My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2084: Chapter 1917: Bonds

This life’s entanglements have stirred my heartstrings; I wonder if we will meet again in the next.

”You still haven’t answered me. Was there never a moment when you felt something for me? Did you never think that perhaps one day we might really be together? Did you never have any of these thoughts from the beginning until now?”

”Chen Gang, I must say, these thoughts did cross my mind before. I once hoped that one day I could be with you. But as soon as that thought arose, I extinguished it, because I clearly knew that a woman as unworthy as I could never possess the best love. But then I never expected to meet him, or that after being apart for so long, we would reunite. All those years, he had always been looking for me. The moment he found me, I knew my springtime of love was about to arrive, and it had nothing to do with you. I don’t want to destroy my lifelong happiness because of you.

Stop struggling pointlessly. Let go. Give me a chance to have my own happy life. I know the outcome I am about to face will be difficult, but I have no regrets!”

”Are you saying that spending this night with me, you have no regrets? Doesn’t that prove that there’s still something for me in your heart, you just don’t know how to express it? And you’re just too proud to act on it, right?”

”You’re too foolish and naive. Do you really think my heart loves you? Do you really think we are suitable for each other? You have never considered what I truly want. You’re so selfish, even if I were with you, I wouldn’t be happy. Better to take a chance on my own life than to be unhappy with you!

Spending this day with you was my biggest mistake. I shouldn’t have believed your lies and drank with you, and I shouldn’t have come out to meet you against advice. If only I had a little more self-control, none of this would have happened, and I wouldn’t be worrying so much about the future. From now on, don’t come looking for me. Let’s completely sever all ties; it’s the best outcome for both of us. Don’t make things harder for us both...”

”Zhihan, don’t you understand my feelings after everything I’ve said? I love you so deeply, yet you treat me like this? Can’t you give me one chance? You’ve been divorced for years and still refuse to give me another chance. Do you really despise me so much? I want the same thing as you. You want just an ordinary life; I want nothing more than to be with you. Is that so wrong? If it is, then I’m willing to accept heaven’s punishment. I can live without a son; I can go my whole life unmarried. But I can’t lose you!

Please promise me, okay? Whenever I have time, will you come to meet me? If you don’t agree, I won’t bother you for the rest of my life. Just agree to this small condition, and whatever outcome you want, I’ll accept!”

Ran Zhihan looked at Chen Gang with such pity. He was so foolish and naive. She thought for a moment and eventually refused. But she never imagined that this blunder would become the biggest mistake of her life. If she had agreed to Chen Gang, things would have spiraled even more out of control.

”I think there’s really no need for us to meet again in the future. It’s not good for you, and it will only make my marriage worse. I don’t know what your intentions are, but I want you to understand that since I decided to marry my husband, I won’t do anything to hurt him anymore. Let’s pretend we never had this conversation. When I go back, I don’t know how to face him or explain my absence for a night. Maybe he already knows all my movements, but I must conceal things from him. Do you know? Every time I lie to the one who shares my bed, I feel so uneasy. I’m afraid I’ll accidentally speak the truth in my sleep. I fear he will easily abandon me, doubt me, and not trust me. What I want is his complete trust and to live with him wholeheartedly. Maybe your appearance will drastically change the peaceful outcome that was set to unfold. But I don’t blame you; your presence has nothing to do with me. Don’t say you love me anymore or look for me again. Otherwise, we won’t ever meet again in this lifetime!”

Ran Zhihan, not waiting for Chen Gang to speak, was about to turn and leave when Chen Gang suddenly hugged her from behind, murmuring nonstop.

”Zhihan, don’t go, don’t just leave me here alone. I really just want to hold you, to have you lie in my arms every night. Is that truly so impossible?”

Ran Zhihan turned around and slapped Chen Gang. She never imagined this man before her would make such a weak request. But she’s a married woman! How can she indulge such an unreasonable demand? Does he see her as impure in his eyes?

”This is the end. I hope you won’t speak words that make us both look bad. If this continues, I can’t guarantee I won’t develop a murderous intent!

One’s patience has limits, and mine is not to let you cross my bottom line time and time again. I merely want to return and face my husband, give him a reasonable explanation. If he can forgive me, then I will devote myself to living with him. If you dare involve yourself in my affairs again, don’t blame me for wiping you off the face of the earth!

Whether you love me or not, whatever your intentions are, we’re truly not suitable. Stop struggling pointlessly; give me a way to live. I beg you, don’t let my hard-earned marriage end in ruin, okay?”

Ran Zhihan realized no matter what she did, it was a mistake. All she desired was a stable life. Why is it so difficult? Why won’t anyone grant her what she wants without all this hardship?

The thoughts of you linger in my brow, and my feelings for you will never change!