My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1468: Chapter 1262: Exponential Rise

Sometimes, certain things aren’t within one’s control; every action is a choice one makes, and one can only bear the consequences alone.

”My child, I’ve never imagined adding insult to injury during your most difficult times. I’m your father, and you should know that a father’s greatest wish is to protect his child. How could I bear to let you suffer these harms? But why have I done all this? Time and again I’ve led myself to this point today. All I’ve wanted is to live a peaceful life, but as for you? Since I returned to this home, I’ve endured so much mockery and scorn, and you know this clearer than anyone else. When you saw me being subjected to ridicule, wasn’t there a hint of pain in your heart as my son?

Though all of this is what I brought upon myself, and it’s the consequence of my own mistakes for which I should pay the price—be it a day, two days, or three days; I don’t know how many days of consequences I’ve endured, nor do I know how much I’ve paid. I’ve supported myself step by step only to show you my determination—my heartfelt desire to stay by your side. How I wish for you to be happy! I’ve shut myself off again and again, just to show you my most perfect side, hoping time and time again for you all to live the happiest lives. Yet each time, it’s all backfired.

I have caused you all this harm, and as a father, I have no way in this lifetime to make it up to you. But I hope you understand that no matter what, a father never truly wishes to harm his child. I couldn’t possibly let my child suffer while I laugh like nothing’s wrong. Do you think, under such circumstances, I’m still fit to be your father? I’m a person, a father, a son—I need to look at things from different perspectives, consider different outcomes, and see further than anyone else. Perhaps our leaving now will bring you a calm life, restoring everything to its state before we returned, perhaps allowing you to feel much lighter.

We are fully aware of our own mental attitudes, more than anyone else. We understand the great harm we’ve caused you, and you know? When I endured deep pain within, how I longed to be happy, to be joyful, for all I’ve brought my son is harm. In your heart, I’m unworthy of being your father. But do you know? I also hope for my son’s forgiveness. Over the years, we’ve tried again and again to return to this family, and just when our wish came true, it ended like this. None of us wanted this outcome, which makes us feel like... all we wanted was a peaceful life, simply living with ease, but instead, this was the result.

Child, wherever mom and dad might be, as long as you take good care of grandpa, care for your wife, and your child, assume the responsibilities dad should have, that would be my greatest comfort. I have no way to abandon your mom, and if she chooses to leave alone, how could I, as her husband, leave her by herself? You couldn’t do it either. I believe you’re truly devoted to your wife just as I am to your mother. You should understand that feeling, right?”

”You’re right, I do understand that feeling, but I never said to let my mother leave this family. Why do you always make decisions without asking my feelings, without seeking my answer?

Is it that in your minds, you believe every decision you make is correct, only my decisions are mistaken, so you’ve completely regarded me as an outsider, not needing my opinion when making any decision? Then what am I in this family? Am I still a part of this family? If I am, then I should have a voice, a say in who stays and who leaves this family!

I don’t understand what reason makes you so hard-hearted, choosing to leave again today. I blame no one because I know, if my wife is destined to face such a tribulation, even if you didn’t return, she would still become crazy, still suffer from depression. I can’t blame anyone but myself as her husband for not giving her enough love, neglecting her, leading to her becoming like this. All the responsibility should be mine, not my parents’. You have neither the reason nor the qualification to take on the responsibility of me as a husband for his wife, who is your daughter-in-law.

I think my words have reached this point, you should understand what I mean. Don’t keep opposing me over and over, or try to test my patience. I don’t have such great patience, everyone’s tolerance has limits. You know better than anyone—the repeated challenges against someone’s limits lead to no good results; they can only make things awkward between us. Consider things more when you act, even if just a little. Even a small amount would make me much happier, much lighter. I don’t need my parents to offer me great help, I need them to sincerely treat me and be willing to let go of their stubborn beliefs for the family’s sake.”

If one avoids a confrontation, perhaps living might feel tiring; but if they cling too deeply to their beliefs, wouldn’t living be exhausting even more? Step by step, driving themselves to madness, hoping each step for happiness and joy—do you think that’s a meaningful life?

I don’t wish for my parents to leave this family. If you truly love me, don’t add to my burdens during my most difficult times, but stay for no other reason than to give me peace of mind, okay? Don’t make me worry about you both, figure out a way to protect you. It’s truly exhausting for me. Offer me a bit of freedom and space, or even security, why can’t you?

I am a child lacking a sense of security—if only you would stay here, I wouldn’t care about anything else...”

If there are things you aren’t capable of, then don’t take actions whose consequences you can’t bear.