My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2050: Chapter 1843: Cold Wind

The happiness of a lifetime is tightly held in your own hands!

Zhang Zhentian understood deeply that the pain he may have caused his son could never be erased in this lifetime.

As a parent, who doesn’t understand deep inside that their choices may bring great pain to their child, even if the child doesn’t realize it? But in the end, one can only pretend it never happened, choose to forget. Only then might others see it all as just a dream.

Why does he always bring pain to his child in his lifetime? Is it truly so difficult to let him live happily under his wings? That’s not what he wants. He simply wishes for his family and loved ones to be happy. But why do every decision, occurrence, and action he makes end up contrary to what he imagined? Why can he never bring happiness to his family?

Is everything he does always wrong? Why can’t he ever bring happiness to his loved ones? Is it because he never does anything good in life? He doesn’t ask for much, just for his family to be joyful and happy. Why do his actions always turn it all into illusions?

Why do the people he loves leave him one by one? Is it because he did something wrong? Does one mistake lead to a lifetime of hatred? Why can’t they forgive him just once? Maybe it’s because repeated hurt made everything complex, driving everyone away from him. Perhaps it’s his actions that filled their hearts with pain and distress, making them all not want to stay by his side.

If Heaven could truly give him another chance, he swears he would never do anything to make his family sad again. What he did changed everyone, yet he never faces the consequences. If Heaven could forgive him, he wishes for a bolt of lightning to strike him, leaving him to depart from this world forever, without having to open his eyes again to see only pain instead of joy. The pain has blinded his sight and consumed his heart.

When the pain in his heart spreads through his entire body, only then does he truly understand what he wants, yet it’s too late. He has already lost the person who loves him most and his entire world, and can only shed tears silently without any way to return to the beginning, as all outcomes were caused by his own actions. No one is to blame, perhaps Heaven is fair after all; his actions caused hurt, so he truly left, never to return.

”You may never understand a pain, my child, and that is leaving the person you love most, and when that person gives up on you forever because of your own mistake. You never experienced that pain. Before I met your father, you know? I had a very, very good boyfriend.

The time spent with him was the happiest and most joyful of my life. He gave me the happiness that no one else could. He gave me all his love, layer after layer, like peeling an onion. Do you know how hurt he was inside?

I don’t know how to truly feel his pain; I just know he was utterly desperate, deleting all my contact information. Have you ever wondered how I endured those years? Every day was an eternity. Every moment was spent missing him, wanting him back in my life, but ultimately there was nothing I could do.

He left, and that was it, never to return to me. I knew then that I had completely lost him because my actions hurt him. I tried to contact him again and again, but he ignored me each time, ultimately changing all his contact information. At that moment, my desperation matched his, and I finally understood the depth of his despair, and recognized the enormous hurt I brought him. I regret every action I took. If it wasn’t for my stubbornness, my rash decisions, how else would I commit those terrible acts against him? He loved me so much, willing to give me the world, until he told me all his plans included me, but ultimately what happened? Do you know what kind of pain that is? It’s a lifelong pain, unforgettable, engraved in my bones. You may feel that the hurts we parents bring to you are deep, like marks etched into bones. But did you know? The pain I caused him resides in his heart. When I found out all his contacts were changed, all traces of us together erased, I realized he was truly desperate, and knew I would never have a chance to see him again. In such a vast world, where do I search for him? Not knowing his specific address, living blindly day by day...”

Listening to his mother’s words, Zhang Yichen was stunned. He never imagined his mother had such a deeply moving love story. It turns out, she wasn’t cold or emotionless, but knew her actions had hurt someone. She only recognized that she could never return to how things were, yet kept making decisions that hurt those she loved. Inside, she wasn’t bad, just forgot how to respect others, to love others. All she knew was to live selfishly, perhaps thinking this way wouldn’t allow the old pain to surface for anyone. But she forgot, the greatest bond is respect, trust, loyalty between people...

Loyalty to you is my promise to myself!