My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1697: Chapter 1491: Never Afraid

I have never been afraid of facing an outcome I don’t want to face, but I never imagined that our ending would be like this.

Zhang Yichen had never seen his grandfather lose his composure like this before. Perhaps the grievances buried deep in his heart for so many years could finally be fully vented on this day. He could clearly remember how his grandfather often held a photo and quietly wept, how he would speak to himself while holding the photo, locking himself in an isolated world. Outside, he was always so cheerful, so lovely, never bringing his negative energy to others, only wanting others to be happy and joyful. Yet, the extent of pain his grandfather endured alone was never something he considered.

Sometimes, he wonders, if he had given his grandfather a little more care, would the outcome have been different? He had witnessed firsthand how hard his grandfather had lived these past few years, how much he had sacrificed for him time and again. But what had he given in return? He couldn’t even provide the most basic joy.

If time could be turned back, would he ponder how to give his grandfather the life he deserved, and with what attitude he should face him? Over the years, his grandfather had suffered so much pain and sadness, pouring out all his suffering without anyone knowing, while his grandfather swallowed all his tears silently. He bore so much alone, yet what was he doing?

”Dad, no matter what, I hope you won’t say even harsher words to Grandpa. He’s really getting old, and he can’t bear the pain of betrayal from family again. Could you please be a bit more considerate, even just a little filial piety, and I would be grateful. I’m indebted to you, don’t you understand? How many people have you hurt with your actions? Have you ever considered how much hatred you carry with you? You always think what you do is right, but is it really? Have you ever wronged you? From the day you were born, did Grandpa ever deprive you? Did he not give you a life of luxury and abundance? Compared to others, weren’t you the happiest, even without a mother? Didn’t you feel that Grandpa gave all his love to you?

Actually, Grandpa feels guilty towards you, which is why he poured all his love for his wife onto you. But in the end, all his hopes for you fell through. You chose to leave and wander far away, unwilling to return home and be by his side. Didn’t that hurt him deeply or make him despair?

Every action you take disregards his feelings. How could you expect him to consider things from your perspective? We all treat others as they treat us. Since you cannot regard others as family, don’t expect them to forgive your mistakes repeatedly. He doesn’t owe you anything.

If you returned home just to hurt your father, to hurt me, and everyone in this family, then congratulations, you have achieved your goal. You’ve gotten what you wanted, but I beg you to spare Grandpa. No matter how much you hurt me, I can let it go. I can pretend nothing ever happened, and take it as my own fault. But Grandpa doesn’t owe you anything.”

”Why do you still blame me for everything? Does that mean everything I did was wrong? Is what I want different from what you want? Why are you so selfish, thinking your thoughts must be right because they differ from others’?

I never intended to return home for revenge after being rejected. I genuinely wanted to come back and be by your side, but the eventual outcome caught me completely off guard. I couldn’t control the damage this ending brought me. I begged again and again to stay, but what did I get in return? I got nothing. All the pain and hurt was mine to bear.

You might think I am selfish, never considering things from your perspective. But do you understand? If I hadn’t considered things from your perspective, would I have let the shop be, would I be saying all this to you, would I have placed you deeply in my heart time and again?

You are my family, and that is an unchangeable fact in this lifetime. Everything I do is to make the family happy and joyful, hoping everyone is blessed and safe. But all my hopes turned into disappointment. Don’t you think I don’t feel despair or pain?

You think I am imposing all my pain on you, but haven’t you burdened me with yours? Over the years, haven’t I suffered enough harm and pain? Have your actions truly been free of any selfishness? Don’t judge others by your thoughts, as what you do might not be correct. Acting like this only wrongs others and drives away those who love you most.

You didn’t want me to leave, right? Then why treat me like this? Time and again, what has it profited you, this cycle of pain and hurt? You achieved nothing. You put all the blame on yourself. You think you are right, but eventually, you’ll realize every action was wrong because you hurt every family member around you.

Regardless, today I want to clarify things with you. I never intend to hurt you. Only through repeated attempts, unknowingly, did mistakes cause such outcomes. How could I not feel regret in the depths of my heart?”

If my parents never returned, would you have stayed with me? If everything remained as before, how nice it would be, but there’s no such thing as too many ”ifs”!