My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1491: Chapter 1285: Love or Not?

Perhaps when love turns into a habit, we will no longer interfere with each other, and maybe all the promises and vows between us have become unworthy. It’s just a momentary thing, no one cares that much, and even less does anyone know what kind of answer they ultimately want.

Throughout the year, Zhang Yichen has watched his family live each day like that. He feels his father suffers daily from the torment of his wife, once again, day after day. This torment he can only endure silently, unable to speak of it, nor express his pain to anyone.

Actually, even if no one else noticed, Old Master Zhang’s inner feelings were quite significant throughout the year.

He watched his daughter-in-law quietly add an extra quilt for his son at night. He knew his daughter-in-law finally cared for his son. He was aware of certain things; as an elder, he found them difficult to articulate and could only silently watch. Until the day they thoroughly understand what they really want, only then will they know what they should do with their lives.

Ran Zhihan looked at her father, who was willing to sacrifice so much for her mother. She envied him deeply. Although her husband used to do everything for her at any cost, after one argument, he never again sacrificed everything for her.

Seeing her parents like this now, she feels a mix of envy, jealousy, and resentment. But ultimately, it’s the outcome she chose for herself, making everything turn out this way. What right does she have to blame others? Every step she took was her own doing. Since she walked down this path due to circumstances, how can she blame others or resent them? Wouldn’t it be better to think about why it has become so passive?

Zhang Yichen watched his wife in a trance; he knew what she was thinking. There were things they, as a couple, no longer had common ground to discuss. Even if he didn’t speak of certain matters, they lingered in his mind, impossible to forget.

Even if they lived together without bearing grudges, some scars had rooted deeply in their hearts, embedded in their bones. What could he do to forget them? Wasn’t all of this ultimately the result of choices made by his partner?

Old Master Zang never knew about the discord between his grandson and granddaughter-in-law; he always thought they were a loving couple.

In the eyes of others, a loving young couple might still face discord due to certain issues and could even come close to divorce. But who knows what kind of agreement they reached between themselves?

The path one chooses should not be disclosed to others; quietly finishing it should suffice. Isn’t it unnecessary to let everyone else suffer emotionally because of one’s chosen path? Every decision made eventually makes everything different; what outcome one brings about determines their choice like it is now.

While everyone stood there, their thoughts were completely different. No one knew what was in each other’s hearts.

Like a couple, although they share the same bed, they dream different dreams.

Such days are truly torturous for everyone’s heart. Each person wants to live the life they desire peacefully, without ever thinking about what might have caused changes. But why interfere in others’ lives repeatedly? Isn’t it enough to manage one’s own life properly? Keeping the family happy is more important than anything else, isn’t it?

At this moment, Zhang Yichen seemed to understand the tacit understanding between his parents, an understanding no outsider could ever comprehend, achieved only through deep mutual knowledge.

Just like the tacit understanding between himself and his wife, without needing to say anything, without needing to speak, they could understand each other’s innermost thoughts. Such understanding is the real form of love, isn’t it?

Zhang Zhentian said to Xia Jing, ”Thank you so much. Thank you for being willing to change so much for me. I never imagined we would one day have such mutual understanding, a kind of understanding that not just anyone can appreciate, forged between us through time. I’m truly happy we have this kind of relationship!

Thank you for changing so much for me, for giving up your previous self-indulgent thoughts, for slowly accepting me. It proves that deep in your heart, I have a place. You genuinely want to see if we can continue together, you want to form a complete family with me, and you don’t wish for our loved ones to be hurt by our relationship anymore!

In the depths of your heart, I’ve always had a place; you just didn’t realize it yourself. You were in denial, deceiving yourself, thinking you could give up the world, even our marriage, for her. But you don’t know that the companionship over these years has become a habit, a dependency in your heart. You’re unable to discard me, deep in your heart I’ve always existed, so why don’t you admit it?

Anyway, your willingness to change for me today is the greatest happiness for me. I’m not demanding more; I’m not that greedy. Even though it involves her, all I wish is for you to stay by my side, for me to give you a happy life instead of painful memories, which is not the outcome I want!”

”I know, but even if I admit there’s a place for you in my heart, so what? I’ve already changed for you, but I truly can’t let him go completely. Some things need your understanding, though they may cause unnecessary harm to you. I’m sorry, but some hurt is unavoidable. Since I’ve chosen to change for you today, please trust me. I want to see if we can continue together; I’m not cold-hearted. I just want to hold onto my happy marriage!”

I once thought, even if I showered you with more love, it wouldn’t be limited. Maybe when you’re unhappy, I can cheer you up; when you’re down, I can travel the world with you. I’ve been genuinely happy during the days with your company, but at that time, I was no longer myself, having lost my universe.