My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2060: Chapter 1893: The Most Beautiful

Some things, if you haven’t done or experienced them, you can’t truly comprehend them. The so-called most beautiful fireworks are fleeting. Only after you truly fall into it will you realize that all of this really is like fireworks!

”Child, do you know? The most important thing between husband and wife is loyalty. If there’s no loyalty, then the collapse of their marriage is not far off. Once, I forgot what loyalty was, didn’t know what it truly meant, and hurt the one who loved me the most. This is the biggest regret of my life. I made decisions again and again. Why did I always have to hurt those who loved me the most? Why could I never manage to keep those who love me by my side, while I kept making decisions that hurt them, pushed them away, forced them to leave me. My heart really aches, sometimes I’ve become numb. I don’t know what kind of life I want, I don’t know what kind of person I want to love. I only know that I truly, truly miss him. Even after being with your father all these years, I still miss him.

Perhaps you think that I, as a mother, am a bit fickle, disloyal to my husband, but do you know? He loved me so much, sacrificed his whole world for me, I am not hard-hearted, nor insensitive. How could I hope for things to turn out this way?

Everything in the world is fair, whatever you’ve done will have its consequences. The cycle of cause and effect is inevitable - the mistakes one made will eventually rebound upon oneself. Regardless of whether those mistakes are big or small, they all become consequences spinning upon one’s head, leaving one unable to rise again. I have no other regrets in this life, only the regret of why I made those decisions back then, hurting someone who loved me so much. I lost the world, my world had already crumbled. Even though those times with your father had some romance, it ultimately wasn’t with the one I loved the most.

Child, remember, no matter what difficulty or temptation you encounter, do not betray the one who loves you the most.

Whether in love or marriage, neither can withstand any betrayal; once betrayal appears, marriage faces extinction!

During that time, I was waiting day and night for his messages. I set all his information as the top priority. Day by day, I waited, every day and night watching my phone. I hoped he would send me a message, even if it was to berate me. But ultimately, I received nothing at all. Only then did I realize that I had truly, truly lost him, lost the whole world!

I pleaded countless times with him not to delete me, just to leave me the last bit of contact. But he cruelly abandoned everything. I felt so desperate, facing this world, I couldn’t see anything. I only knew my brain had completely lost motivation, my heart had completely been emptied out. All I saw was the darkest place, the realm of death!”

Only Zhang Yichen’s mother said such heartfelt words to him. He was even more incredulous, never suspected that his parents’ love was just a facade. His mother had long ago had a first love, and that first love gave him what she called everything. He never imagined his mother’s life was so happy, nor did he realize how her life had been lived.

Perhaps it’s really like everyone says, each person’s life can only be understood by themselves, each segment bringing different consequences. Not knowing what kind of ending one will face, only knowing that such a life may leave them unable to change anything. Each person lives so hard, so tired.

”Mom, did you once feel his footsteps were too fast for you to follow, making it impossible to keep pace, while you kept stepping alongside him, thinking as long as you matched his pace, you could be with him forever? But you didn’t realize, as you gave up all your principles, everything you cared about, lying repeatedly to your family just to be with him, yet ultimately lost him. Only after losing him did you understand that he was the most important person to you. You always wished you could be with him for life, but ultimately nobody counted on fate. You never expected destiny to bring you pain. You just wanted to accompany him peacefully, but heaven deprived you of those opportunities, leaving you without any means throughout your life!

Then, deep down you knew that even if you caught up to him back then, he might not be yours. Everything is unknown, unless you two truly get engaged and walk into the marriage hall. If not, even if your love is wonderful, eventual breakup is possible. But you didn’t realize how deeply you sank, until now you’ve committed everything inside it, just wishing to see him once more. Seeing him smile makes you happy, seeing his discomfort hurts your heart more than anyone.

Yet ultimately you lost him, losing him was but a fated outcome. But you’ll never forget him, for he is etched in your mind forever. The happiness he brought you, the love he gave, the sacrifices he made for you are all engraved in your heart. Unless you can replace your innermost heart, or wait until the day you enter the coffin, only then can you forget. But I guess you wouldn’t want to forget, right?”

”You’re right, I’ll never forget. I’ll eternally engrave the love he gave me in my heart. I won’t replace my heart, even when I’m laid to rest, I’ll still remember him in my heart. Because he’s the only person I ever loved in this life. Maybe my love was too excessive, leading to disaster. But who knows the paths walked, always etched in my memory, impossible to forget.

I walked alone, along every road we walked together, arriving at a place filled with his silhouette, there was no way to erase it. Even if every gesture came from the heart, who can understand that pain? This pain is unforgettable for a lifetime, and I’d rather live in pain than forget him!”

Some fireworks’ brilliance truly vanishes in just one instant, a few brief seconds to demonstrate its entire life.