My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2013: Chapter 1807: Fleeing in Disarray

Why can’t I ever forget these things that cause me so much pain? Why can’t I forget some things?

Standing outside the door and hearing these words, Xia Jing couldn’t help but be moved. As a man, to surrender even the most basic self-esteem, all for a woman who doesn’t love him.

Any woman would be touched by every word spoken by a man who truly loves her like this. Xia Ji has always been cold-hearted, completely ignoring Zhang Zhentian’s dedication to him, taking Zhentian’s love for granted.

He never considered what he would do if one day the person who always loved him suddenly stopped or the person beside him suddenly left.

People are always like this, hurting those who love them over and over again. But really, is it right to keep them bound by your side time and time again?

”Dad, you’ve sacrificed so much for my mom, all you wanted was for her to try to love you a little, but she never gave you her true heart. Do you think it’s worth it? Why are you doing this?

You gave all your genuine love to her, yet you can’t even get a little bit of love in return. Don’t you think it’s really not worth it?

I know over the years you’ve always been watching my every move because deep down, my parents care about what I do, even though you never came to help me when I was in danger. Yet, do you know why every time you tried to save me, I ended up getting hurt all the same? Because I didn’t want you to save me. I wanted you to see that I could live happily even without relying on my parents, that I could reach the pinnacle of life with my own strength!

Only when I reach the pinnacle of life on my own will I no longer feel indebted to you because only when you abandoned me did you owe me. I won’t feel grateful for you saving my life.

Perhaps what I’m saying is hard for you to accept. You are my parents, and maybe you really don’t know the pain I’ve endured these years. But do you know that each time I pushed myself to madness, every time I vowed never to bow down again, every time I faced insurmountable difficulties without anyone to help me, how much I hoped you could be by my side?

The era of longing for you is over, the moments of hope are gone. Now I only feel indifferent toward you, but it’s not love.

I haven’t had much contact with you, and children always sing ”The world only has a good mother,” but I think they are wrong. They should sing ”The world only has a good grandfather.”

Because it was my grandfather who raised me single-handedly. My mother has never been around, and I have no feelings for her. But for some reason, seeing the way you and your husband are now, I should be laughing loudly to celebrate your punishment. But when I see your pain, my heart still aches slightly. Am I really so heartless? Do I have to pretend that every grievance you’ve caused me never happened?”

”Child, I understand what you’re saying. Loving someone without expecting anything in return, I have made many sacrifices for your mother; I have walked the road to death time and time again for her.

I vividly remember that one time when she risked everything to complete a task and nearly encountered danger. She eventually came out unscathed, but I was severely injured, and for a long, long time, I didn’t contact her.

I was afraid she would see me hurt and feel guilty. So I hid in a corner to secretly heal, hoping she could be at my side, but still, I endured it to let her live happily, unbothered by anything, and guilt-free.

I love her unconditionally and give for her, not to seek any response from her. All I want is for her to sincerely try to love me once, even just a tiny bit. I always believed that over time, she would one day have a little affection for me.

But I miscalculated. I never expected that throughout these years, she’s always had thoughts of her first love. But I don’t blame her. I still love her as before because my feelings for her are as true as the earth and sky. I won’t give up on her because of any past mistakes or bad habits.

The decades of married life have rooted deeply in my heart. For her, I’ve let go of everything, and now there’s nothing left to fear. All I want is for her to stay with me in peace. Even if she wishes to leave, I’ll still let go, as long as she can be happy and joyful. I’ll secretly cry in a corner. Why not? Although I’m a man, I can’t bear it. She’s the woman I love most, my goddess, but her heart’s not with me; there’s nothing I can do!”

”You’re so stubborn there’s nothing left to say, but I hope after all you’ve done for my mother, she’ll eventually realize what’s in front of her and how deeply you love her. I hope she will change a bit for you and feel a little moved by what you’ve done for her!”

”Child, let’s keep today’s conversation to ourselves. Let her continue living freely and peacefully; why disturb her life with unpleasant things?”

”At first, I thought I was the only fool in the world, willing to give up everything for love. But I didn’t expect my own father to be even more foolish. You’re extremely foolish. At least my wife’s eyes are only on me, not on anyone else. But that’s not the case with my mother. She doesn’t have you in her heart. Years of love have gone to waste, like drawing water with a bamboo basket. Yet, you continue to foolishly sacrifice everything for her!

I truly wish the heavens could open their eyes and see why a devoted person like you can’t get the woman they love to look at them even once with fresh eyes!”

Is leaving really the best ending?