My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1663: Chapter 1457: Violation

”I don’t understand why you think every word you say I will believe, and I don’t understand why you’re so confident in saying these things to me.

If I were you, I’d choose to never say some things for the best outcome for both of us. Some things shouldn’t be said, yet you choose to say them to me here. Isn’t your inner heart set on embarrassing me? If you truly don’t want me to have a good time, then why come here to honestly cause trouble?”

”Chen Gang, once certain things are chosen, there’s no turning back. Since you’ve chosen this path, no one should blame anyone else. Once you’ve made a decision, you can only kneel and walk through to the end.

Sometimes, your true thoughts and reality are completely different. You know, the moment you appeared before me, I knew my heart was already occupied by you. I realized my heart could never accommodate anyone else in this life. Yet, I didn’t expect that my caring for you would ultimately result in your betrayal. I didn’t expect that despite caring so much for you, you would choose to deceive and use me, never trusting me. I always believed that as long as I wanted something, there was nothing I couldn’t get. I thought you would silently support me by my side, but later realized it was all just my fantasy!

If you truly feel you have a place for me in your heart, then please make the politically correct decision. Some things are left unsaid to save face for both parties. Once said, it only leads to passivity and embarrassment for both. Many things have alternative routes, but due to a road with no return, the relationship between us crumbled into dust.”

Just moments ago, he truly didn’t expect that the woman he loved would say these words to him. At this moment, he realized that no matter how rich or accomplished he was, in the eyes of his beloved, he was nothing more than a worthless clown. She thought that as long as she made everything great, she would win him over.

But later, she realized that no matter how well she did, no matter to what extent she went, in his beloved’s eyes, it wasn’t what he wanted. It wasn’t much, just to peacefully obtain what she desired, but why did it eventually become so difficult? In his eyes, no matter what he did, was he just a clown?

”Zihan, no matter what you’re thinking, I hope you understand, some things happened and there’s no changing them. No matter how you view me, you may think I’m a clown, willing to use any means to achieve my goals, but I did it all for you. I’ve said so many wrong things just to make your husband give you two distractions, because only then would I have the chance to win you back, to keep you by my side forever, never leaving me.

I thought that as long as I worked hard enough, as long as I selflessly gave for you, eventually, you would understand. But in the end, I realized you never thought of me like that. I don’t understand how you truly view me, maybe you’ve always seen me as a stranger. Are all your words to me lies? Do you genuinely regard me as part of your family?”

”From beginning to end, I’ve never regarded you as part of my family. Friends are just friends and cannot be transformed into something else.

No matter your motives for saying what you just said, I still have to tell you the cruel reality upfront. From the start, in my heart, you’ve only been my classmate, just a good friend. I’ve never seen you as family because you don’t belong in my family category.

Although I know my words may seem hurtful, and may force some people to bow their heads, I have no other choice. To avoid further misunderstanding, I had to be outspoken. I can’t give you 100% trust like before, since your trust is built on using me. How could I sincerely open my inner world to you, only for you to use me repeatedly, against the person I love the most?”

At this moment, Chen Gang was both crying and laughing, never expecting that the woman whom he wholeheartedly longed for had never considered him as her family, had never included him in her thoughts. All he wanted was to be with the woman he loved, but why did it end up like this? Everything exceeded his expectations and imagination.

”Do you feel no guilt for expressing such thoughts that hurt me? I’ve loved you diligently for so many years, devoted so much to you, yet you still wound my sincere heart this way. Is my sincerity so trivial in your eyes that it doesn’t even matter? All I wanted was your smile, but you always saw me as using you. You’ll never understand the pain of loving someone, this agony can’t be explained in a few words. The pain I’ve endured you’ll never experience because you simply don’t have a place for me in your heart!”

”Chen Gang, I’m sorry. I know this reality is hard on you and makes you think I don’t love you. But you know what? If I pretended to love you and played along with you, in the end, the truth would hurt you more than me. I can’t be so heartless, I can’t pretend to say I love you just to achieve my goals, I’m not that kind of soulless person!

But I also won’t be like others who can’t find ways to reject you, causing your heart to be hard to accept. The way I’m telling you today is merely to let you understand we’re truly unsuitable, to stop harboring those unrealistic thoughts, and to dispel those non-existent notions. Let this be my mistake in speaking, and I’ll no longer trust you. From now on, we will have nothing to do with each other. You can safely spread your wings and fly far, why cling to me alone?”