My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1496: Chapter 1290: The Person in the Song

We clearly know what we desire deep inside, but sometimes the jokes we make become a source of pain in each other’s hearts.

Indeed, what does success and fame matter if you’re not here to share a beautiful evening with me? This night feels like a play, and I’m left alone with the regrets in my heart flowing like the spring breeze.

Zhang Yichen had never seen his grandfather lose his composure like today. Perhaps the grievances hidden deep in his heart for so many years could finally be released all at once. He remembers clearly how his grandfather would often hold a photo in his hands, silently weeping. When alone, his grandfather would whisper to the photo, secluded in a private space. Outside, he always appeared so brilliant, so lovable, never burdening others with his negative energy. He only wished others could be happy, yet never considered his own suffering.

Sometimes I wonder if things would have been different had I shown my grandfather a bit of care. I’ve witnessed how tough these years have been for him, the countless sacrifices he made for me. Yet what have I given in return? Not even the simplest bit of joy.

If time could go back, would I reconsider how to provide a better life for my grandfather? With what attitude should I face him? His years have been full of pain and sadness, but no one knows he silently swallowed all his tears. What have I been doing while he bears all this alone?

”Dad, no matter what, I hope you don’t say any more heartless words to Grandpa. He is really getting older and can no longer bear the repeated betrayals from his family. Can you not try to understand him a bit, even fulfill a small measure of filial duty? I would be grateful; I’m thankful for you, don’t you know? The hurt your actions have caused so many people, have you thought about the hatred you’re fostering? Do you really think everything you do is right, is it truly correct? Since the day you were born, has Grandpa ever deprived you of anything? Has he not given you a life of luxury and comfort? Compared to others, aren’t you the happiest, even without a mother? Hasn’t Grandpa given you all his love!”

In his heart, Grandpa feels guilty towards you, which is why he poured all his love for his wife into you. But in the end, all his expectations were dashed. You chose to leave and roam far away in a foreign land rather than return home to be by his side. Doesn’t his heart feel injured and hopeless?

You never considered his feelings in your actions. How can he stand in your shoes to understand your problems? People are empathetic; if you can’t see others as family, don’t expect them to keep forgiving all your mistakes. He owes you nothing.

If your return is merely to hurt your father, me, and everyone in the home again, then congratulations, you’ve achieved your goal, but I beg you to spare Grandpa. No matter how you hurt me, I can forgive and forget, pretend it never happened, but Grandpa doesn’t owe you anything.

”Why do you still pin all the faults on me? Does that mean everything I did was wrong? Isn’t what I wanted also what you wanted? Why do you selfishly think your ideas differ from others and are always right?

I never thought coming home was to seek revenge for being shut out before. I sincerely wanted to come back and be with you, yet the final outcome is beyond my control, causing harm. Time and again, I shamelessly pleaded to stay home, but what did I get in return? Nothing. All the pain was given to myself.

You might think I’m selfish, never considering things from your perspective. But do you understand? How could I not have considered your viewpoint and rent if entrusting this store? How else would I say these words? How could I place you repeatedly at the core of my heart?

You are family, an unchangeable reality of this life; every action I’ve taken aimed for your happiness and peace. My hopes were entirely for naught; doesn’t my heart feel disappointment, pain, or despair?

You think I’ve projected my pain onto you, but haven’t you done the same to me? Haven’t my suffering and pain this time been enough? Aren’t there any selfish acts among all you’ve done? Don’t use your thought process to define others; what you do may not be right. Your actions irrationally wrong others and push away those who love you most.

Deep down, you don’t want to push me away, right? Then why act this way towards me? What did you gain from it? Nothing but harm and pain, burdening everything on yourself. You believe you’re right, but you’ll find every action is wrong because you’ve hurt every loved one around you.

No matter what, today I want to clarify; I truly never intended to hurt you. It’s in the manner of my actions, not knowing how it would hurt. I was not malicious nor intentional. Blunders kept happening inexplicably leading to these outcomes and consequences. Don’t you think there’s regret deep in my heart?”

In the drifting wind are merely sky-filled fireworks, even the leaves know not where to go, let alone me, a person without a home.