My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1597: Chapter 1391: Help

”Child, how can you be like this? Do you know that seeing you this way makes me feel scared and unfamiliar? You are my son; no matter what decisions you make or what actions you take, in my heart, this fact will never change. As long as one day you decide to come back to us, your parents, I will welcome you back without complaint, even if the depths of your heart hold only resentment for me. Can you understand? When you keep all the pain to yourself time and again, as parents, our hearts ache deeply.

We can’t bear to see our loved ones become like this. Seeing you this way makes us feel like strangers. Do you know how much I long for you to be happy? Everything you do is important to me. I want to give you everything that is best, but do you understand? There are some things we cannot provide just because we wish to. Every choice we make, in the end, only brings you harm. You know we mean no harm; we just want our child to live easily.

As long as our child can be happy every day, to us, that is more important than anything. These past few years, I haven’t given you much, on the contrary, we’ve given you a lot of pressure. All the pressure we’ve brought you, yet you never held any grudge against us.

No matter when or where, I hope you clearly remember, you will always be my son. No matter what, you can’t change this outcome; this outcome is destined. If you truly wish to change this outcome, then in your next life, don’t choose us as your parents. That way, you truly can live without this burden, without so much mental fatigue.

The pain we’ve caused you over the years has made you feel step by step that life is full of despair. You haven’t found happiness or joy in our presence, you only feel we’ve brought you harm.

I’m very grateful that you let us back into this home. This time, for the decision you’ve made, we will not let it be a wrong one. We will prove through our actions that this is the right choice. Because you have given me a different life, you made me realize I still have a home, a son I can rely on. I can, step by step, work my way back to my son’s side, to seek forgiveness from my family.”

”You say now that you’re grateful I allowed you back, to let you experience having a home again. Do you know how much effort it took us to get to this point, how many concessions we made? You’ve never considered what we felt deep inside, you always think everything you do is right, yet you forget what you truly desire in your heart for this lifetime.

You are my father, no matter when or where, I will always put you first. For all these years, you haven’t been there; I know how torturous it is to grow up without parents. I’m afraid, I don’t want my child to bear the same fate as I did. How much do you think your grandchildren desire your company? Whatever you do, through what means do you declare them right? You force your views on others; you think every decision you make is right, but what is the result? You hurt everyone who sincerely cares about you, those who truly wish to treat you as family.

I must admit, if you weren’t my father, if we weren’t connected by blood, do you know? I would exact all my revenge upon you. I would inflict upon you all the pain and suffering you’ve caused me, down to every last detail. But I can’t do this because we are bound by blood. If I did, it would be utterly rebellious, unfair to any of you. But is this really true? I can’t let something that has little to do with me make me bear such pain.

Sometimes, I really resent my parents. Why do you cause me such harm just because I’m your son? Do you think you can hurt me so recklessly? What do you take me for? Have you ever considered if there is pain in my heart, if the so-called love from your hands turns my pain unbearable? You never cared, but everything I do, I remember clearly what result it brought everyone. Why can’t you reflect a little? If you’d just consider others’ feelings, things wouldn’t be so embarrassing now.

I wish you’d think carefully about what your actions have actually achieved, what harm they brought to me, what pain. I truly regret, regret every single thing I did.

If you hadn’t returned, maybe everything wouldn’t be like this, all spiraled completely out of control. But did you ever stand in my shoes to think about my difficulties, how hard it is for me? Who else can understand, step by step, as I corner myself, just to live freely? Step by step, until I realized that even if I gained all the power I wanted, I lost the family warmth I longed for most. I can’t make peace within my heart. All I wanted was so simple, yet why did everything end up contrary to my wishes, leaving only the most painful memories? What wrong did I do, just because I shut you out initially? Just for that one thing, must I bear all this pain and hurt for years? Why? Is every action you took completely right, and everything we did completely wrong? No matter how we try, we can’t gain anyone’s forgiveness. We can only repeatedly stand on our own life stage, watching how others treat us, what they’ve given, and how everyone else lives happier than me.

I will let everyone here know clearly what it truly means for the fittest to survive...”