My Alleged Husband

Chapter 788: Chapter 758 The Heaven is Not Heartless_1

No one could understand exactly what they were feeling at that moment, facing their closest kin standing here, yet being utterly powerless to help. Xia Jing was the person inside, their dearest and best friend, yet they could only lie there alone, with no one able to enter and share their burden, or even speak to them. Everyone’s heart was simply being tortured.

”Xiao Wei, your sister truly appreciates that you made the trip back to see me, but do you know? I also hope that you can live your own life well. I know that deep in your heart, your sister has always been there, you consider your sister your closest family, and no matter when or where, you would never betray your sister. However, no matter what, your sister can’t see you struggling so hard on my account, traveling back and forth. You should live a good life with your wife, the life you both deserve to live.”

This accident was completely beyond my expectations, I had never imagined that one day, I would be involved in a car accident like this, but this time, it was purely my own doing. I blame no one, whatever consequences this incident brings, whatever the outcome I face, I will bear the responsibility myself. After all, it was a mistake I made, so why should I drag others down with me?

Gradually, I have come to understand why it is said that the human heart is such, only when one loses something, do they realize how important it was to them. Again and again, I had to wait until I had completely lost those closest to me to understand that all of this is not as I imagined it—the people I didn’t intend to hurt, couldn’t be harmed recklessly without regard for their feelings. One day, he too would feel heartbroken because of his actions, and eventually, even the heavens would not stand idly by. They would deliver punishment!”

Xiao Wei knew that Xia Jing was full of self-reproach.

He didn’t know how to comfort his sister, seeing her living in such pain, how could his heart be at ease? But some things simply have no solution. He didn’t know what to say either, as these issues required his sister to experience and comprehend them herself to see any effect. If it was all based on others persuading from the side, then even if they could reconcile completely, what would it amount to? When the most basic trust and feelings between them were gone, what was left besides mutual suspicion and doubt? Would such a marriage lead to happiness after living together?

”Sister, you don’t have to blame yourself too much, not everything is related to you. You haven’t made any mistakes, so why should you bear the responsibility and consequences? It’s enough if you just live your life well!

How you have lived these years, we all know very well. Deep down, each of us has a sense of it. You have given so much over and over again, yet the results are not what you wanted. Isn’t this also a kind of harm to you? You have endured so much pain time and again, without ever making a sound because you know that only by becoming stronger step by step, can you eventually reach places others will never reach. Because you are clearer than anyone else that everything a person does requires their own effort to gradually make it to the end.”

Now that things have turned out this way, no matter how much more we say, it won’t be helpful, nor will it make a difference. The only thing we can do now is wait for my brother-in-law to wake up safely, isn’t it? If something really happens to him, not just you, but everyone present here wouldn’t be able to stand it. He is now our family member, and even if he weren’t, even if he were just an ordinary friend, we would feel it’s such a pity, let alone now that he is your husband, Sister. Nothing is more precious to us than family!”

When Xia Jing heard what Xiao Wei said, the deep anguish in her heart intensified. She had never thought that one day she would become what she was now, waiting time and again, expecting over and over, only to receive hurt after hurt. What should she do to make things different, to let everyone know that deep down, she genuinely cared for this family, for each person in this household.

”You’re right, I believe that the heavens are not heartless, they must have their own eyes, and they contemplate deeply before making each decision. I believe his decision won’t disappoint everyone here, he’s so kind-hearted, even with all the mistakes I’ve made, he still didn’t have the heart to let me lose everything.”

I once thought that perhaps, due to my multitude of sins, heaven would take my life. But in the end, I found He was far too kind to me, sparing my life time and again. Yet upon reflection, He was merely punishing me in different forms.

My life flows here without taking much, yet it capriciously seeks the lives of those I love most. For me, isn’t this the ultimate revenge? Now, there’s a sense of vindictive satisfaction in Him, but what about me? I can only silently watch the person in my heart lying there, while I can only stand here. Do you know how utterly despairing that feels?

I would rather lie there with him still now. At least that way I could stay by her side. Now that I’ve stood up, I don’t want him to struggle alone in there. I really want to go back in and be with him...”

Zhang Yichen was hearing his mother articulate her feelings towards his father in public for the first time. At this moment, he realized that deep down, his mother cared for his father. He simply didn’t know how to express it, choosing to show the depths of his heart in ways difficult for others to accept. Yet, he forgot that all that he did ultimately hurt everyone.

Because he wasn’t good at expressing himself, everyone deeply misunderstood her, thinking she was heartless, never considering things from another’s perspective or their feelings. But who knew the bitterness she had endured all her life, the agony that no one could comprehend, the difficulty of her journey to today?

Today, he finally saw his own mother as a normal woman with tears and moments of heartache. She swallowed all the pain alone during her toughest times, never thinking of revealing her heartache to others, not wanting others to suffer with her.

When she was tormented again and again, she drowned all her tears deep inside, never thinking how hard her life was. She wanted all her pain to go unnoticed; she didn’t want others to know the suffering hidden in her heart. She feared ridicule and had to bear all the hurt alone.

Perhaps it was her stubbornness that made everyone think she was impervious to poison, that no matter how she was hurt or spoken of, she would not be sad or complain. But who knew what she had gone through? The concessions she made time and again, were they really because she was powerless? She still chose to believe that everyone would believe in her, that they wanted to stay by her side.

”Mom, I believe what you say is right. I believe heaven is not so heartless, I believe there is compassion. It will surely awaken my father. And you must stay healthy, so when my father wakes up, then on that day you two can embrace each other passionately. At that moment, the whole world will be blessing you. You must hold on and wait, wait for a miracle to occur for every one of us in our family, wait for heaven to allow us to continue living happily and joyously like before. Such a life would be the perfect life!

No matter what happened in the past, no matter what consequences or outcomes we may face, we must confront them together. Because we are a family, a family that, under any circumstances, will not abandon each other!”