My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1529: Chapter 1323: Do You Love Me?

When you said you decided to leave and leave me alone, I cried, I was sad. When you turned away, my tears flowed like a river, my heart was really sad, but I had no way at all. I just want to ask you if you really loved me.

Perhaps for myself, the best ending is nothing more than having them stay by my side again and again, giving up their long-term ideals to pursue for my sake. Sometimes I can’t even understand why I have to live so selfishly. Living selfishly has ultimately brought me nothing but pain again and again. My family has never considered whether these things are right or wrong from my perspective.

”Grandpa, today I want to express my inner thoughts to you. No matter when or where, don’t easily trust anyone, even your own family; they might still deceive you. In his eyes, he only can deceive you, and he feels happy because that’s his ability. He can take our care as deception, again and again.

Actually, you should understand my deep inner thoughts at this moment. They are my parents, and this time they deceived me again. In their hearts, what exactly am I as their son? They can easily consider their love for me as deceit. They think deceiving me is a kind of care, but is that really what I want? Ultimately, all of that is not what I want. What I want is just to have my family stay by my side, and for my parents to always give me the most sincere care.

But look at what I have become today. I have reached this point step by step, and I have gained nothing. I almost gave up everything I could for my parents to return to this home, and still, I couldn’t gain a moment of genuine treatment from them. They only deceive me. In their hearts, maybe deceiving me has become commonplace, and they don’t care about the harm they’ve caused me. But what about me? I care because I have feelings for them. I consider all my happiness and joy as a kind of care for them. I love them because they are my parents, because their existence gave me life and today’s achievements, even if these achievements were made by myself and have nothing to do with them. They haven’t given me any help, but if it weren’t for them giving me life, how could I possibly have today’s achievements?

Some things are painful; I can only endure all the suffering, not hoping others can offer me a different path. He can’t help you, even if you regard it as more important than your life. But in his eyes, you might be nothing. Don’t easily hand over your heart to others, and don’t easily trust someone who doesn’t deserve it. He might be a con artist, with only deception in his eyes, no sincerity.”

How could Old Master Zhang not know that his grandson spoke these words for his parents to hear? He hoped so much that his parents could stay by his side. He gave everything, yet in his parents’ eyes, he was nothing. In their hearts, he didn’t exist, and all the pain and harm became the most common things. He always thought everything he did was right, but was it really right to hurt the ones closest to him, to drive himself into a corner again and again, leaving no room to retreat, forcing himself onto a dead-end, ultimately gaining nothing but leaving himself with an eternal bad name.

How could Zhang Zhentian not know what his son’s words meant? But he really had no way to abandon his wife, to leave alone; that would be a disgrace to him. What he wanted was just for his wife to live happily. Even if in this lifetime he can’t give her the most loyal care, he still wants to stay by her side, never changing his view of her, no matter where he goes, always considering her as the most important person in his life.

”I know I have wronged you, that I have failed your trust in me, but have you really thought it through? If I choose to leave my wife here, if I live alone here, let her leave alone, do you think there is any difference between me and a beast? If I can abandon my partner, what else could I not do? Many times, I wish you could sympathize with my efforts. It hasn’t been easy for me to get where I am today, through my hard work step by step. I have no regrets with what I’ve done; I haven’t wronged anyone, except you.

Maybe my thoughts are too naive, or maybe my desires for what I wanted in this life were too excessive, which has turned everything into what it is now. How difficult every step of the way has been, who has truly stood in my shoes to consider my situation? Who knows how hard it was to make it this far? You’ve always thought that what you gave me was the best, but the fact is, isn’t it just for your own selfish desires, thinking of making me stay here? Did you consider whether I wanted to stay here, whether I truly wanted to continue here?

I just want to peacefully be with my wife. Where she is, I am; in the home where she is home, I can endure all grievances and pain for her, and she can do the same, as long as she is willing. I can disregard everything, but if she wants to leave this home, there’s no reason for me to stay. I regard her as the most important woman. If she leaves, what is my reason to stay, to suffer harm again and again? No, I don’t want that. I want to follow her in life and death!”

There’s no escaping, no avoiding; the more you try to forget this baseless storm, the deeper it etches into your heart. You desperately remember knowing the night is long and dreams are fraught, but still, you cannot escape all this, the arrogant heart demon, the more reluctant you are, the more torment you will endure.