My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2023: Chapter 1816: Fragrance

Sometimes I don’t even understand what fragrance is, but later I realized that fragrance can be either so easy or so difficult!

Xia Jing would never believe that marrying her husband was a stroke of luck. Perhaps he’s just saying these words now, only to realize later that they are nothing but lies to deceive him.

For Zhang Zhentian, the whole world has already collapsed. All she wants is to return to her father’s side, but she has destroyed everything with her own hands. What right does she have to say such words now? My family has become so broken because of me. Sometimes he regrets why he put in so much effort only to end up with such results. He doesn’t want much, but it seems like what he wishes for always evades him. Maybe what he longs for the most can never be his.

”I hope you won’t say such insincere lies in the future. You know? I don’t believe a single word you’ve said today, because I feel you’re only saying these words to deceive me. You’ve told too many lies in the past, causing me to lose faith in you. Since there’s no trust between us anymore, do you think it makes any sense for us to stay together, only to hurt each other more?”

”In the past, I could abandon everything for you without a second thought, but I can’t do it now. Because the day you abandoned me proved that I need to change myself. I can no longer foolishly give everything for you as before because, in your eyes, I’ll never get rewarded. What you want is only the happiness you envision, but you don’t understand what kind of happiness I truly desire. Maybe that kind of happiness isn’t considered happiness to you at all?”

Many times, if you think about it, our values are too different. The things I love, you don’t. The things I want to protect, you don’t care about. What I regard highly, you always look down upon. Due to these differences in values, how do you expect people with different views to live together harmoniously? Letting go is the best outcome for both of us. As long as we both let go, our happy lives still have a chance. If we cling to these things forever, our happy lives will only be destroyed by each other...”

”Everything I’ve said to you today is true. I only wish to genuinely be with you. Being with you is the greatest fortune of my life, and this is the heartfelt truth I am expressing to you. Yet you choose to doubt me. You don’t trust me because you think everything I say is a lie. Did you never think of believing in me at some point? Do you know how much it hurts me? I don’t want much; all I want is to be able to stay by your side!”

You always think every word I say is meant to deceive you back to me through insincere lies. Is that how you really see me? Am I truly such a despicable person in your eyes, who would lie unscrupulously to achieve my goals? Ask yourself, during all these years together, have I ever done anything to wrong you? No matter how you act, I have always treated you as my most beloved, but you? Have you ever sincerely treated me? Have you truly wanted to be with me for a lifetime?”

I don’t understand why you keep telling these lies, deceiving me again and again. Is our relationship not even worth these lies? If you truly believed in me, you wouldn’t fabricate one lie after another to deceive me. The lies you create prove that in your heart you’ve chosen not to trust me. There is no trust in your heart for me, and without a trusting marriage, I’m not interested. Gradually, I’ve realized that no matter what, I wish you could stay by my side. All I want is for you to accompany me, never leaving, in life and beyond!”

Xia Jing sighed, not knowing how to respond. She knew everything she had done was hard for anyone to accept, but the man in front of her had sacrificed so much for her. What right does she have to demand even more from him? Yet she remains so greedy, continually seeking from the one she loves, relying on his affection for her, committing unforgivable mistakes again and again. But in the end, can he really love her unconditionally forever and make sacrifices for her?

In fact, she knows in her heart that her husband loves her very much, even more than he loves himself. But she cannot turn back because once she has set on this path, turning back would mean failure. She does not want to be mocked, does not want others to say she is a woman who cannot make it. She wants everyone to see clearly that she can live without her husband. She wants the world to know she is the strongest woman, and she wants all women to understand that a woman does not have to live with her husband. As long as she is capable, there will always be a place for her under the sky wherever she goes.

”Please stop saying these insincere lies to deceive me. From today on, we will completely cut off contact. I will no longer stay in touch with you because continuing to contact you would only remind me of my inner pain time and time again. That kind of pain cannot be forgotten with just a few words. The hurt you caused me cannot be so easily forgotten, nor can a few warm words from you completely erase the damage of what you’ve said in the past. You should first consider the consequences of your actions. In your heart, you know perfectly well that things done cannot be erased by just forgetting, and not anything can be casually wiped away!”

”I’ve made myself so clear today, and you still choose to sever all relations with me? Do you really not want to live with me so badly? Staying with me, is it truly more unbearable for you than dying?”

Can you put away your pride just once, let go of your so-called dignity, and live with me properly, giving us both another chance? Wouldn’t that be better? Why force each other onto an irreversible path?”

The past hurts, how can one just forget? The past pain, how can one simply let it go?

”Grandpa, I still can’t manage to do nothing about mundane affairs, perhaps I still hold hope for her, or maybe it’s just a delusion!”