My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1657: Chapter 1451: Money

”I know, I know that after hearing these words from me, you will feel very angry in your heart, but I also know that some things can never be changed. No matter how wholeheartedly and sincerely you treat me in this lifetime, my heart only belongs to her. I will not change my perception of him because of anyone’s words. I truly love him, love him so much that I could even give up my life. I once thought about how much his departure would affect me, but I never imagined that his leaving would make it impossible for me to live in peace for the rest of my life. All I ever wanted was for him to stay by my side and accompany me, but in the end, everything turned to nothing. I don’t know why, nor do I understand why the heavens have been so unfair to me!”

Zhang Zhentian heard Xia Jing’s words and burst into laughter. He couldn’t understand why the woman in front of him could still complain about the injustice of the heavens, as if the heavens had been fair to him?

”I don’t understand what right you have to complain about the unfairness of the heavens towards you. Do you really think the heavens have been fair to me? The woman I painstakingly cherished and held in my heart’s most important position is always longing for another man. How can you expect me to accept that the heavens have been fair to me? I also wish the heavens could be fair to me for once, that even if you could give me a tiny bit of love, I wouldn’t be so angry. I’ve always hoped that my sincerity could soften your heart of stone, but no matter what price I paid or how much pain I endure, hoping only for your happiness, why do you refuse to give me even a glimmer of hope, extinguishing it so definitively? In your eyes, what am I? A chess piece or something to be replaced?

You now want the heavens to be a little fair to you, then may I ask you, can you be a little fair to me, can you give me a little bit of love? Why must I live in such unbearable pain? Why have you accompanied me with all the hope you gave, yet never gave me a place in your heart, what do you take me for? What position am I in your heart? In your eyes, what am I to you? Am I merely a backup option?

Xia Jing, oh Xia Jing, I love you with unwavering loyalty, willing to pay any price for you, willing to endure all the pain, willing to be criticized and scolded by others as a man who abandoned his own son, his own father, the hundred-year legacy of his entire family, just to be with you and see you smile. Because just seeing you happy, I feel that all my sacrifices, all my abandonments, are worthwhile. But why are you now revealing such a huge secret to me? Do you know? If you had stopped loving me earlier, you could have frankly told me everything, why wait so many years to tell me this, it truly embarrasses and shames me!

The woman whom I cherished for most of my life has never loved me, all her obedience and concern for me are just a facade. I am truly a failure, as a man, I am a complete failure. I have never received my woman’s genuine heart, my woman has always been deceiving me, treating me as a spare tire. For any man, this may be an undeniable fact he cannot accept. I truly do not understand what sin I committed in my past life to meet you. Sometimes I am genuinely grateful that in a past life I must have saved the galaxy to meet you, but I never thought you would ultimately choose to hurt me this way, your harm makes me live in unbearable pain, I will never forget this my whole life, rest assured, I will not let you see the end of your marriage because I want to keep you by my side so that for the rest of your life, because of your actions, you will live in unbearable pain, I will let you know that every action must bear its equivalent price!”

”Actually, it’s okay even if you make me live in unbearable pain, I don’t care anymore. For me, the luckiest thing in my life was meeting him. Because in a previous life, I must have saved the galaxy to make him love me unconditionally, and I would even give up my life for him. Although you are very good to me, although you would give up everything for me, I don’t feel that way about you, I don’t have those kind of feelings for you, there was never a moment that made my heart race, so how could I genuinely love you? Everything I’ve done is just a transference of affection, deep down, I’ve always loved her. For her, I could give up everything, I can give up my dignity, my pride, everything I care about, just in exchange for a smile from him. You cannot understand what that feeling is like, but I can’t describe it to you either. Maybe one day when you truly understand, you will know what kind of feelings I had at that time!”

”Don’t say anymore, do you think it means anything to keep telling me these things over and over again? To keep using these words to strike me down, do you really find joy in verbally attacking me? I don’t want to say anything now, I don’t want this family shame to be spread. My father is a man who cares about his face, and in this lifetime, he has already lost all his face because of my actions. I cannot let him, at such an advanced age, still be ridiculed by others. I only want my father to have a peaceful year, just to let him live out his years in peace, without being struck by anyone’s affairs, I only ask for this. Rest assured, in this lifetime, we will never have the chance to recover the happy times of before, because you don’t deserve it, you don’t deserve my love!

Perhaps I am indeed far inferior to your ex-boyfriend. I have no way to compare with her, but I can tell you to never blame the heavens for being unfair, because to everyone, they truly aren’t fair. They let you lose your most beloved, yet made me treasure my most beloved at my heart’s core all these years, giving up everything of mine, only to discover that the woman I most loved doesn’t love me...”

Money isn’t everything, but it’s also indispensable!