My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1505: Chapter 1299: Happiness

My heart is my own, and I am truly happy.

I can still luckily live in this world, so why should I worry needlessly?

I want to strive wholeheartedly for happiness because the world will always be fine, and existence makes all pain insignificant; no pain is insurmountable.

Zhang Yichen could fully understand his mother’s feelings at this moment. When his own wife spoke those words to him, didn’t he also treat her with ruthless indifference? At that moment, she thought he was being delusional and wanted to cut all ties with him. Who could feel the despair in his heart at that moment? He was also so afraid, afraid of losing her, but in the end, he could only stand there silently, watching her leave and her silhouette disappear into the distance. How much did he suffer in his heart at that moment?

Ran Zhihan looked at Zhang Yichen, who seemed stunned, and found it amusing that all of this was just her wishful thinking. She always thought that if she said those words, she would surely get the answer she wanted. However, in the end, she was disappointed. She didn’t know what she should do or say to find a way not to hurt each other. But this way was really hard to find. She exhausted her wits, yet she had no solution. Could it be that fate really cannot be changed? Can she only follow the steps arranged by fate and keep moving forward? No, she didn’t want this kind of life. She wanted to dictate her own life. Why should her fate be arranged by the heavens? Her path was one she had to carve out herself, not one paved by others for her to follow step by step. Such a path wouldn’t last long and would be wearying. Why not pick up her own weapons and strive hard?

”Since you can’t give me any answer to my questions, let’s not contact each other from today onwards. For me, if you can’t promise me anything, why be with me? That would bring no good results for either of us. You should go home and be good to your parents; maybe only then can you live happily and peacefully. Meanwhile, my parents won’t be hurt by our interactions anymore. No matter when, I won’t forget the harm your mother caused me. I chose to forgive because of you. I didn’t want you to be caught between me and your mother; that wasn’t my intention. But the things your mother did really make it hard for me to forgive. Repeated harm, repeated defamation—what does she take me for? I’m a person too, with a soul. Why am I repeatedly harmed just because I’m not her own daughter? Does she have no regard for my life because my parents are civilians? What do my parents count for in her eyes? What do I count for? She only sees you, her son, and knows only how to make you happy. Her sole focus is your well-being, and her purpose is to ensure that you can sail smoothly through life’s path. I, a civilian daughter, can give you nothing, can help you in no way, so in her eyes, I have no value. Anyone she sees as valueless need not exist around her; they’d only take up space and annoy her. That’s your parents. In their eyes, you are always more important than anything else. Our lives aren’t lives to them; only your life is life, and your happiness is their greatest goal...”

Zhang Yichen grabbed Ran Zhihan’s hand tightly and kept saying, ”Zhihan, it’s not how you think. Trust me, I can handle this. The whole world is mine; can’t I manage such a small matter of emotion? Can’t you trust me a bit more? You know how much I like you. Ten years, ten years of feelings can’t just be severed. If you could really leave me, why can’t you look me in the eye when you speak? Because you’re guilty, right? There’s still a place for me in your heart, isn’t there? So, why should we give up our love because of my parents?”

”Our love? You speak easily. Haven’t you known all these years what kind of person I am? From the day I found you, from the day your parents returned to the country to acknowledge you because of our relationship, how much grievance have I endured for you? Every time I’ve suffered, I couldn’t speak it out; I just kept it in my heart. I didn’t want to embarrass you, so I chose not to tell you even a fraction of my pain. But you, have you ever stopped your parents from hurting me? This time it was just a dagger; what next time? Will it be gunpowder and bombs against my parents? I can’t ensure that being with you won’t bring disaster to my parents again. Watching them suffer repeatedly because of me, I felt guilty. They almost lost their lives for me time and again, and I felt ashamed. But you’re different; maybe you think it’s all justified. Everyone has different thoughts, so there’s no need to dwell on these matters between us. As long as you feel you can be happy, that’s enough!”

”You’re wrong. I never thought it was justified. I know all this is for us. But now I truly understand. During our time together, your mom pointed a knife at my throat, forcing me to leave, but I didn’t. I chose to stay and continue my studies. Now my grades are excellent. I don’t want anything to affect my academic performance. For me, nothing is more important than that. You should go home, lest your mother finds out you’re here and comes to threaten me again, endangering my parents anew. Neither you nor I want to see that happen again!” Zhang Yichen wanted to explain, but could these issues be resolved with just a few explanations? The harm wasn’t caused in a day or two but over and over again. Xia Jing hurt Ran Zhihan; first came sadness, then disappointment, and finally despair. Once it reaches despair, is there still any feeling left? She didn’t want to hear explanations from the man before her. She thought all explanations were redundant. Could past events be covered up with pretty lies? Those harms still existed in her heart. Could they truly vanish with mere sweet words?

”There’s nothing left to say between us. I’m very tired. I want to go home and rest. Please don’t follow me, okay? Go back and think about how to spend the rest of your days with your parents. You’re truly happy together, so why let an outsider like me break your family apart? That would only deepen my sense of sin. Go back and persuade your mother not to keep chasing after me; it won’t lead to any good. I can forgive her again and again, but that doesn’t mean I can disregard her harm to me each time. I hope you understand that hearts are made of flesh; they feel pain. Her repeated harm has long left me disheartened. No matter what you say this time, I won’t turn back. Go home; let’s not have any further contact from today onwards!”

Ran Zhihan finished speaking, broke free from Zhang Yichen’s hands, and left without looking back!

”I really don’t know if being in love means you’ll surely be together. Even if you love someone, that person may not love you back. That feeling is awful because you’ve given everything for someone, only to find out in the end he was just playing along with you. He’s out partying night after night while you keep a lonely vigil at home!”

The path of a happy life is one you walk for yourself. No one stays unchanged forever, and no one can give everything for you wh