My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1777: Chapter 1571: Longing

Maybe you’ll never understand how much I miss you.

If I could, I would wish to become that figure in the fairy tales, like the Angel you love. I believe that if I open my arms, I could hold you tightly within them.

”I don’t understand why you think I’ll believe every word you say, nor do I understand why you’re so confident in saying these things to me.

If I were you, I would choose to never say some words for the best outcome for both of us. Some things shouldn’t be said, yet you choose to say them to me here. Isn’t your intent simply to embarrass me? If you really don’t want me to be well, why bother to interfere with sincere intentions?”

”Chen Gang, once some decisions are made, there’s no turning back. Since you chose to do this yourself, then no one should be blamed. Once the decision is made, you have to kneel and walk this road to the end.

Sometimes what’s in your heart and reality are completely different. Do you know, when you appeared before me, I knew you had already occupied my heart. I understood that in this lifetime, there would be no room for anyone else. Yet, because I cared so much about you, it ended in betrayal. I didn’t expect that my care would lead to you deceiving me, using me, and never trusting me. I always believed that whatever I wanted, I could have, and you’d silently support me. But later I realized it was all just an illusion!

If you truly think I’m in your heart, then make the politically correct decision. Some things are left unsaid to save face for each other. Once things are spoken, it only puts both parties in an awkward position. Many things could have alternative outcomes, but because of an unavoidable path, the relationship ultimately collapses into dust.”

He never expected that his beloved woman would say such things to him. At this moment, he realized that no matter how wealthy he was, or how great his achievements, in the eyes of the woman he loved, he was nothing more than a worthless clown. She thought as long as she did grand things, she’d win him over.

But later, she realized that no matter how well she did, no matter to what extent she went, in the eyes of the woman he loved, it was never what he wanted. All he wanted was to peacefully get what he wanted, but why did it end up being so difficult? In his eyes, was everything he did nothing more than the antics of a clown?

”Zhihan, I don’t care what you think deep down, but I hope you understand that once something happens, there’s no room for change. I don’t care how you view me. Maybe you think I’m just a clown who will stop at nothing to achieve my goals, but I did it all for you. I said so many wrong things just to distract your husband so I could have a chance to win you back, to keep you by my side forever, never leaving me.

I thought that if I worked hard enough, if I gave everything for you, you’d eventually understand me. But in the end, I found you never thought of me that way. I don’t know how you view me, maybe you regarded me as a stranger from the start. Was every word you said a lie? Did you ever truly see me as family?”

”From the beginning, I never saw you as family. Friends are friends; they can’t be replaced by anything else.

No matter why you said what you just said, I still have to clearly tell you the harsh reality. From the start, you were just a classmate, just a good friend. I’ve never seen you as family because you’re not in my circle of family.

Though I know saying this is hurtful, and it forces some to bow down, I have no choice. To prevent further misunderstandings, I broke my silence. I can’t trust you completely like before because your trust is built on exploiting me. How can I sincerely open my inner world to you, allowing you to use me time and time again against the person I love the most?”

Chen Gang is both crying and smiling at this moment. He never imagined that the woman he wholeheartedly wanted would never see him as family, would never consider him as such. All he wanted was to be with the woman he loved. But why has it turned out like this? It all exceeded what he and I imagined.

”You say these thoughts to hurt me, and your conscience feels no guilt? I’ve loved you painstakingly for so many years, given so much for you, yet you hurt my true feelings like this. Is my sincerity truly so insignificant in your eyes? All I wanted was a simple smile from you, but you always saw me as someone using you. You’ll never understand the pain of loving someone, pain that can’t be easily explained in words. The pain I’ve endured is something you will never understand, because there’s simply no place for me in your heart!”

”Chen Gang, I’m sorry. I know these facts will hit you hard, making you think I don’t love you. But do you know? If I pretended to love you but only acted for show, when the truth is revealed, it’ll hurt you more than me. I can’t be so heartless. I can’t pretend to love you to achieve my goals. I’m not that heartless!

But I won’t be like others, unable to refuse you, causing more psychological damage to you. Today, I’m using this method to tell you so that you understand we’re truly incompatible. Don’t hold thoughts you shouldn’t have. Don’t maintain notions that shouldn’t exist. Let this be my last slip. I won’t believe you anymore. From now on, we are irrelevant to each other. You can spread your wings and fly to the ends of the earth, rather than hang onto just me!”

Ran Zhihan woke up and forgot all her memories!