My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1484: Chapter 1278: Please Tell Me

Sometimes, I also think that if one day you fall in love with someone else, you must remember to tell me so I won’t continue waiting like a fool!

Old Master Zhang fears nothing now, but what he fears most is that after his son makes his decision this time, it won’t be long before he returns asking for forgiveness to be welcomed back into the family again and again. He doesn’t understand the meaning of such actions. All he wants is for his son to stay peacefully in this family. What good does repeated departure do? It only makes others look down on him repeatedly. But he seems to care very little about all this; the only thing he cares about is his wife. In his eyes and his heart, there’s no room for anyone else except his wife, not even his father.

”I don’t want to say much to you right now, I just want to ask, in your eyes, do you see me as your father, do you see this home? What is all this you have done really for? Time and again you’ve abandoned your family, disregarding everything and treating your family as objects of harm—do you believe such actions are correct? Have you considered how much harm and pain you’ve brought upon this family over the years? Has the family ever blamed you? Never. As long as you want to come back, the family embraces you without hesitation, yet you never show remorse, nor do you recognize what you have done wrong—not a hint of repentance.

When I discovered my most beloved granddaughter-in-law was suffering from depression and hospitalized, I knew these matters were inextricably linked to you, yet I chose not to blame you. I understand her physical condition expresses a certain attitude, and I know she’s been tremendously aggrieved these days, neglected by your son. But it isn’t your fault. You returned to the family simply so that everyone could live happily, joyfully—none of us wanted such a situation to unfold here. But now that it has, what choice do we have but to confront it, right?

What I want isn’t for you to repeatedly speak against your own desires, nor to act as if nothing’s wrong. What I want is for you to face your hearts sincerely and honestly again and again. If you believe what you’re doing is right, I think what you have done is worthy of him, worthy of your son, because so much has been given on these matters.

You should know your son genuinely loves his wife; she has sacrificed a great deal for him. These aren’t matters that can be forgotten with a few simple words. You left for your own selfish gain, yet now your son has borne the burden of the family for so many years, without gratitude from you. You think what he has done is all wrong. If it were you, would you still have the heart to contribute to the family? What would you consider necessary contributions to the family?

”Dad, I never thought of escaping the responsibilities I should bear. I just don’t want everything to become overly complicated. You should consider: was it solely my mistake that led to this, or did you also play a part? You’ve always expected me to follow in your footsteps time and again. Am I not a person in my own right? Don’t I want to forge my own path, pursue my own life? I want my life to be extraordinary, so that many years later, when I look back, I won’t regret not having walked my own path.”

I understand that such an outcome has hurt you, but there are things I truly don’t know how to explain to you. I just want you to be able to live peacefully, happy—that’s all.”

Dad, I know I should think carefully before acting because every action carries a price. Every action I took in the past never made me face any consequences—I handed all the consequences to you to bear. Deep inside my heart, there is an immense sense of guilt.”

But over the years I have already neglected each of you, and I certainly won’t resort to neglecting my wife due to these sudden changes. After all, she’s been with me through so many years of ups and downs. She stood by me during my hardest times, never abandoning me. During my deepest struggles she always held my hand, refusing to let go. In my saddest and most painful moments, she gave me the warmest embrace, giving me a sense of home, warmth, and happiness. I can’t just abandon her because of this current outcome. If it were to happen, then I wouldn’t be worthy of being your son. Everyone in our family has unwavering devotion toward their loved ones, willing to face anything for them. But now if I were to selfishly pursue joy and happiness in the family, abandoning my wife heartlessly, if she were to leave this family, would you still consider me worthy of being your son? Would I still be a part of this family?

Perhaps every word I say today might make you feel I’ve changed drastically; I’ve never chosen to speak these words because I know actions speak louder than words. Time and again, I’ve made myself appear terrifyingly like a demon, only to ease my way through life. I’m not doing all this for anything else but to have a stable home!”

Now everything has changed entirely. My recognition and attitude have made me numb, unable to understand the motives behind my actions. I no longer know what I am truly striving for—I’ve genuinely regretted it. I’ve transformed myself into the most terrifying person in the world repeatedly, bringing myself so much pain and grief. All I ever wanted was for you all to be happy. The pain I’ve brought, I’ll perhaps never be able to compensate, but I sincerely want to stay in this family to care for you, protect you, to make every member of this family feel that my presence isn’t a mistake. Yet, now I am forced to leave my wife, compelled to leave, then what am I still here for? As husband and wife, we should share blessings and hardships —how can I abandon my wife for the sake of personal enjoyment of wealth and prosperity?

If there comes a day my wife truly feels tired of me, that I shouldn’t be around her all the time, then and there, I’ll choose to leave. But even when I leave, I’ll continue silently protecting her from behind, never changing. That is my utmost loyalty to love, loyalty to marriage, loyalty to her—the greatest form of action.”

Is it that Heaven intentionally imposes so many hardships upon us as torment? How can we do to make everything return to the way it was?