My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1545: Chapter 1339: Different Paths

I regret every time I drank until I blacked out. When I drank too much, it felt as if I was flying, but I never did anything to betray my wife.

One day, I ran a long, long way with the dog, holding his paw and saying we were friends.

”You’re a child, I won’t argue with you. But don’t we need to see things clearly? You’ve never truly understood the twists and turns, so what do your words mean now? What do you take us for? Perhaps in your eyes, you’ve never seen us as family.

What am I to you then? Do you really see me as a relative? I’m your grandfather, not your prisoner. When you say these things to interrogate me today, have you considered that my heart is actually full of anguish and pain? When have you stood in my shoes and considered my feelings even a little? Every word you say might seem casual to you, but to me, it’s a dagger to my heart, stabbing me over and over again. Do you know that kind of pain?

You actually don’t know, but when you said those words today, you’ve already crossed my line. You might not feel anything in your heart, but to me, it’s the deepest pain in my soul.

This is not to scold you, my child, but when you said those words, did you really consider your family’s perspective? Your father is also here. Hearing his own son speak like that about his father, could he truly feel happy? Isn’t there even a little resentment in his heart? You are a good child, you are growing, and sometimes you need to take responsibility for the things you say and do.

I hope today you will take responsibility for every word you said and every action you took. Don’t tell me again that you don’t know how those things are. When you use these matters to contradict me, you’ve already thought about the outcome. You are a child, you can be willful, indulgent, and unreasonable, but that doesn’t mean everyone will forgive you. That’s what you taught me. What I did wrong may seem unforgivable to everyone in the family, but I’ve tried hard to stay by my family’s side. For you, this is easy because your parents never left you. But for me, it was very hard. I left my mother when I was young and made it to today because my father raised me. I am deeply grateful to my father. You might think I’m ungrateful, but I’m not. I’ve made a lot of efforts for my father and I hope to contribute to my family, to help us through tough times.

But does everyone in this family really need me? Have they really considered my feelings in everything they do? Time and again, I’ve made it to today, but who has ever considered how difficult it is for me? Never see only others as wrong without reflecting on yourself. Think about how your own path has been, and consider how others have walked theirs. Every step others take might be more difficult than yours, so why look down on others, mistrust them, and hurt them?”

”Grandpa, are you saying I’m unreasonable and deliberately making things difficult for you? Have you not thought about why I’ve said what I’ve said so early? Have you not thought about how I got to this point, time and time again? Isn’t there even a little connection to you?

I admit saying these things might upset my father and others at school, but every word I said is true.

Maybe some things look uncomfortable, unhappy, or unpleasant to you.

But some things I have to make clear today. If I don’t, there’s no way my heart can find peace or joy when I think about every decision I’ve made over the years. What do those mean to you? Have you ever truly considered anything from my perspective? You are all grown-ups, while I’m just a fool thinking that everything I do and every mistake by my family can be forgiven. What do I get in the end? Repeatedly being hurt worse and worse.”

”Maybe, in your eyes, I’m just an irredeemable villain. Every decision I make might seem wrong to you, but has anyone thought about the pain and helplessness I’ve endured?

Like you said, I wasn’t there when you needed me most. But who was by my side when I needed help the most? It was my wife who gave me warmth. Even if she was insincere, at least she stayed with me through the years. How could I be so cruel as to hurt her and abandon her? I can’t do that; my heart is flesh, too. Am I really so heartless as to watch my wife run around tirelessly for me while I remain indifferent to all her efforts?

Perhaps none of my actions are understood by you all, or gain any sincere blessings. But do you know? It was my wife who stayed with me when I was at my lowest, most painful, and helpless moments. She gave me hope, and even if she now tortures me in various ways, in my eyes, she will always be the one who stood by me through thick and thin. No matter what excessive actions she may take in the future, I won’t blame her. Even if one day she truly leaves to be with someone else, I will choose to bless her. My greatest love for her is that no matter what she does, I will stay by her side. When she needs me most, I will be there for her first and foremost. I will give her the greatest comfort and encouragement, even if I’m not the person she needs most, I’m willing to make this sacrifice for her because, in my heart, she is the only woman for me!”

During that time, I didn’t dare let go of my phone, afraid she couldn’t reach me. I was on the brink of collapse, feeling as if I had gone back to square one.