My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2016: Chapter 1809: A Happy Life (2)

I’ve lived through these years, each step I took was so difficult, and every day I rely on my own efforts to get to where I am now. No matter what I’ve been through, I’ve never shed a single tear of pain because I know crying is not something I should do. Crying can’t bring me any results!

If I faced difficulties or pre-marital issues and chose not to confront them, but only silently cried, would these dangers really stay away from me? Would I no longer experience these hardships? Not at all, the results I obtain always come with such difficulty each time. No one knows how painful my heart is, and I always present myself as strong in front of others.

Because I don’t want anyone to see the truth deep inside my heart, I don’t want others to know what kind of person I am. I want to hide what kind of person I truly am with my pretense, and living under a fake mask might bring me a different life.”

”Mom, actually, there’s nothing wrong with what you did. How could we not know about what you’ve been through all these years? You’re not heartless; actually, I’m the heartless one. When you finally wanted to come back home to stay with us, I cruelly instigated Grandpa to keep you out. My hatred blinded me, and in the end, it led me to lose the chance to be together with you, over and over again, until I forgot what I lost my most beloved thing over!

Mom, now as long as you can come back to my side, nothing else matters to me!

When Dad wakes up, I’ll bring both of you home, and I won’t let you leave us again for a lifetime. I’ll be filial to you, and I believe with my own abilities, I can take care of you. I’m not the kind of person who’s weak and incapable.”

Xia Jing knows her son isn’t weak or incapable at all. On the contrary, she knows her son is very capable, more so than many people. She also believes that her son standing at the pinnacle of the world today proves his abilities. He got to where he is step by step, and as a mother, she has never fulfilled even a tiny bit of her responsibility. She feels utterly ashamed thinking about it.

”Yichen, it’s Mom who let you down. You’ve worked so hard by yourself all these years, and I’ve never been there to give you any help or encouragement. Mom truly doesn’t know how to make up for the guilt I feel deep inside my heart towards you.

Originally, you chose to hate Mom, and that might have made you feel a bit more balanced. But now, you don’t even choose to hate me anymore, and it makes me feel worse and worse inside. I’m truly ashamed. Other mothers would never leave their children, not even under threat, but I abandoned you just a month after you were born. How could there be a mother like me in this world? You must have really hated me back then, right?

You fought so desperately to climb up, risking everything. Wasn’t it just to prove to your parents how big a mistake it was to abandon you?

The facts prove you’ve made it now. We all feel guilty and sad for abandoning our daughter back then because we really shouldn’t have abandoned you. After abandoning you, we realized how important this familial bond truly is. If I’d always stayed by your side, we wouldn’t have ended up like this.

Perhaps your father wouldn’t be lying here now, and I wouldn’t have endlessly argued with your father so intensely!

In my heart of hearts, you truly are my good son. Everything you’ve done has opened my eyes. It’s you, with your actions, who proved that as long as you put in the effort, there’s no fear of not being rewarded. The heavens are always fair—how much effort you put in, they will return to you. If you’re always stingy with effort, how can you expect the heavens to give you the perfect reward in the end?”

”Mom, let’s not talk about these things between us anymore. Let’s believe our family can return to the happiest times. I haven’t enjoyed a moment of having my parents around all these years, so please let me enjoy it just once more. I’m really looking forward to what that life is like. When I was young, seeing other kids holding hands with their parents strolling down the street, I was so envious. I never thought when my parents could hold my hand because I knew it was impossible. Even if my parents eventually came home and held my hand, I would have already been standing at the pinnacle of the world.

I always chose to force myself into training repeatedly because I couldn’t let anyone look down on me. If they did, it would disappoint Grandpa. Grandpa is someone who values face, and his dignity is more important than mine. I can’t let my incompetence cause others to criticize Grandpa, nor can I let a slight touch damage Grandpa’s dignity.

No one else understands this feeling, but I believe my father can. I believe he is the same kind of person as me. If he knew, he definitely wouldn’t let Grandpa’s dignity be damaged. He would rather his own dignity be completely harmed than let those he cares about be unhappy because of himself.”

Happy days pass in the blink of an eye; life is often that difficult, and nothing comes easily.