you don’t want to be with me, and there isn’t really a place for me in your heart, can you think about my feelings? I just want to live a healthy life, live a little happier, even just a little, but have I been happy with myself these years? No, I ran around for you, wandered the world for you, gave up my entire family for you, endured the agony of longing for you.

I clearly know my father is waiting for me, his own son, to go home and see him. I clearly know my father is waiting eagerly, hoping we can return to family.

But despite knowing all of this, for your happiness, I still chose to pretend I knew nothing. Do you know how desperate I was? Do you know how hard my father lived? You never considered what kind of life we wanted. Every decision you made was only for your own selfish desires!

Isn’t the truly selfish person actually you? Don’t you have any awareness of the things you’ve done?

Stop imagining that others will forgive you because what you’ve done, no one can forgive you in their lifetime. You’ll live in your own pain, stay in your world, never to come forth, because you’ve closed off any path back. You can only suffer from your pain, enduring it again and again. In the end, you’re only reaping what you’ve sown!”

If there hadn’t been each other’s completion, would they still be spiraling in the same place today?𝔣𝖗ⅇℯ