My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1557: Chapter 1351: Pain

Zhang Ni and Zhang Yichen, even if they had heard their family talk about their grandparents’ phones before, never imagined that things could be so complex. They thought their father simply made mistake after mistake, hurting others but never experiencing the pain of being hurt himself. Yet, everything their father experienced early on was inflicted by someone else—his wife. At that time, how heartbroken he must have been; she was the woman he loved the most. The person he loved gave him the greatest pain, but he could only watch without saying a word because he was afraid that once he spoke, everything would be lost.

”Grandpa, I have heard your story before, but I never thought it would be like you said. You and Grandma sacrificed so much to be together. Yet everything you gave for him was nothing but hypocrisy in his eyes. He didn’t see taking you with him as genuine. He took all you did for him for granted.

Even if you were happy together at that time, as time went by, the past youthful days are gone. Everyone has experienced things deep in their hearts and changed. He no longer wants to live with you wholeheartedly, nor does he want to stay by your side as he did before. So why should you persist so obsessively for him? Think of all that you have sacrificed. Isn’t it enough? How much more do you have to give to feel at ease?

I know this matter isn’t for me, a junior, to interfere with, but do you know how hard all this was to come by? How much we worry for you, how many are saddened by your actions?

What is destined to be will be, what is not meant to be will not happen. There are many beautiful women in the world; don’t be a fool and force your desires!

I believe you’ve heard this saying. If so, why refuse to act accordingly? Even if you forcibly keep her by your side, what kind of ending do you expect? Will she sincerely want to be with you? No, if a woman’s heart has changed, she won’t choose to be with you again, no matter what. You no longer hold a place in her heart, and no matter how much you give, in her eyes, it’s just a game. She won’t feel guilty for your actions.”

”Though you speak the truth, how could I not know? But there are things I can’t do. Until now, she is still my wife, and as long as the law recognizes that, I won’t give up on her. Besides, whether or not she loves me, loving her is enough for me. You might think I’m foolish, that my love is beyond repair, but it’s all for her. For her, I’d willingly become a demon. Am I pointed at by poets time and again? I don’t want to completely abandon her. I hope she’ll change her mind. Time and again, I’ve given her hope, only for her to return it with despair. Sometimes, even I don’t understand the meaning of my actions or what all my sacrifices are for.

I want to give up on her, but when I see her weeping in sorrow, it’s like being cut with a knife. I can’t forgive myself for the hurt I’ve caused her. I just want her to be content, but my actions can’t bring her that ending. Sometimes, I deeply regret it. I loathe my life; I don’t understand why I’ve become like this. Even for her, there should be limits!

Many think my love for her is incurable, and many believe I’ve hit rock bottom with no limits. Despite being hurt and twice repaid with heartlessness, I still gave her all my sincerity. I believe sincerity can earn her genuine affection, even if only for a moment. But in the end, I realize her sincerity is always for using me. Even if it’s using sincerity, I still see it as the sincerity she gives me. You might think I’m stupid, naive, or foolish, but one day you might be just like me.”

”You’re right, in my eyes, your love for her has become an incurable indulgence. The more you indulge her, the more excessive she becomes each time. I don’t understand what reason allows you to indulge her without limits or what all this is for, but I hope you consider the impact this has brought to your family. Even if you don’t care about getting hurt, he’s part of the family. Can everyone else be hurt by him time and again without consequence? He never repents for his mistakes. He always tries to blame others. Both of you are like this. Now, you’re willing to accept the truth. You’re willing to speak out, but he’s not necessarily the same!

Some things must be clarified sooner. If this deadlock continues, it won’t end well for anyone. It’s only dragging everyone deeper. Why tire each other out so much? All you seek is a peaceful life. But is this truly a peaceful life? Is this the life you desire? You’ve ruined everything with your own hands. What have you brought to your family?

I’m not asking you to look elsewhere, just ask you to look at your own son, your own father. Look closely at these people because of your actions and the harm they’ve suffered. They now fear you deeply. That fear comes from within their souls, a fear of being hurt and abandoned by you again. Is this fear you instilled in them? Are you still unwilling to sincerely repent, to tell the world you were wrong, to speak the truth and admit you abandoned your own family?”