My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1681: Chapter 1475: Who Matters

No one targets another person for no reason; only when someone does something wrong will they make others unhappy.

Xia Jing saw her son and grandson attacking her husband together, and deep down, she didn’t feel good about it.

”How can you do this? No matter what, she is your elder. Is it appropriate for you father and son to speak this way to your elder? I don’t care what your purpose is or what your reasons are, but you cannot say such cruel and heartless things to my husband. When I see my husband like this, deep down, it really doesn’t feel good. No matter what, she has been with me for so many years, so what do all your actions count as?”

Actually, I know all you are doing is for our own good, but every time you choose to handle us in this way, my heart is already despairing. I have no way to accept such a life, I have no way to accept my family, doubting me time and time again.

You should admit your mistakes; everyone understands that facing suspicion from your family is just a deep sense of helplessness. No matter what you do, your family will never believe it, because in their eyes, all they see is your deception. You know what? But time and again, watching you say those things and do those things to me, deep down I feel so cold, yet I choose to say nothing. I cannot let anything impact my thoughts, interrupt my train of thought, interrupt my journey. I must rely on my efforts to walk to the end step by step. I want everyone to know that I am not just a woman who only cries in someone else’s arms. I can also, through my efforts, bring my life to its peak. Even if his career comes late, even if success comes very late, I am still very happy and joyful, because after all, that is the outcome I reached with my own hands. I don’t want to rely on anybody; that is true success!

I don’t understand what you all are confused about these days. I can’t figure out what you’ve discussed, what kind of agreement you’ve reached, you agreed to let me stay in this home. Honestly, deep down I only feel uneasy. I don’t understand what kind of reason you could have to make such concessions to me. Walking to today, it really hasn’t been easy for me, but I have never given up. I know that all the efforts I make, I must bear on my own. Others won’t take my efforts as their motivation. All I can do is watch others succeed more than me, be happier than me. Deep down, I am more anxious than anyone, more collapsed than anyone. Why can others reach the peaks of their lives, but I cannot? Why can others stand happily on their careers, smiling happily and joyfully, while I can only hide alone and cry silently? What right do I have?

When I see so many women, who only cry in their husband’s arms and don’t want to pull themselves together, to look forward, to work hard to make tomorrow a better place, I am actually very afraid of that kind of life. I don’t want to become someone like that.

If one day I became that kind of person, I would be ashamed of myself, and you would despise me too, right? No one in this family looks up to that kind of life or that kind of woman. Everyone in this family looks up to those who work hard to achieve their goals, not someone who hides behind others, only to cry and act coquettishly, letting others shield them as if they were a barrier. You all understand better than anyone that’s not the life I want. The more prideful I live my life, the more arrogant I am. I would never allow such things to happen to me. If one day such things were to happen to me, I would also prevent it. If it were truly unavoidable, I would choose to face it calmly. But if such a day really comes, maybe I would really be defeated by this, I would become a broken person.”

Zhang Zhentian suddenly realized that his wife’s emotions were a bit off; how could she suddenly know so many things? Did she know all these things, or did she have spies placed around him, or were these things told to her by their son or grandson?

”Don’t look at me, I didn’t tell my mother, dad. You know I’ve been here with my wife these days, and we’ve been discussing things, and you were here too. You didn’t see me leave, so don’t blame me for this matter. Maybe it’s that my mother was by your side at some point, and heard everything we said?”

”Zhang Zhentian, do you know the happiest thing in my life was meeting someone like you who loved me sincerely for so long? You’ve never despised my background, always protecting me from the front. Do you know how grateful I am to you? But that is gratitude, not love. No matter to what extent you go for me, I cannot let go of my previous biases against you. I keep telling myself, as long as I’m happy, as long as you can be happy, I can let myself be wronged, compromise to stay by your side forever, and never leave, but now I truly can’t do it. I am really about to break down, because no matter what I do, in your eyes I am nothing. I just give and give, and what’s the end of that? I am still just that silly girl who can sacrifice everything for others and only end up hurt!

Hearing the things you all say, I feel like I’m going crazy, do you understand? Time and time again, I look at things from your perspective. Why do you doubt me with such attitudes? Why talk behind my back in such ways? If you’re not satisfied, you can confront me directly. Tell me and I’ll change. But I don’t want you all talking about me behind my back; speaking ill of me from behind is the action of a small person. Didn’t you ever think, while talking behind my back, that, deep down, I might also feel pain, sorrow, and sadness? We’re all adults now; it’s time to take responsibility and pay for our actions!”

The price renders one helpless!