My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2064: Chapter 1897: Serious

Some things are simply not always in your own control!

Old Master Zhang really never expected that his own biological son would actually come to him again today over this matter to ask for help. All these years, he had never stooped this low to beg him like this. This was the first time, and this time it was actually still for that so‑called wife of his. That woman had clearly already dumped him, so why did he still have to use that woman over and over to hurt him? In his own biological son’s eyes, was his own father really that unworthy of a second glance? He had already given so much for him, yet in the end he didn’t even get a single word of thanks back, only hurt again and again. What sin had he committed in his past life to end up with a son like this in this life, ”repaying” him by tormenting him like this.

”Do you have any idea how much it hurts me inside to hear you say these things to me today? She’s already treated you like that, and you still treat her like this. I treat you so well, why don’t you know how to properly repay your own biological father? Don’t you know that every decision you make plunges the hearts of those who care about you and love you into agony? She clearly no longer has any feelings for you, yet you’re still so deeply obsessed. Just what else are you going to do for her?”

Zhang Zhentian knew his dad would absolutely not agree to help him so easily, so he had already made full preparations before coming. He was determined to make his father willingly help him, and do it without asking anything in return. But doing this only made him feel even more guilty toward his father.

”Dad, deep down you also know very well that feelings can’t be forced. Just like back then you could give up so many things just to be with my mom, and now I can give up everything for the one I love. He once did so, so much for me, how can I just throw her away because of this? I admit that at the time I abandoned her because of a lie she told, I was indeed confused in what I did. I never thought that doing that would eventually bring about such consequences. I never thought that after so many years she would still be unwilling to forgive me.”

”Since the other person is unwilling to forgive you, why must you keep begging, shamelessly clinging on? Don’t you know that only makes others feel you have no bottom line at all? When you decided on that matter back then, then don’t think about regretting it later. If you were going to regret it in the future, then you shouldn’t have done it in the first place. Every time you do something, you’re so willful and reckless, but after you’re done, you want to regret it again. Do you really think there are that many ’regret pills’ for you to take in this world? Do you really think there are so many people who can let you hurt them again and again, yet still forgive you and let you keep hurting them over and over? Other people aren’t Saints, all they ever wanted was just that you treat them well, consistently. Even if your love for them isn’t the truest, at the very least you should put in the effort on the surface. But you? You can’t even be bothered to do that. Do you think behaving like this is worthy of the people who love you?”

”I know that by making this decision today I’ve made those people very sad, but I really have no choice. Who hasn’t been selfish for the sake of their love? I just hope to be able to have the one I love. Back then I cruelly abandoned her, and only after abandoning her did I realize that I actually couldn’t live without her. But because of my pride I didn’t dare ask for her back. Yet as time passed day by day, I slowly figured it out: I really cannot give her up. But she turned out to be in that much pain. Why should I, over some trivial matter of mine, give up the love of my life?”

Old Master Zhang was truly speechless toward his own son. The one who had stubbornly insisted on breaking up back then was him; the one who now wanted this person to come back to him was still him. Just what did he expect his father to do? There were many things he really shouldn’t do, but for his sake he still rushed in without hesitation. Yet the result was always like this. As for this time now, should they help him again or not? Would it only bring another round of hurt in return?

”I honestly don’t know how I’m supposed to help you with this, because I have no way of being sure that you won’t be just like before again—after I help you, you’ll go and do something outrageous to betray the trust we all have in you. Every mistake you made in the past, everyone else might be able to pretend they don’t care, but I can’t. Because I’m the one who personally brought you up to become the way you are today. I’m the one who let you make so many mistakes, one after another, and in the end you still haven’t learned your lesson. You coming to beg me now only proves that you can’t let her go in your heart, it doesn’t mean you truly know you were wrong. Do you understand? Every time you come pleading with your father again and again for a woman, do you know how much pain your father feels inside? Do you? You’ve never once thought of me. Why do you treat me, your father, so selfishly?”

”Dad, I’m sorry, but there’s nothing else I can do about this. I just hope I can go on living with her. Maybe when I made this decision, you all found it unexpected, but asking me to give her up is impossible. If I had to give her up, then I would have no desire to go on living this life. Without her, what meaning is there in me being alive? Without her I might as well not live—then at least neither of us would have to suffer inside, right? I’ve thought of so many ways. I just want to be with her, but then I realized being with her is not an easy thing at all, we had to overcome all kinds of difficulties. And in the end we beat all those difficulties and finally got together. But in the end, because of one tiny lie, I tried to abandon her—how much must her heart have hurt at that time?”

”And did you ever think, every time you do these things, how much I, as your father, suffer inside? You’re always only thinking of her feelings. Then what am I, your father, in your heart? I only hope that you can think from my standpoint for once, that you can take my feelings into account. But as for today’s matter, there is absolutely no way I’m helping you. Even if you kneel on the ground and beg me today, I still won’t help you with this. The mistakes you make yourself, you have to learn to bear them, learn to make amends. I can’t help you for your entire life, and I don’t have that much energy to keep helping you with these things!”

Helping is a favor; not helping is my duty!